hello everyone, I know some of you aren't able to be with m..
Added 2022-04-30 02:02:46 +0000 UTChello everyone, I know some of you aren't able to be with me on stream, so I wanted to make a post about what we are celebrating. this is something personal and very important to me. now let's get right into it. I have been fighting for disability assistance for the last couple years & I am happy to say I WON! I now don't have to worry about money so much and I can work on getting better. without getting too personal I suffer from severe depression, anxiety, and ptsd. PTSD has been the worst and is the cause of me needing to get financial help because it doesn't just affect me mentally also affects me physically. I physically lose control of my whole body to the point where I am flailing, kicking, reliving situations, fainting and so much more. the list unfortunately can go on. yes I have seen doctors and I'm probably going to see many more until I figure what is wrong. I have the assistance for 4 years and I am going to take this time to figure out what is wrong and work towards being able to live a more normal life. I do not know if this is something that's going to affect me for the rest of my life or if it is something that I can fix but either way I am going to work so hard to get to where things are easier. so for the next few months I'll be focusing on taking things a little bit slower and figuring out what works best for me. I don't want to let this control my life. I don't want to keep missing out living how I want to. this is a big reason why I have started stretching almost every day because I feel if I start taking better care of myself maybe just maybe things will get better. things have absolutely gotten better over the years but things also gotten worse I'm tired of letting it control me. I will be bringing you along with my journey instead of hiding it all from you because this is part of who I am. no more hiding. no more feeling ashamed and no more being harsh on myself.
