I’m sorry I’m not doing too well today, I haven’t been able ..
Added 2021-03-27 01:14:31 +0000 UTCI’m sorry I’m not doing too well today, I haven’t been able to stop crying. A few days ago I decided to try to work things out with my now ex partner, and made plans to improve myself here, and plans for us, and I asked him if he saw a future with me and he said yes. Then last night he tells me that he didn’t mean any of that, essentially it was all a lie, and I’ve spent this last week working on myself and making plans for us all while he watched and said nothing. I’m so hurt. Why lie about this? Why lie to me about us having a future? Everything feels like a lie at this point and all of my love, the last two + years, is all for nothing. I poured myself into someone who doesn’t even love me enough to at least not lie. I wanted to stay here because my grandma isn’t doing well and I wanted to be here for her cause I know leaving would devastate her (I’m afraid she is going to pass soon and after losing my mom this is really hard), I wanted to keep my job/insurance so I could go to therapy, and I applied to go to school in the fall to get a certificate and eventually a better job. Now it all just feels like a waste. I’ll be better tomorrow and I’m sorry for the long rant, I just am extremely devastated and heartbroken.
