Thoughts on Travel, Part 2. Moving Abroad. About the externa..

Thoughts on Travel, Part 2. Moving Abroad.

About the external and internal search for a place and finding this place in oneself and in the world.

Even though my reasons for traveling were rooted in a negative past, what really helped make this lifestyle come true - was a positive outlook, finding a value of how beneficial it could be for me to move away from my hometown. I compared my prospects and the choice was clear as day. This pushed me to think outside of the bubble I grew up in. Take an action, take control or be stuck forever.
Long time ago I used to be inspired by people I saw in the media, TV, internet. A scientists, travelers, celebrities, etc. This glamorous, not necessarily real, but very attractive wrap. The film industry also left its mark. All the quality movies with huge production budgets as well as more niche European cinema with soul touching stories were produced by talents abroad. By any cost I felt like I want to be a part of the world I’ve seen, but didn’t understand. It was romanticized, polished and so different from my life. Even the ugly parts of this Western world drove my attention and mesmerized me. My life never looked like a dream movie with all the drama and fascinating plot turns. My life looked like cheap absurd show that is hard to watch because it badly written. At least that what I thought at that time. Now I don’t feel like this anymore and I find my past life to be an important part of my big and interesting story. Back then I was desperately searching for a better life with more opportunities, more stable economics, healthcare, different mindset etc. Some say money can’t buy happiness. But I’ve never heard a biggest lie. When your basic needs are covered and you can live without stress of what to eat tomorrow and how to afford rent, when you are able to treat yourself with nice food and unique experiences, you can actually feel like a human. You can feel alive. You can live and not only exist in this mad capitalized world. I was chasing it. And to this day I try my best to take care of myself and my future. I’m happy I can actually pay taxes. Funny enough. Odd thing to be happy about but it means i can be a part of society here. I didn’t have much opportunities from the begging, but I’m a fighter and I did whatever it took to find myself now in a place where I am. Living this movie life, making my life a movie. With no excuses. I wasn’t born in the surroundings where I am, but I belong here now. With real actual people, who are inspiring me to never stop learning, to travel, to see what world can offer and say yes to opportunities that comes my way. I don't have any idols anymore, I don’t need to have them. Because now I actually am a part of what I was always dreamed of. It is not necessarily a specific place in the real world. Although, moving countries definitely helped me to get in a certain headspace. I gained confidence that I’m capable to change my life, I gained confidence to act for myself. I am responsible for building my life the way I want, and what I see around me is the result of my actions or inactions. External circumstances should not stop me or be an excuse for inaction. Fear should not stop me. Our brain is designed to overcome difficulties. Our body is designed to move. Whenever I go now I take this mindset with me. And surrounding myself with great things, navigating this life much better than before. Driving myself to the next destination always excited to see where it can bring me to as a result. Seeing how different yet similar human experience is, learning about other cultures, languages, history. That makes me think of how environment and community affect your life, who you are. Even a language has a big impact on how you perceive this reality. Isn’t it lovely to feel involvement in the world and changing your own story? how great it is when you don't close yourself off inside, instead open your heart and mind to the world. You take action, risk, overcome fear. By doing this you become a participant in life, and not an outside observer of other people's lives and your own. I can talk about it forever, but that’s enough for today :)