An update from me: I hate myself for falling into this phase..
Added 2023-02-15 18:38:06 +0000 UTCAn update from me: I hate myself for falling into this phase. I have way too often, but here we are again. I really loved last year’s Valentine's Day pictures, but looking back on them and pictures from previous years, I noticed how much weight I had gained. I don’t feel sexy anymore. I hate how much extra fat I have, especially around my tummy. I can feel the extra fat on my back at times when I walk or sit. I can’t stand it. I still look good from some angles, but I don’t feel good in my current body. This, as well as stress at work, triggered my anxiety and depression once again. I haven't been this depressed in a long time. I’ve been feeling shit for weeks, which isn’t a good excuse, as you paid for content. If I didn’t have Maki, I’d definitely have more suicidal thoughts than I have right now. There’s no way I could leave her. I’m sorry that I can’t seem to get my act together and be capable of living life and being a responsible adult. I’ve decided to sign up for BetterHelp for some therapy once I have enough money, as these phases are ruining my life and I’ve had enough. It’s unfortunate that I didn't get to do anything cool for Valentine’s Day. I hope you still had a nice day!
