Sorry for disappearing. Depression finally got to me again, ..
Added 2022-12-11 15:27:36 +0000 UTCSorry for disappearing. Depression finally got to me again, though luckily not as hard as usual, as I was kept busy with Maki and work. There are quite a few reasons and one of them is my dissatisfaction with my body. I've been feeling very insecure about my body again. Had to weigh a package while standing on a scale and I've hit 70 kg... I knew I had been gaining weight, but that just verified it for me. I had to buy some pants for a conference next week and had to buy a size 42 😭. I used to be a 38 two years ago. I'm just feeling pretty insecure and shitty about my body. Yes, I can still manage to take some sexy pictures with the right angles, but that's about it. I don't feel good walking around with all this extra fat that I can feel while moving. Wish I could just stick to working out again. 🙁
