Hello everyone, its with a heavy heart and shaky hands that ..
Added 2024-08-16 20:03:45 +0000 UTCHello everyone, its with a heavy heart and shaky hands that I have to tell you that our planning permission for the animal sanctuary, Comraich, has been recommended for refusal to the committee by the planners. This has resulted in the application being denied in all other situations and I'm not stupid enough to think I'm going to be different. I think I might have failed, and its the type of setback that makes all efforts before it meaningless. I do not think I have it in me to start the process over, get new land, and put in another application, so most likely as of next Friday we will start to close down the charity.
This means we'll have to sell the land and all our assets and tools and donate the money or assets themselves to another charity. I want to thank you all for everything you've done for me, allowing me to chase this dream, for a second I really thought I could pull it off. I think sometimes its the fall back down to reality that hurts the most.
Many of you have been with me here for so long that you've started to feel more like real life friends than most people I know in real life, which is why telling you that I failed is harder than I thought it would be. I do not know what I will do now or who I will become, and with my health conditions I don't know how long I have to search for these answers. In the meantime nothing will really change, I guess I'll just continue to exist and make mediocre content? If anyone can tell me who I am or who I should be, that would be greatly appreciated.
More than anything I just want to say thank you, not just a thank you that people on the internet say to seem like they care, but from the bottom of the soul that is now ingulfing my chest, thank you. Over all the negative emotions I'm feeling now and will continue to feel, appreciation for you still shines bright. Thank you for being my friends and making me really feel like I could be cared for.
This isn't goodbye, but may be the domino that falls first that will lead to it, but until then you will have my love and it’s been so fun
best wishes,
Conor
