• feasting • “I’m taking too long,” “their jaw must hurt by..

• feasting • “I’m taking too long,” “their jaw must hurt by now,” “they won’t want to do this every time,” embarrassment, guilt, feeling broken.. There are so many things that run through my head before, during and after receiving. There was a time in my life where I would avoid oral all together because I truly believed I couldn’t reach climax that way, so what was the point? It would take too long, I was too self conscious, what if my partner gets bored or sees me as a chore? Doing research barely helped when one article says some people finish in 8 minutes, where as others found that 13 was the sweet spot, and another said 17 minutes for those who “have trouble reaching the finish line.” But why is there a “finish line” in sex anyways? What are we racing to the end for? Many people struggle with finding their preferred way to climax and/or climaxing at all. Even when you do find something that works, our bodies get used to routine stimuli and eventually we have to try something new again. I have had overwhelming, body shaking, heart palpitating sex that didn’t end in an orgasm. That doesn’t make it less satisfying or the connection to that person less intimate. Plus, when I stop and think about how long I’m taking to cum, I end up taking even longer or losing the one I was about to have. Every Body is different. No one is broken for not finishing in world record time, and you aren’t bad at sex if you can’t make your partner cum at the speed of light. Sex is a dance, it’s a game, it’s a love language, it’s funny and gross and beautiful, it’s an EXPERIENCE. One that, for most of my adult life, I felt rushed. Being with a person who enjoys to eat, who will ravage me for as long as they can for their own enjoyment, has lead me to realizing I CAN actually finish by oral. At the end of this video you can hear me ask “did you edge me on purpose?” Because every time I was almost there, I kept thinking that I wasn’t doing good enough because I couldn’t finish. I wasn’t relaxed enough, I wasn’t present enough because I was too busy in my head & insecure about it… until she stopped the edging, and I finally released. I’ve never had anyone prolong the experience for me on purpose the way she does. It helps me feel like instead of me being broken, she wouldn’t have me any other way. As if they’ve been wandering the desert without food and water, they are ravenous and ready to savor every last bit of their feast.