Reflection 8th February Part 2:When I got back from shopping..
Added 2025-02-11 22:32:47 +0000 UTCReflection 8th February Part 2:
When I got back from shopping, my Master was home too, and we went to the spa together. There, he played with me—tying my hands behind my back with my watch and entrance band, pulling me through the water like that, and repeatedly pushing me underwater, holding me there until I struggled, and then just a little longer. I was less afraid than usual. In fact, I was mostly worried about damaging my cervical spine further if I pushed too hard against his grip in pan_ic. We didn’t play for too long, and in between, he kept turning me on.
We talked a lot, and I shared some secrets with him—things that had been on my mind for weeks because I didn’t want anything standing between us. I also talked to him about my fears regarding my th3r@pist training, which is quite expensive, and the fact that you basically earn nothing while already working full-time. He reassured me, saying he would take care of it and make sure everything works out. And I trust him. It’s such a beautiful feeling to realize how my trust in him keeps growing.
That evening, when we were back home, we had sex. I begged him to use me and to allow me to serve him. My entire focus was on him. And he gave me an orgasm that lasted for an incredibly long time—so long that I eventually begged him to let me stop coming. Even after my orgasm, my focus remained entirely on him. I begged to feel him come, to experience his orgasm, and it was so much more beautiful and intense than my own. I was just completely happy and content because I felt so deeply in my place, so grounded in it. This understanding—that my orgasm is not important and that it’s all about his sexuality—hit me on an entirely new level today.
That night, I slept with jointed handcuffs behind my back.
