I’m sorry I was going to be back a few days ago but home has..

I’m sorry I was going to be back a few days ago but home hasn’t been the best 😣 He isn’t letting me use the truck next week to go see the doctor to follow up with my medication to see if I need to up my dose or refil my prescription. He got mad at me for even asking to use the truck on Thursday. He said that it’s fucking Saturday and said why the Fuck do I want to know and I said I told you, cause I need to see the doctor and he said he doesn’t fucking care and I’ll see the doctor whenever I see the doctor. I haven’t even been allowed to use the truck to go in to get blôod work to see if I have problems with my thyroid. He made me cancel my appointment last month to get my cat fixed Becuase he said him buying a wood chipper is more important and he won’t let me use the truck anyways to take her to get her fixed. He doesn’t want me working on my mental health. He said I don’t need to take medication and that I’m fine. He’s mad that I don’t fuck him when I wonder fucking why I don’t fucking him ?! He literaly gets everything from me except that and that’s what he bitches about. He told me I had to quit being a dog sitter cause he won’t look after the dog and cat when I’m gone but dog sitting was my only escape away from my house and now he’s taken that away from me. All I wanted to do was work on my mental health so I could feel better and he isn’t letting me. I might have to just stop taking my meds till I can have the means to be able to go see the doctor without stress of not knowing if I can use the truck and not have to take a an hour bus ride there and back when I could easily drive there. I need to get my own car as soon a possible but it’s impossible becuase something always comes up and I pay for everything and can never save save enough to put away towards one. I need to try and save up a few grand so I can get a car and then save up to get mango fixed when I have a car to take her. I’m just not doing very well mentally. I’ve been dealing with all my side effects that he claims i shouldn’t have like he acts like he’s a doctor. Which are just normal side effects that the paper states but of course he says he’s always right. I’ve been super gassy and fighting in my sleep and waking up soaking wet in sweat. I really wish I had more support at home. My life is to exhausting. So many days I just want to give up.