For the umpteenth time I open my notes and can’t write anyth..
Added 2023-10-29 08:37:07 +0000 UTCFor the umpteenth time I open my notes and can’t write anything.
Either because there’s nothing to do, or because I’m tired of myself and feel sick that I’m writing too sad stories here.
I'm worried a lot about work right now. I would even say that I am going through a very anxious and difficult period related to work.
Simply put, I can’t work and it’s scary.
I know for sure that there is only one way out of this situation - I need to discipline myself and complete some tasks every day, through force. No excuses or excuses.
I think that this is the only way I can break this vicious circle.
Otherwise, at this pace of life, I will soon be living on the street.
Plus, I started having kidney problems again. I feel very exhausted in my body, body and mind.
It's been 2 months already...
This is my longest relapse of a depressive episode in years. The last one was in November-December last year, if you remember that. It lasted about a month.
Each time it seems to get worse and worse.
Recently, while standing in the shower, I noticed a thought that was causing me anxiety. And I discovered that anxiety is caused by thoughts about the future and the past.
I feel anxious about what hasn't happened yet. And I think that it was better before.
I can't focus on the here and now. And sublimate the energy in the moment.
