So, today something strange happened with a fan I met the da..
Added 2024-12-03 23:01:21 +0000 UTCSo, today something strange happened with a fan I met the day before yesterday. We had a very nice conversation, and it seemed like there was mutual liking between us. Well, I definitely liked him, and he, in turn, seemed to be quite invested in me. There was no conflict between us, and the communication seemed balanced and not pushy.
Anyway, a couple of hours ago, I discovered that he had blocked me and deleted our conversation. I didn’t understand why.
From a rational perspective, it hurts because I’m not a bot or a scammer – I’m a real person, and I put time and creativity into my communication. Even though it’s a small job, it’s honest work, and I’m passionate about it, even though I could be spending my time on my own page or doing something else.
From an emotional perspective, it’s confusing and bitter because, again, I’m not a scammer or a bot. I get emotionally invested in the people I talk to, and I really love them if they are kind to me. It just happens that I can’t just sell vaginas for money; what I do is important to me, and I put my soul into it. I also quickly become attached to people when the communication goes beyond formality or light flirting. I don’t see the need to grow up or understand something – that’s just a trait of my personality, and I live with it. I believe that when I start deeper conversations with fans, I manage to convey this about myself.
Anyway, such events are really disheartening and destabilizing for me. I’m grateful for the medication I’m currently taking because it prevented my emotions from crushing me, and I didn’t end up in tears or pain.
Maybe I’m making a mistake, but I want to try to find that person. I hope it was just some misunderstanding.
To my dear fans with whom I actively communicate, I ask that if something suddenly bothers you about me and you want to stop talking or just delete your account, please let me know.
