Revisiting the set for Opportunities and Green Energy and pulled on a line of inquiry to come back to my generous self. Because Ive been feeling selfish lately and I don't like feeling that way.
4K resolution here: https://vimeo.com/986676532/a867af3aba?share=copy
My fingers in the braid
Each tangle a slippery mess
Dripping
This kriya releases tension in the hips so that the Kundalini can rise in the final meditation.
For more resolution go here: https://vimeo.com/983661926/9a3191d797?share=copy
Favorite frames from the Kriya for Hips and Lower Back.
2024-07-15 02:00:25 +0000 UTC View PostA strong root chakra creates a sense of safety and when I feel safe, I can be vulnerable.
2024-07-09 16:52:57 +0000 UTC View Post
For those of you not on my email list yet...
It has been a full day. As usual, it began with yoga. Then I saw a writing prompt from my coach. Luckily, I had cued up the smooth morning so I could indulge, and indulge I did.
I accept my coach's invitation to set a timer for 10 minutes and write about the highlight of my weekend. Time flew as my fingers raced to tell the story of my weekend - profound clarity struck like lightning by way of my yogic life.
Tomorrow, I'll share it.
As for today, during the part of the day when energy runs low and slow, I've spent some time in my hammock reading.
So here's my little invitation to you to crawl in my lap in the hammock, get some head pats, and enjoy while I read aloud to you from my latest indulgence - the Fourth Wing by Rebecca Yarros.
Warmly,
Esme
Favorite frame from gratitude video for Top Fans from June.
2024-07-07 15:54:24 +0000 UTC View Post
It was a deeply nourishing day yesterday. The scents of billowing smoke wafted from the smoking pork shoulder, beans simmered, rice softening in herbs and tomatoes. Bright green drinks cooled our hearts because they were garnished with massive stalks of mint from my garden. Laughter rose from my children, their friends, and mine. Streaks of light from sparklers dazzled.
"Thank you"s flooded in from my guests when they were safely home. So this morning I stayed longer in my bed, mentally patting myself for my role as hostess done well, and letting my body rest
Anger. It is a natural part of the grieving process. It feels fiery, hot, and like if I don't do something I might explode.
I needed to ritualize part of the emotional journey so that the anger wouldn't take hold and restrict my ability to live fully.
So today I burned my old business card that had my KYED YouTube URL on it...but not all of it.
Have you ever been about to finish, so close that you wanted it to take the easy turn into completion?
But then you pause...
And listen. Notice. Wonder.
That's what I did last week. In unfamiliar territory, I paused. I listened to you. I wondered how, if I took my time, we could both win.
I asked, again, "what do you want?"
Impatiently, almost breathlessly, I waited.
I knew I couldn't rush you. We both deserved the time and space to wonder together..."what if?"
In meditation I checked in with myself and heard the craving, the desire, the curiosity about my journey. The lower chakras vibrate long, slow, and deep - the all-encompassing safety in the 💋 root, relentless confidence found in the 🌟 solar plexus, and between them the unapologetic pleasure of the 💥 sacral chakra.
The resounding reply - Unlock it all.
Moving forward, this page is one place for me to rumble around in these things and you're invited to come along on my erotic journey. For $10/month you'll get to see it all.
Please, come see it all. I want you there, you deserve it, and so do I.
Warmly,
Esme
p.s. There's a little lingerie dance party waiting for you here: https://onlyfans.com/1145645379/u290609209
Just a little dance party with myself for you. I'm suuuuuuper excited about the next part of my journey here.
Riding this music today...https://open.spotify.com/trac…
This morning I woke up feeling so defeated...but this practice really turned things around!
2024-06-27 21:20:04 +0000 UTC View Post
Ok. I crave generosity - both giving and receiving. What pay structure would make you feel like rolling around in my lap of luxury?
2024-06-27 16:14:20 +0000 UTC View PostFull Moon dance party and meditation.
FINALLY. I've been trying for almost a week to get this thing uploaded.
Finding the balance between generosity and not being taken advantage of is a life long journey. We want to reciprocate in ways that feel enlivening and authentic. That dynamic is ever-changing - some days exchanges feel like too little, other days too much, and occasionally just right.
Over time, if the trend feels steadily better, it is easy to lean in to what is working. Worse? That’s when it is time to change.
Starting this weekend, this KYED OnlyFans page will no longer be a free subscription. I have decided to move forward with the lowest price possible ($4.99/month), which will give access to photographs and thumbnails. (And I’ll increase the frequency of photos.) Videos will remain pay per view.
Thank you to everyone who weighed in on this topic. It is important to me that we all feel like our exchanges are life-giving. I aim to be as generous as I can and still feel comfortable in my own skin.
Warmly,
Esme
Something is happening over here. I haven't been able to upload content to OnlyFans for a few days. So I'm currently troubleshooting technology in my house and on my computer to see what is going on. Shut down, login/logout, check for updates, reset router, etc...
In the mean time, I'm sipping tea, nibbling chocolate, and planning content that is taking me into 2025!
Sending love,
Esme
I just really needed to take my time and self sooth today. You're invited to watch me bless myself with massage (inside and out).
Listened to this playlist.
https://open.spotify.com/play…
This morning I did a little self-guided meditation to look ahead and find/create the path forward.
2024-06-19 17:06:14 +0000 UTC View Post
As things are transitioning for me I'm wondering about you, dear Fan.Â
I'm no longer sharing Kundalini Yoga on YouTube but I'm exploring other platforms!
* now I'm sharing Kundalini Yoga Every Day (for free) on Patreon.
* I've had an onboarding call with OFTV where I'll be sharing Wellness Vlog videos
* I'm building up Esme-Celeste.com with more ways to use Kundalini Yoga for personal and relational wellness
* I'm investing in professional development for speaking and pleasure coaching
And as a fan here, I'm wondering how to serve you best. I'm interested in a) saving you money, and b) being paid for my work.
So I have two questions:
1. How would it feel to pay a subscription price for my OnlyFans content instead of Pay Per View?Â
2. What is your price point?
As I move thru the grief of losing my YouTube channel I've been sitting with their assessment that my Kundalini Yoga Every Day practice was "Fetish Porn" with a good dose of disbelief...
They couldn't call it porn because it clearly wasn't porn. But they needed to accuse me of something and I am being punished for NOT judging people. In fact, I knew that many subscribers were enjoying my content in ways other than intended and I didn't consider it my responsibility to judge them or shame them. It was my job to act with integrity and compassion, create content, and share it.
I do that here too. My job is to act with integrity and compassion, create content, and share it. I do not judge anyone for how they receive it.
Thank you for being a witness on my journey.
Warmly,
Esme
xoxox
A little dance. I felt my pussy blowing kisses. Lol.
I was listening to Took to the Valley by Nym
Thank you for all your supportive emails!
I've grieved the loss of my YouTube channel and all the content that resided there. The customer support people I was in contact with worked on my behalf, escalating my case and opening it for re-review. I asked if I could remove all my content and include a disclaimer moving forward. But the internal review team never communicated with me. They deemed it "Fetish Porn" because it was obviously not porn and refused to reinstate my channel.
My clothed yoga videos now live on Patreon for free at KYEDwithEsme.
Treating myself to new jewelry and some art today.
2024-06-10 18:26:57 +0000 UTC View PostThe Naked Truth - Ajna Chakra Activation.
2024-06-06 22:21:49 +0000 UTC View PostThe last 24 hours has felt swirly. YouTube's AI is stupid and I feel frustrated that no one there is giving me the courtesy of compassionate and solutions-oriented dialog. So today I worshipped myself with touch.
I welcome your worshipping attention to help fuel the flame in my heart and charge the power of my pussy to move forward with passion and confidence.
YouTube Removed My Channel
In a matter of 24 hours, I received three strikes from AI and my channel was automatically removed from the platform.
I've been emailing a customer service representative without much success. I was asking for better guidance so I could remove content that violates their policy and avoid getting automatically banned.
Thank you for your patience as I navigate this situation.
