The Darkest Clip I’ve Ever Made....2I used to think the wor..
Added 2025-04-11 12:00:50 +0000 UTCThe Darkest Clip I’ve Ever Made....2
I used to think the worst thing I’d ever admit was that I ate myself into type 2 diabetes. That felt like the line — the big shocking moment. The thing that would finally make me stop and think, what the hell am I doing? But I didn’t stop. And the longer I sit in this body — the longer I let myself get comfortable in the damage — the darker my thoughts get. The wilder the fantasies become.
Nobody talks about this part of gaining. Not just the size. Not just the food.
Not even the health risks. I’m talking about the stuff you barely let yourself think about — the stuff that flashes through your brain for a second and makes your heart race before you shove it down and pretend you didn’t love it. The thoughts about needing help. About losing control completely. About being so far gone you can’t take care of yourself anymore — and maybe never want to again.
Mobility aids. Medical dependency. Getting too big for your own life. Too heavy for care. Too far gone to even function without help. It sounds awful. It should sound awful. And yet here I am... not even mad about it. I don’t hate these thoughts. I don’t feel guilty. I lean into them. I let them stay. I let them grow.
That’s what this clip is. Me talking about the worst parts of gaining — the things I shouldn’t want — the things I absolutely do
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Clip features: fat chat, health talk, mobility talk, extreme feederism elements
