The weather has kinda straightened itself out but last night..

The weather has kinda straightened itself out but last night we had now falling all night but was gone jn the morning, had quite a bit of a cleanup in the area around my home the other day with poles down and tress down Adam and I had offered to help other people in the area, clean up any fallen trees and such since he’s an arborist and a tree fall or for a living. Definitely the rainy season starting has been quite a kick in the ass for my seasonal depression. More so this year then any other. Since the whole psychiatrist thing didn’t work out for me to do the whole ADHD thing, she did suggest me to go on antidepressants, so I do think I will be contacting the doctor and telling them I need to get on antidepressants or it’s going to be a hell of a battle for me this winter. I had made an appointment to have an electrician come in to look at a electric baseboard register that I have that has not worked since I’ve moved into this place coming in on the 14th so hopefully they can get that fixed so that my house isn’t as cold as it is. I mentioned it to the landlord several times when he lived just next-door, but never bothered to fix it and now he doesn’t live in the province anymore so now I have to take matters into my own hands and I’m just gonna take it off of rent so fuck him but yeah, mental health hasn’t been the best since the weather kicked in and just other personal things going on at home but that’s besides the point. I wish I could say all these times that I take these breaks that I could come back saying I feel well rested and happy that I took the time off but really anytime that I am away for a prolonged period of time but it’s always because bullshit going on in life it’s not time taken away because I need it so I’m still not the best mentally but I got I just slap myself out of it somehow and just push through because I will be going to Jamie‘s on the 15th for a week. I really want to just have a better new year but I am gonna start making changes before then so i don’t feel like I’m starting in the new year for change I haven’t had the best head on my shoulder for the last several months mentally. I just want this year to be literally over. It’s been nothing but headache and bullshit and nothing good has come out of this year for me, in real life at home self I think maybe once I can get myself on some anti-depressants I could potentially help but I know it does take time for them to kick in so I think maybe in December I will look into trying to see if I can start the antidepressant stage and hopefully going into the new year. I can start seeing some improvements. But anyways, that’s enough blabbering from me and time to see some titties.