This is my ex Michael. I still love him. I always will! But ..
Added 2020-01-17 02:26:29 +0000 UTCThis is my ex Michael. I still love him. I always will! But we had to part ways. We almost got married! We had pets together, we travelled across the country to visit each other's families for holidays. Few people can make me feel as unguarded & inspired as him. He was devoted for life, and I knew I loved him in the most pure way I've ever felt... but inside me something was aching. It knew that no matter how much I loved him, I was lying to myself by staying together, because there was something I had to do on my own, that only *I* could do. Something I couldn't accomplish if we stayed as a couple. It's hard to explain. Like... there's a quest my soul has to embark on without Michael~I couldn't bring him because my love for him is so strong that it impaired my ability to make the right choices for myself. I would have sacrificed *anything* for him. And I did for years, and that couldn't go on. Leaving him has been the hardest thing I've ever done, in part because it wasn't rational! He was my best friend, my man, my protector, my support, and I chose to leave it all behind, so that I could learn how to provide those things for myself. He begged me stay, but also supported my choice to leave. I was afraid he'd hate me, but he never did. He was hurt, but we still love each other, even if it's from afar on new & independent journies. Now that's love. I think the sentiment here is that soul mates are real. Even if you're on different paths, you can still be infinitely connected to someone. I'm always seeking my inner truth, and I hope my interactions with you can help inspire the same in your journey.
