salmakia posts

I started a notebook to organize all my ideas. I have lost t..

I started a notebook to organize all my ideas. I have lost the count on how many times I did my make up and set up all my room to do everything I had to... well, all those times lots of things happened, maybe I should explain it on instagram cuz maybe here I can't, but one thing i do know for certain. I don't like having neighbors nor living in the city. Here's almost impossible to have a quiet moment and it has been feeling like it damages my mental health... ahhhhhhhh

2021-11-29 21:03:01 +0000 UTC View Post

One day, I wanted to feel alive to make everything (vids, pi..

One day, I wanted to feel alive to make everything (vids, pics, edit, make up, broadcast) The other day I felt like I couldn't deal with everything. I must be real, I make everything, I reply the messages, take the pics, edit the pics, take the vids, edit the vids, answer everything, I manage all my social media, and still need some time to live...

2021-11-29 20:59:18 +0000 UTC View Post

I realized I needed sometime away to discover myself when I ..

I realized I needed sometime away to discover myself when I didn't even want to answer messages, calls. And then I had everyone asking me "are you alive??" I think a part of me felt better being in the shadow, but the other part wanted to be creating content and doing everything, it felt like I was not understanding what i wanted... like, pleaaaaaaaase mind, keep calm. Let's keep calm for one week and we will come back. Procrastination became my enemy.

2021-11-29 20:56:46 +0000 UTC View Post

Can you believe I even stopped taking pics and videos cuz I ..

Can you believe I even stopped taking pics and videos cuz I felt bad? I think that is the main reason why I didn't want to upload content... I was like drained... I couldn't even stand looking myself in front of a mirror. Maybe you don't know how it feels, but when you have taken lots loooots of pics in years it feels like you may be tired at certain moment and you can not even manage to edit the vids and pics and BOOM! you feel bad... it is crazy, but I started feeling like that.

2021-11-29 20:53:37 +0000 UTC View Post

Sometimes I felt like I needed to help my family, my mum, gr..

Sometimes I felt like I needed to help my family, my mum, grandma, sister... everyone, because I know how it feels when you are completely alone dealing with everything and you have no one by your side. What a mistake I did... Even when I gave the best of me these months, this year... I was completely alone. no friends, no mum, no one was there for me when my depression became worse and worse, and when I got ill (my jaw, I couldn't even eat). So I decided to wake up from this nightmare and organize everything (God, why am I a slow person?)

2021-11-29 20:49:15 +0000 UTC View Post

These last 6 months... well, I have felt exhausted. I even h..

These last 6 months... well, I have felt exhausted. I even helped my mum with her new job and stuff, I thought I needed to be away just to calm my mind. Learned new things and yeah (I still don't forget I owe you many things guys), it is just that I don't know how to explain that sensation... the sensation when you have been doing everything, you've been exhausted and your mind is never quiet... I felt I needed to be alone, and even if it means I had to be away from my friends and family and even stop talking to everyone to understand myself.

2021-11-29 20:43:42 +0000 UTC View Post

Life may be difficult sometimes, I had lots of things happen..

Life may be difficult sometimes, I had lots of things happening and things I never healed, it has been a long process, but at least I am now understanding how my mind works and how I need to heal myself (These photos were taken by Gary with his drone) (I don't know how to use a drone)

2021-11-29 20:40:05 +0000 UTC View Post

This year I have felt like my life is falling apart. I try t..

This year I have felt like my life is falling apart. I try to avoid talking about it. I have had days when I just want to forget about existence, and even myself. I helped my mum and my grandma all this year with them problems, and I just realized, I needed time to understand my own mind, time to be calm. Time away from social media just to understand my own feelings and what I wanted for my life...

2021-11-29 20:37:10 +0000 UTC View Post

Let's start with this post... well I know it has been a diff..

Let's start with this post... well I know it has been a difficult time for me, and now I am organizing my time, making vids, taking pics and editing everything may be frustrating sometimes... When I was at this beach... omg, I couldn't believe it. it was one of the most amazing places i have been before, and there i realized live worths it to be lived... Let's start with this Playera sensación

2021-11-29 20:33:15 +0000 UTC View Post