I haven't written about the war for a long time... * warning..
Added 2022-05-11 11:04:08 +0000 UTCI haven't written about the war for a long time... * warning long post* I took the position of an observer after I returned to Kyiv (before that I helped in every possible way and was engaged in volunteering), and yet, when I returned home, I realized that I myself needed help. Father at the front, mother and brother in the Netherlands, I felt completely alone and did not understand how to help myself and remove this feeling. I was fine only if I was busy with Roxy, but as soon as Roxy fell asleep, I was left alone with my thoughts. Being a mom is really hard, but being a mom in a war is 100 times harder. I constantly think that if the situation does not improve, we will have to leave Ukraine, and this is like a knife to the heart for me, I really love my country and there are so many people close to me here ... I think about when Roxy will go to kindergarten, I'll worry about "Will the rocket come? Will I be there at this moment? these thoughts depress my condition and seem unbearable. But I found a way out for myself in all this! First of all, I found the perfect nanny, she and Roxy get along great, and today she moved into our house, which I am incredibly happy about! I started thinking about options in case we have to leave, I opened a separate bank account where I transfer funds “for living in another country”, I also set up a regular payment to help the Armed Forces of Ukraine, because only thanks to our army, Roxy and I can sleep calmly, and I consider it my duty. I bought a subscription to the gym, where I throw out all the negative emotions. I limited my news viewing to twice a day. In general, I try and thank you all for your support and with you, I, frankly, will relax a lot, you give me a breath of fresh air in all this turmoil! I hug you 🤗 Your Meela 💙💛
