I really want to apologize. I know, I haven't been posting ..

I really want to apologize. I know, I haven't been posting here as much as I should. It's a constant mental battle for me every second after I start getting ready. There are two main reasons and I'd like to explain. These aren't excuses, and I'm not justifying anything. I'd just like to communicate what's going on. I don't feel sexy anymore. I know I am beautiful, and I try to tell myself everyday to get the confidence you deserve. I've gained alot of weight recently and it's really weighing me down. I truely believe you deserve the best, and the best parts of me. I don't want to give you half ass content that isn't genuine. I want everything I post to have a hire standard. I know I can't make professional content with what I have, but I want to give the best I can make. I want to wear my make up, get dressed up and give you the best I can be. I wanted to feel beautiful for you. I wish feeling sexy was an every day thing, but the disappointing truth is that it is rare. Sadly the down fall is not making enough content for your money to be worth it, doing the exact opposite of what I was hoping. I wanted my new years resolution to be posting here every day, or at least every other day, but I've already messed that up. The second reason was because of the subreddit. Seeing it at first was really disappointing. I was originally upset that my content was being put out for free when everyone here was paying for it. I thought of different ways of "fixing" a problem that I couldn't fix. I put in the referral system so you can get free months when bring someone in, and even gave discounts to those coming from reddit. A friend recommended I get a lawyer and sue reddit and I did. I thought the next "right step" would be sending ppv messages to control what was leaked and what wasn't. Lately, I'm starting to just accept that my content will always be leaked. I want to ask if you could not leak my content, but if you do, please only leak what is posted on the page and not what's in the dms. I know not everyone can afford it, but for those who pay extra, they deserve to have that piece to themselves. Another thing i want to apologize for is the monthly cost here. I started this page as a side hustle, and never thought I would post full nudes. I made the prices absurdly high for all my content because I wasn't comfortable with doing what I'm doing now. I've dropped the prices quite a bit since then, but I know they're still too high. Especially with how often I'm currently posting. I truely do wish to drop the monthly price down, and the content prices. After posting this, I will be dropping the monthly price again. I know after this, I will just have to budget a bit more to pay my bills, but its what's right. I do really apologize for your time and money waisted. I wish I would've done better before, but for now, I will fight my brain and post more often here.