🫢😬😳GIANT DUMP / LIFE UPDATE SOME OF MY FIRST WORLD PROBLE..

🫢😬😳GIANT DUMP / LIFE UPDATE SOME OF MY FIRST WORLD PROBLEMS that I dreamt I should post vs. keeping them to myself. It makes me a bit nauseous to even think about spilling the beans, but here goes. FYI, I do not feel sorry for myself, and I’m not looking for sympathy. I’m just following my dream guides that told me to post this, for transparency's sake. I RESISTED POSTING THIS LIKE HELL. It's embarrassing to me. But I'm a brave girl, so here goes..... Things could be way worse than my problems listed below - like having an evil landlord who threatens to evict you — oh, wait, things ARE worse, cuz that just happened to me.☹️ I don’t have enough money to live in this shit state where the prices go up every single day — for EVERYTHING. Since I lost my job due to Covid and became a fixed income girl, I’m too F’d up with PTSD to be able to work. I can’t bear the thought of sales and the only profitable home business I had was selling incense on eBay and it folded when my supplier of 20+ years could no longer get her supplies. It’s tough everywhere, I know. I do post about my SeneGence biz here, which I truly believe in and love the products. Thanks to the few people who have purchased from me. I’ve had to give up many essentials, like my car & therapy. And forget about having money for fun. Disposable income? What’s that?? I stopped turning on the heat in my apartment in November, because my electric bill doubles when I do that. It sounds more pathetic than it is tho. A friend gifted me with one of those blankets that you can wear, and it keeps me warm. I'm glad my cat has long, thick fur so that he doesn't get cold without the heat. I’ve given up eating good healthy food, so many of the supplements that I have always taken I can no longer afford, and it seems every single day I’m calling to see if service providers such as my electric company, etc., can somehow get me a better deal. I’m hoarse from talking to them in my consistent attempts to be resourceful and lower my monthly payments. I’ve spent hours and hours changing plans and services to save even a few dollars a month, and have been eliminating other services altogether. But a girls gotta do what a girls gotta do. I can’t afford my asthma medication. Instead of paying $3.50 to the insurance I had as of December 31, it’s now $95 for the exact same drug with my horrible new insurance, UHC, who contracts with OptumRx. To have stayed with the insurance that I was with last year would’ve cost me $500 a year more PLUS they were eliminating benefits and were going to start charging exorbitant fees for services that I knew I would need. A “friend” who was going to do a gofundme for me flaked out. So I took out an incredibly high interest loan so I could stay afloat last fall, which I’ll be paying off for six years. And I’m not sure how I’m going to manage that. I know health is everything and I hope mine is good… I have a slew of doctor appointments lined up to find out why I have so much pain, etc. I can’t afford lymphedema treatments (something you can get as a result of having had breast cancer, which I had 15.5 years ago) , and I’m in quite a bit of pain from that alone. Please know that you can always count on me to believe that everything‘s gonna work out. 😊 I am truly grateful for my life with all its challenges, and will continue to fight the good fight! I hope that everyone who reads this is happy, healthy, and safe!💋