So much on my mind. What do I share? 😳🤪🧐 I am my biggest ene..
Added 2023-05-04 21:06:09 +0000 UTCSo much on my mind. What do I share? 😳🤪🧐 I am my biggest enemy and biggest critic. Walking down the beach this evening with the moon rising, I sit down in the sand and take a photo with the moon behind me. I really do not know what each day in my life will bring. I have moments where I am scared to fail myself and others, and I definitely do not want to let people down. Life truly is a process, and I am in the middle of learning how to record myself having sex and giving a blow job. And based on what I have recorded, I have failed. But I have not failed. I sit in my long Hawaiian village dress, showered and clean, in an open shop where people come to do money transactions writing to you because my room does not give me good enough phone connection to be online. The expectations I place on myself keep me moving forward, and often keep me moving forward alone. If I am concerned about failing myself, how much greater the fear is of failing others. Hence, why I loved living a quiet life in the jungle alone. I no longer want to be alone forever, yet I do not want to let people down. 😁 Today I wanted to masturbate and make myself cum. I wanted to enjoy the pleasure of rubbing oil on my body and feeling my clitoris and the warmth inside my pussy. I wanted to take photos of me in stretching poses. I wanted to scrub my feet. I have wanted to do so much more than I have. This is me. Sometimes I move fast and sometimes I move slow. There is a saying that many of the people of Kendwa know me as, “Bila Kuchoka”. It means without tire. Another translation could be never give up. I am so appreciative of everyone’s love and support. I had no idea how much people cared and liked me. Being on OnlyFans, social media, walking the streets in a foreign country, I have learned I AM BILA KUCHOKA, ALWAYS AND FOREVER. So I will sleep soon and wake up tomorrow, and without tire, I will continue this journey of sexual exploration not matter what the videos show or look like. I succeed everyday because I never give up. Aloha 😁🙏🏾🌺
