Happy Christmas lovelies, check your DMs I sent out a sneaky nip selfie from this morning for everyone and some tiddies out ppv for Cosmianauts that like a lil extra spice hehe.
I worked my butt off yesterday so I could take today to focus on just doing some silly things to bring myself some joy. I half managed but then I also had a panic attack over trying to send out content and setting up the free OF bcs anxiety brain is a diiiiiiick (my tiddies being in your inbox at all today is a big achievement okay, sorry if my sentences don't make all the sense bear w me🙈).
Anyway it still turned out to be a half decent day. I got to be a lil gussied up, MacGyvered together some scones w clotted cream and jam (clotted cream is illegal here 🤬), listened to my Christmas cassettes, watched some Xmas shows, got to nom a lovely dinner my mum made and dropped off for us, and my special gluten free pudding came in time and apart from almost setting a tea towel on fire that went super hehe.
I'll get that health/joy/work balance eventually folks lol it's just a loooong road, and in the meantime I appreciate you being on this road with me 💋
I hope your day was as good as it could be all things considered, and if you feel like sharing I'd love to hear something you did for yourself (and if you can't think of anything pls consider brainstorming something for the weekend bcs self care is important 💕)
I dunno if you've heard but there are a lot of scary ToS changes going on right now on socials that are targeting mainly SWers accounts are getting deleted all over the place (and the visa/PH stuff). I've been working really hard to get all the rose Xmas elf content released in time for Christmas but now I gotta put that on hold to make sure I have alt accounts and some protections in place. I'm so sad it's delaying my Xmas stuff but I'm working as much as I safely can (which my anxiety is making challenging bcs ooh buddy is that fired up 🙃).
I promise our elf show is worth the wait though 💋
Here's a lil more info on twitter https://twitter.com/ClaraCosmia/status/1341565542096904194?s=19
PS thanks for the love on the Mrs Claus nood I sent out, it made me feel super appreciated 🥰 (and want to send out more hehe)
🎄 💋 🎄
I'm still recouping from my rough week (migraines and medical stuff if you missed my stories), but let's appreciate piccies of a much more functional Clara from a couple of years ago!
Elfie shots by ShutterOwl
Is my Mrs Claus naked or do candy canes count as clothing?
Bahah I couldn't get these to balance well enough on my nipnops so I licked them to make them sticky but apparently all that did was slow their slide off my bosom to an incredibly slow AND VERY TICKILY pace hence my composure did not last long...
BTW if you like this look get hyped bcs I've also been working on two clips from my live show, smexy full nude dancing and a tantalizing ice show 😈
PS I'll be PMing out a pic without the candy canes shortly 😘
Lil cripmas elf 💖
Sending out a free thank you sexy booty tease clip tmrw from this look to all my subs with renew on 💋
(last two pics are screencaps from the video)
Omg you guys, I'm just working on more videos with Rose and I got all hot and bothered at this grind section, I haven't even gotten to the more naked makeouts yet SOMEONE FAN ME BEFORE I PASS OUT
PS I can't decide what to call this 2:30 video bcs it's not the full making out vid but theres a lil making out and grinding and dancing and fondling and uhmmmm any suggestions? 😳
I need a good feeling up an elf pun 😂
Do you hear the jingles? Hehe we were covered in bells, I spent a week sewing our accessories and I swear I had jingle bell PTSD for months after 😂...
BTW this is a lil clip from a dancing video that'll be coming out next week along w lots of other compilations like Makeouts, grinding, candy BJ's (check yesterdays post for a peek), spanks, and general silliness. Can't wait to share more w you... Most will be PPV but I'll be sending out a free 4 min video from our naughty elf show for everyone around Xmas (and an lewder extra 3 min one for everyone that has resub turned on!)
When she got a lil attitude, and how to calm down a cam girl 😂👌
Editing our 7 min BJ vid and found these silly clippies, full vid available next week along with a few others like booty smacks, dancing, Makeouts etc we got lots of good stuff comin!
We interrupt your regularly scheduled christmas thottery for this silly clip I found whilst sorting content hahaha
I'mma PM out another lil clippie in a couple hours in this thong w a lil Bob and booty action at an extra special price to everyone that has resub turned on as a thank you 💕
Keeeeesh me beeechhhh, golly aren't we just the sexiest creatures to ever sexy?! 😂
Clearly mistletoe makes me very smooth Bahaha.
Still working on editing this show with Rose Moon for you guys, most longer videos will be ppv but this is a tiny clip from a few mins compilation I'll be sending out to everyone for free on Christmas (or as close to that day as my lil cripple body will allow) and an extra longer version with clips of us in just pasties for everyone that has resubscribe turned on as a lil treat 💕 !
* Christmas intensifies *
...man I was over here thinking fusion was the party tit but con going full hog wild over there like damnnn
PS pls appreciate the Xmas pasties I made that actually jingled bcs they took way too long and many hot glue burns lolol
PPS for anyone new round these parts lefty bob is called con and righty is fusion 👌
Dat face when you know your gorl being a lil bratty and you're totes just gonna put up with it bcs she's cute af and would get away w murder bahaha
(elfs w Rose Moon, shot by ShutterOwl)
HAPPY OFFICAL MONTH OF THOTMAS!
Hope you like my elfs w Rose Moon bcs boy have I got a lot of us for December 🥰 I am excitedddfddd
PS appreciate your patience w getting back to PM's and work rhythm been a lil bumpy start but I believe in us 💪
Been working as much as I can this week w my crip bestie Rachel to edit some eflin good times from my Xmas elf live show w Rose Moon. I know you guys like the stuff we've made together so I can't wait to get some of these clips out to you they're super adorable and spiceyyy (and super derpy too ofc).
I'm having a super rough body day today but just wanted to share this cute piccie of dewen also helping us edit. Clearly it's an all gals on deck kinda job hehe. Also wanted to shoutout our Cosmianaut Threk for helping convert and sort files for us, my computer time is still super limited, I'm def not back on my feet yet, so it's truely everyone's help that's allowing me to start working again and I'm doing my best to stay patient and keep my health/recovery my top priority. I already slipped a few times getting too caught up in work but it's a learning process... And I still did better at pacing than I've ever done before, so small win 👌
Love you all and can't wait to start posting Xmas stuff tmrwwwww
Hello my lovely Cosmianauts,
I appreciate everyone's patience with my updates and I realise I almost died twice this year so I'm soso sorry if I worried anyone I didn't remotely mean to go radio silent I just went through some trauma inducing shit and almost entirely shut down
I've been trying to write this update for weeks but kept hitting panic attack walls. I've been really struggling the last few weeks but I also know I'm still okay all things considered. I'm safe, I've got a roof over my head, and I've got people that love me which sure as heck shouldn't be taken for granted these days.
I'm so grateful for your support and I hate feeling like a broken record but it really does mean the world to me. My rehab and recovery has taken a lot of unexpected turns and some big setbacks (especially thanks to that mildly terrifying pandemic were in the midst of) but overall I want to let everyone know I've definitely made some progress over the last few months.
Despite the setbacks and roadblocks I have been working my ass off! I finally got my weight out of teh dangerously low range, I can manage showers without help, and I can stand/walk on good days for a few seconds at a time without my walker (which is huge, I cry some mornings bcs I'm just so happy I can get out of bed and to the bathroom on my own now haha).
However that progress has come at a huge cost of putting every ounce of energy I had into my care (it's takes hours just to even manage appts/meds/tests/research etc) and so some things just got cut out bcs I wasn't strong enough or healthy enough to manage it all. I had to stop going on social media entirely and I wish it would have been a planned thing so could have done it gracefully with an eloquent explanation but one day I realized it kept giving me panic attacks and I just couldn't even open the app anymore. Obviously wanting to be connected and help people and not being able to is fucking awful. My mental health had already reached some of my worst levels ever and that sure as frak didn't help. And on top of it I am so terrified of disappointing my fam here that my brain completely shuts down when I try use a little bit of my precious limited functional time (only a few minutes a day) to work on things. It's stupid and illogical but mental illnesses don't play by fair rules. It got so bad I just shut down. I had to have my friend on the phone with me talking me through paying late bills bcs I was so incapable of basic things. It's horrible to realise you can't do simple adult stuff, the guilt and shame is huge. But I know it's not my fault and I just keep trying to remind myself of that. Somehow having a slew of physically ailments made me feel like my mental ones were less important and easier to "push thru" lol toxic as all heck that mentality. Please, if you have any mental illnesses too do not let your brain convince you it's your fault or bcs you're not trying hard enough 💕
I wanted to be better by now guys, and I had gotten my hopes up I would be, so it's fucking tough. I feel like I'm letting my supporters down but logically I know it's not my fault I'm still so sick I need to lay down after feeding my cats, and I'm doing literally everything humanly possible to get help enough to not be disabled. Im quiet not bcs I've forgotten about you, exactly the opposite, you're all oft on my mind but I just don't know what to say bcs I don't want to be a downer. Like "another week of migraines I wanna jump off my roof lol sorry I can't stare at my screen long enough to find nipples, much grump, much sad"? But just know miss you all so fucking much. I'm fighting every damn day just to survive, but bcs of you I'm also fighting to become a version of myself that can be creative again in a fulfilling way and give back to my supporters. Putting a smile on people's faces (&/or boners) has and will always be my purpose.
I always emphasized my cam shows and ClaraLand being a meowgical silly place where we all leave our troubles at the door and I want to have that again someday but right now I'm just too disabled to not share this part of my life with you guys right now
I seriously don't know how to express what it means to me that you've stuck around Esp with how crazy the world is right now. I'm not going to be well enough to make regular new content for awhile yet but I have a lot of never seen or vault content I'm going to get help getting out to you lovelies
I've been working with a couple of friends that have agreed to help me with content (one of those earlier mentioned setbacks was a friend of two decades that had been helping me w work dumped me then ghosted when I opened up about how much I was struggling mentally 👌) and I'm so grateful and hoping to have some damn good Xmas themed content
I hope you're all doing as well as can be expected during this ridiculous hell on crack year, and I'm really looking forward to being able to spend more time with you all when I'm more stable
PS PMs are incredibly difficult for me right now bcs of cognition issues and anxiety, but I'm doing my best to work thru them and if I owed anyone anything I will extend membership and get it sorted. No hares here just a disabled stubborn as fuck lil tortoise, life stopping things happening in a timely manner but bloody hell imma get there eventually
In case you missed this from my story earlier this week 💋 I had basically no booty after I was so sick earlier this year so I'm really proud of this lil tush right now 💪 (also ssshh yes my dumb self had my thong on inside out and didn't realize don't judge me okay just look at da butt)
PS I'm still having a lot of migraines and cognition issues so I keep falling behind on my messages after I catch up a lil so just wanted to thank everyone again for being so patient and understanding. I'm trying to go in order but OF keeps glitching on me and hiding some messages, so that's a tad frustrating. If you're still waiting on a reply from me about something or I owe you content please send me another message it would really help me out a lot 🙏 In the meantime imma just keep doing my best.
Also I don't talk about it a lot bcs I don't want to sound like I'm making excuses but I've developed pretty bad messaging anxiety the last couple of years, obviously something I'm a insecure about, but the number of sweet supportive messages I've gotten here is such an unbelievable aid in helping me deal with that anxiety so thank you you're helping so much more than you know 😭💕
Sunday bum daaaay, wiggle wiggle Canadian jiggle hehe
Shoutout to one of our Cosmianauts Threk for making this for me!
PS don't miss the sneaky nip in my story, it's only up till tonight 😘
Even if you're not as big a Monty Python fan as I am it sure is a handy motto when lifes in the shitter and the world is on fire!
PS on top of regular disability stuff migraines and anxiety have made replying to my PM's very challenging so I really appreciate everyone being patient with my replies. I miss you all like mad but I'm nervous about being disappointing, so I'm doing my best 💕
Heeehehe classic Clara cam show. I think this was my 2nd annual Canada day show if memory serves (we've got like an 11% of me being right tho here let's be real 😂)
Patriotic jiggles! Apologies for the sound being out of sync, my phone is big ass lemon, but I think we can all agree the sound isn't the point of the video :p
PS I've always wanted to do a wet tee shoot since I got this shirt bcs it's sooooo sheer 😈
🍁 HAPPY CANADA DAY! 🍁
As some of you know my Canada day shows were pretty legendary. I'm super crushed I'm still too sick to do one this year but I do have some content from past ones archived that I'm hoping I am well enough to post throughout the month. So get ready to feel the Canadian spirit all damn July instead of on just this one day hehe 💋
Just a lil cheeky nostalgic post for you, I know life has been a bit extra rough for most everyone lately so I'm hoping I can help spread some boners and smiles 😘 who misses trolly?! She misses all of you hehe
MUSHY WARNING! Was finally able to record a lil something sfw for Snapfam, this wasn't super planned and I forgot to mention patreon ofc, but I just wanted to post this lil excerpt bcs I'm bad with words but yea I know I have a long way to go yet but I couldn't even stand without my walker in my apt a few weeks ago and now I can walk down my hallway most days without it and that's thanks to you guys (and my hard ass rehab work too ofc)
PS I also posted boobs so def go check if you're a member, and if I missed fulfilling your sub send me an email pls!
Hello my loves! I've had a few health hiccups since my last post (brain injury rehab is fucking rough, but I'm ok) so I super duper appreciate everyone that's keeping their subs active and staying a part of our Cosmianauts family. You are fucking amazing and you are helping to give me this precious gift to heal and still be able to keep a roof over my head, I'm just so thankful and it makes me even more impatient to be well again so I can spoil you all and make sure you feel as special as you make me feel and I'm gonna start crying just getting overwhelmed by gratitude again so I'm gonna stop rambling ILY okbai
(if haven't seen my big blog post or last post and you're a bit confused about my health and why I've been missing a bit https://www.patreon.com/posts/34952599 give that a peek (follow the fundraiser link for all the health/disability updates).
PS my rehab program has been even more intense than I planned and I haven't been able to curate enough smut yet but don't worry I have a whole vault of lewds and noodz that a friend is gonna help me post for you all asap so hold tight I'm sorting smut for you as fast as I can safely!
PPS If you're waiting for a reply from me don't worry I haven't forgotten you, it's just gonna take me a bit to get through my inbox but I'll get there, I'mma just keep swimming
Is been a hot min since we had some Rose Moon up in here! Do you like us as elves? I hope so bcs there's another pic queued for tomorrow with our shirts off hehe
