To think… he fucked up the chance to be with me and chose to..
Added 2023-04-23 07:02:01 +0000 UTCTo think… he fucked up the chance to be with me and chose to be an emotionally ābusive, financially ābusive, verbally ābusive, manipulative, narcissistic, controlling, ass hole who gas lighted me all these years when I did everything for him. I did all the cooking, cleaning, laundry, paid all the bills. While he sat there calling me names and making me the villain. Breaking me all these years for me to just glue myself back together. I quit smoking weed and got myself on antidepressants to cope with all of this. 5 months sober as of last week. And I just had my breaking point that just don’t want to live like this anymore. Had to find a way to safely get myself out of this cage. Told him I need to go home to be with my family and I was made out to be the villain and told I don’t care about him and care about family more. I’ve seen my family twice in the last 13 years. I think it’s time to move on and start a brand new book in my life. Finally be happy. Finally find me and who I am and what makes me smile and laugh. I put up with this for to long. In August I will be free and safe far away from this and I will refuse to ever allow myself to make this same mistake ever again. I will never let anyone ābuse me like that ever again
