Look, its drunkie me!! well, messed up me from a long time ..

Look, its drunkie me!! well, messed up me from a long time ago, bc I've been in tears all day, look like a total mess, and am ready to drown all my sorrows into a bottle of wine or two in a few mins and will probbly look like this in an hour or two... Today is for sure the worst day of the year for me. I woke up this morning just to find out that Instagram had decided to delete my account overnight. No warning, no transparency, they just clicked their Instaban button on my account and just like that, the last two years of my life spent building it were gone, *poof* Whats super upsetting to me is that they banned me for Adult Solicitation, but I haven't been soliciting anything on their site. I literally never type "OnlyFans" on Instagram, nor do I post in my stories about promotions or with direct links to it. I have a linktr.ee in my bio just like all the Chivettes and even the Insta Royals with millions of followers. Why Mark Zuckerberg decided to pick on me.. i really donno. All I can think (and not very well in my super emotional state!!) is that people must have trolled me by reporting something, and Instagram's totally stupid AI moderation just decided that they were right and banned me, all without ever involving an actual human moderation. Instagram is so awful like that!! What I'm the most upset about is that I've spent every day working on that account for the past two years.. I commented a ton, I always posted new content for it.. im pretty sure that I had over 280 posts there, and that doesnt include stories. And its the place that I go to talk to all of my favorite Chivettes and editors from theChive, and where I got to know a lot of you too! It feels like Instagram is like of those cults where as soon as they don't like you, you're kicked out and can no longer talk to people you were close to. Its like I just lost a huge part of me that I can't get back now. So, I'm going to drink a lot... And I'm going to figure out if I can even keep my OnlyFans going now.. I promise that I won't just disappear on you.. I'll tell you at least a month or two in advance if I'm gonna give up online, and if I do, it'll be not just here but everywhere. By the way.. that @natalieastakbabe account on Instagram was my only one. Any others that you see are 100% FAKE, don't fall for them!!! Thank you for always supporting me, it means so much to me and you're the reason I'm still posting!! I really do mean that too.. Its because of you being here for all the ups and downs with me that I'm still here.