🍁 Things to Be Thankfulful for in Nov. 🍁 Reciprocal Attent..

🍁 Things to Be Thankfulful for in Nov. 🍁 Reciprocal Attention and FF Sex Drew here. I first knew I wanted to watch Elena with other men was over a decade ago when she was traveling for work and told me how this guy was flirting with her . I didn’t have a knot in my stomach or get mad about it . I was harder than I’ve ever been and told her to ‘do it ‘ . She could have but didn’t but it certainly got the discussion going . Maybe I’m wired different but I didn’t really fantasize about other women. I had my dream woman - why would I think about being with anyone else when this beautiful sexual open woman was my wife that I could be with whenever I wanted . Even when I looked at porn it would frequently be with women who looked like Elena . When she was pregnant I was so turned on looking at blond pregnant porn. When she talked about a coworker who was sexy I’d search up blond milf porn. The lifestyle for me was never about swinging and getting to be with other women but in watching MY wife get pleasured beyond belief and have these amazing experiences with her fantasy men and yet at the end of the day she chooses me as her partner. Compersion is a real thing BUT there are moments when someone who doesn’t understand the lifestyle or our dynamic or me will try to denigrate me by calling me a cuck, not a real man, who would allow their wife to do this etc . It doesn’t usually get to me. Some dynamics with our play partners are better than others . There’s often mutual respect and I get along with these men and we have our own discussions and ‘friendship’ but others will push and try to play an alpha card or attempt to box me out of conversations . Some of course only ‘deal’ with me being there because it’s a way to get to her. I know it . She knows it and it doesn’t tend to last when it happens . We are both extremely open sexually and don’t label things and have a ‘if it feels good do it ‘ mentality . She’s been with women and loves seeing me service a guy.. or be serviced . We aren’t attracted to the same sex but in those rooms pleasure is key regardless of gender . But let’s be real at the end of the day you have these thoughts of okay, my wife plays with these younger hot studs now I’m sometimes taking a sub role for both and it is fun and there are no judgment or regrets (it’s a rule we live by) but there are times where my own thoughts of self esteem and social roles have me doubt myself as an alpha partner, a sexual being beyond the sexual relationship with my wife Enter swing clubs. When we’ve gone to clubs it was also with the intent of meeting singles but sometimes it’s fun and relaxing to talk to couples just like us . To have a drink and dance and laugh with others with these ‘secret’ lives . And I discovered to my own surprise that some of these women liked flirting with me and I enjoyed flirting back. Maybe they’re doing it to help their husbands be with Elena . Maybe they’re doing it because they’re legitimately interested in me, Drew. But as some who didn’t look at other women for 25 years or have those thoughts it was a fascinating feeling . It feels good to be ‘wanted’ even if there was no play involved. It felt better when there was . Our first full swap happened by accident . And the truth is even with full permission to play I wasn’t ready or comfortable. We didn’t discuss it in detail for months like we do it everything else, swapping wasn’t ‘us’ . Elena gave the green light but i actually fake premature ejaculation because I was so embarrassed I couldn’t get hard for this woman. I just wanted my wife , But I adored the attention . The self esteem draw for me comes from the flirting with couples we know better rather than just randoms. Knowing I can be charming and make the other person laugh or have them touch me in a flirty way. Sneaking a kiss . I tend to handle jealousy well in that I don’t really feel it . I get off on Elena’s pleasure . But when she has gotten sooo much attention and cums so easily with some of these play partners and some will try to be dismissive of me or other times I’ll play in a sub role flipping that switch to be more aggressive and finding out that yes, even though I’m pushing 50 and need more time at the gym and there’s less hair on my head than there was 20 years ago I can still be a traditional male and flirt with and seduce an attractive female or former model and make them cum as well. It’s not something that I think about or crave . I tend to still be much more excited about our normal play dates and watching Elena in the throws of passion with someone else but as a guy I still like the feeling of being wanted and appreciated and sexualized by someone other than my wife . And good lord who doesn’t want to see their wife with another woman? Having her play with another female or couple whether I’m involved or not is still the peak hotness and I’m always looking at finding a good match for that because it also serves as nice counterbalance for everything else . The photos are a few friends we met along the way with me cropped out (cause you all rather see her and ladies than me haha). So yes today I’m thankful for the beauty that is FF sex and the fact that this old guy still has a bit of ‘game’ left in the tank