hey guys! merry christmas eve! unfortunately, i come bearing..

hey guys! merry christmas eve! unfortunately, i come bearing bad news :( the elf themed three way video will not be available for purchase. i didn’t even shoot the scene. i got too uncomfortable. i thought i would be ready for shooting something like that but i wasnt. im sorry to anybody who was looking forward to it. my regulars know that i really struggle with my mental health and needed a break in november. i came back in december and wanted to be bigger and better than ever. so i lined up two different cosplays and a sex tape during the month of christmas (good going fraz) and it was a very bad idea. when i first started sex work, i didn’t really plan stuff? i would just get out of bed everyday, put on a cute outfit, and go from there. i was even streaming on twitch and hanging out with you guys! i was making pretty good money. i mean i had my own place at one point. it was a lot of fun. now this was like peak egirl era on tiktok and i don’t consider myself a typical “egirl” but i was trying so hard to be because that’s what got attention and brought people to my page. so i started beating myself up when i realized i couldn’t hit that expectation. i needed a better set up. i needed to cosplay more. i need to do more on tiktok. i have to start making sex tapes. i have to buy better toys. and eventually, i did all those things. but now im miserable. and i don’t wear/use anything that i bought like ever due to all this stress. i did the better makeup and got the better set up and ive been cosplaying more but because i feel like i have to and not because i want to. don’t get me wrong, i had so much fun in my faye valentine and mavis dracula this month but by the end, i was so over it. didn’t even want to touch my phone. i couldn’t even bring myself to finish my advent calendar. december was not a good month to come back. ive been putting too much on my shoulders. im draining any sunshine in me. so here’s what im doing moving forward. im posting when i want, what i want. im going to try to not hold myself to any expectations and just do what i want. one day at a time. im going to probably not do any partnered work for a bit but rather focus on my solo work. im not going to announce things (like the three way) without doing it first. my subscription site, don’t worry, you’ll still be getting your moneys worth and then some. youll be my primary focus moving forward. im most likely going to lay low the rest of this month, get my sites situated, and then get going again. I have one more mavis video (2 on OF) to be posted and that is it for the remainder of the month. i hope i don’t lose anybody due to my instability but, if i do, i understand ❤️ thank you for taking time out of your day to read this and i hope you’re having the loveliest of holidays! (full, uncropped photo available for f@nsly subs)