It’s my time of the month but I’ll be back in a day or two 😎..
It’s my time of the month but I’ll be back in a day or two 😎 got it on Monday and I was not feeling well sorry for not updating you ❤️
2021-07-29 11:07:33 +0000 UTC View Post
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I learned a lot about myself and my triggers today in this v..
I learned a lot about myself and my triggers today in this video and I really think you should watch it if you struggle with how you feel/ how you think others feel about you https://youtu.be/0m8iATgqzcw I think #5 hit me the most and I didn’t realize how much not saying no was effecting my life I think over the past four years I really discovered just how fucked up my life was when I was younger and how much it impacted my brain, health and nervous systems I feel like I kinda do the 5 thing with my videos now, because I feel like I should be producing more content so I’m always asking people what they want to see and then I get upset with myself when they ask for things I haven’t done yet because I feel like what I have isn’t good enough. I used to do that at Costco tho I would take on any extra job or shift, and then be angry most of the time I did it because I always felt like I was unappreciated and nothing I did would ever impress people Growing up my step dad would randomly spring into an angry rage that the house was dirty and the dishes were dirty (he also had 4 kids and never taught any of them how to clean/ neither did mom the house was always a mess) So randomly they would both get angry and not talk to any of us but my step dad loved to add throwing dishes and tantrums to the mix (just a small window into my lovely life growing up) All of this need for attention, validation, and my constant search for love is because I didn’t get any when I was little. Even though I didn’t have parents who gave me love or taught me how to care about myself/ for myself, I can still learn how to be my own parent at 25 (I’ve been trying since I joined Reddit because that’s what I found r/lifeafternarcissism) Before that sub i didn’t realize that my parents were narcs or that other family’s had parents that loved their kids. I thought it was a parents “job” to raise their kids the way I was raised and I thought it made them tough and strong but that was just a shell I had on to protect myself and others from my crazy parents. I know if I keep therapy up and watching helpful vids like this I will get better Chiildhood trauma is no joke and having parents who don’t love you or notice you can really hurt your first years of life when you’re developing And a lot of people who support me do so because they had similar pasts so this post isn’t just for me, I really hope it helps someone reading this too I really believe that anyone including me can work on healthy habits and thoughts to overcome the bad ones Gunna work on re parenting my brain and giving my inner childd what it needs today and then I’ll see what’s up this week ❤️❤️ I do owe you an apology because I get mad at the people who support me on onlyfans because my brain tells me they don’t love and appreciate the content that is souly my job to appreciate and love LOL This wasn’t the easiest post to right but I know it will help me grow :)
2021-07-25 11:05:23 +0000 UTC View Post
the older I get, the less fucks I have to give maybe one d..
the older I get, the less fucks I have to give maybe one day I’ll be fuckless?
2021-07-19 13:43:27 +0000 UTC View Postsystem reboot, please stand by
system reboot, please stand by
2021-07-19 13:14:18 +0000 UTC View PostPlaying with my holes up close ;) I’ll make sure to use toys..
Playing with my holes up close ;) I’ll make sure to use toys next time I’m laying on my belly and my camera is near my pussy from behind I love to cum in the morning when I wake up :3
2021-07-17 12:36:56 +0000 UTC View PostOn my way to the lake :3 already had a nice walk and bought ..
On my way to the lake :3 already had a nice walk and bought myself a sub to snack on I might make content but if not 100% tomorrow 😎 Gunna go swimming and loosen up my body as much as possible
2021-07-15 14:55:26 +0000 UTC View PostPlaying with myself up close :)
Playing with myself up close :)
2021-07-12 12:28:33 +0000 UTC View Posta little bit of PLASTT to end the day 😋
a little bit of PLASTT to end the day 😋
2021-07-11 23:48:35 +0000 UTC View Post
This is my outfit for today ✨ On/off
This is my outfit for today ✨ On/off
2021-07-09 15:51:50 +0000 UTC View PostSo should I start eating more beans? How many fart fetish pe..
So should I start eating more beans? How many fart fetish peeps do we have here? Twitch is wild. I don’t kink shame so if you wanna see it I’ll find some gassy foods to eat ;)
2021-07-09 15:04:18 +0000 UTC View PostPlaying with my new toys in a cute outfit and then warming m..
Playing with my new toys in a cute outfit and then warming myself up until I can ride a dildo hard and cum 😏
2021-07-09 14:45:03 +0000 UTC View PostThank you for all the birthday wishes btw 🥰 you guys made my..
Thank you for all the birthday wishes btw 🥰 you guys made my day
2021-07-08 16:57:57 +0000 UTC View Post
This turned out a lot hotter than I planned 🥵 Like my new Ca..
This turned out a lot hotter than I planned 🥵 Like my new Calvin Klein piece? Leave your requests for content below this post :3 I shared some of the requests people have already shared with me (that I’m gunna try and do) at the end of this video
2021-07-08 14:09:49 +0000 UTC View PostHey guys :3 instead of tipping me for my birthday I would re..
Hey guys :3 instead of tipping me for my birthday I would really appreciate if you support this stream https://www.twitch.tv/ninimusic1001 Nini plays music live and she’s really cute and talented, you might have seen her on Reddit before :3 I don’t know her but her music brings me joy so I wanna support her
2021-07-07 15:15:22 +0000 UTC View Post
Also my messages are sorted by oldest to newest now! I’m one..
Also my messages are sorted by oldest to newest now! I’m one single human who responds to everyone myself Most onlyfans girls hire people to answer their messages because I will say it’s overwhelming especially when people message me question marks because it’s been a day since I replied But I think that’s fake and I want to reply to everyone myself but let me know if you would rather be replied to instantly because I can hire someone for that I totally understand you want the video you paid for, and you will get it but your entire message box gets moved to the bottom of my messages with every new message you send me, so please just be patient and wait for me I’m on my period right now, but normally I don’t sext. Im trying to warm up to my voice becuase even I want to see more dirty talking in my vids but I gotta be patient with myself becuase it takes some practicing I just say a lot of things inside my head so I gotta get better at expressing those so other people know what I’m thinking during sex but I know I’ll get there I just wanna say thank you to everyone who treats me like a real person and doesn’t expect the world from me. I’m one almost 25 year old human and I love to make content and share it with everyone, but I can’t be everyone’s girlfriend or best friend. If you expect more than my content from me please leave because that’s all I’ve ever said I have to offer. If you wanna get to know me through my content and posts then definitely stay, read and catch up. But I’m not here to slowly manipulate people into being with me or giving me all their money, and vise versa You get content, I get compensated for my time and effort I enjoy sharing my content and reading messages where people support me or share something positive about themselves :) I try to be there for people who need me emotionally but if you need more than my content to feel good sexually, OnlyFans isn’t the place for you I love you all and I love men who support women doing their thing so to those of you who don’t even use this as porn thank you 😊 Have a great week and I’ll see you all soon! The majority of my supporters understand me and what OnlyFans is but every once in a while you get a handful of people who just don’t know what OnlyFans is and they expect unrealistic things out of it ;)
2021-06-30 13:20:13 +0000 UTC View PostIt absolutely baffles me that I get people who sign up to my..
It absolutely baffles me that I get people who sign up to my page just to send me messages like this LOL Bye Jim, you won’t be missed. Neither will your whole 5$ Idk I may need some extra tips this month because I just lost my biggest supporter :( Also on my period so I will be back in a couple days :3 but I have some exciting plans coming up so stay tuned ;)
2021-06-30 13:05:39 +0000 UTC View PostThis was my living room a few weeks ago. I took everything o..
This was my living room a few weeks ago. I took everything out of my rooms and shoved it all in the living room so I could organize and clean. And then I left it all there until today 😅 I spend weeks stressing about things that take me a few hours to complete. I don’t get my brain? Currently snacking on some breakfast sandwiches I made while I catch up on answering some messages :3 Sorry for the late response if you got one, I’m slowly getting back into my happy place 🐝 Also you can see the coffee table and chair I put together this week 🤩
2021-06-25 16:58:44 +0000 UTC View PostI forgot to turn my ac off 😅 I hope you don’t mind ;)
I forgot to turn my ac off 😅 I hope you don’t mind ;)
2021-06-24 14:28:39 +0000 UTC View PostSome more photos I took today 😎 I thought you might apprecia..
Some more photos I took today 😎 I thought you might appreciate these
2021-06-22 16:48:01 +0000 UTC View PostI can finally get my nails done after months of ugly nails o..
I can finally get my nails done after months of ugly nails on July 2nd and my birthday is on July 7th :) I’ve hated having dry and gross feet lately, it’s definitely effecting my content because I take really nice photos and then you can see the ugly feet in them and it makes me really disappointed in myself I know I have no control over what is open right now 😩 but I’m hoping after my birthday everything is back to normal I really haven’t felt the need to get the vaccine because I don’t have any friends or family I could infect if I was sick but let me know if you got yours and how it went :) I was going to play Val today and make content tomorrow but Val was down this morning (it might still be) so I took a few photos for you guys Idk why but for some reason I’ve been waking up feeeling very sad, for no particular reason, has anyone else felt kinda down lately? I went grocery shopping yesterday and cleaned out my fridge though so I have healthy food to eat :) I keep trying to get back onto dating sites but like I’ve always said the men around me are too small minded and into poly/hooking up to date You shouldn’t expect me to make content with anyone probably ever again actually Even if I find someone who I don’t wanna make content with, we just never want the same things or goals, and people are still really uncomfortable dating people who have an OnlyFans, especially publicly. I know I won’t be as happy alone, but at least I’ll have a chance. Meeting people in real life and facing rejecting isn’t something I can deal with anymore. It hurts way too much, I’m either attracted to people who aren’t attracted to me or vise versa I also feel like I’ve probably already met and experienced more people than most will in their entire life, but I’m only 24 Constantly searching for someone to spend life with definitely killed some of my soul, but that doesn’t mean I have to let it kill the rest. I don’t need anyone, you don’t need anyone. We need to love ourselves I don’t wanna read anyone’s sappy advice about finding someone and not giving up Even my “immediate” family doesn’t accept me or love me so it’s hard for me to expect others too. Also a lot of people’s advice come from lives that are supported socially, mine is not. Unless you’ve had an OnlyFans, been doxxed and booted out of your family, contracted herpes, you really couldn’t possibly know what it feels like to be me. But at least I have you guys and people to show off for. The only attention I get is for my body so I gotta do better at taking care of it. Love you guys so so much I definitely realize this world isn’t a positive place full of love and rainbows, but I wasn’t expecting so many people to be so hateful and disrespectful to others. Humans are very selfish, if you can give something today to someone I would really appreciate it. Even if it’s just your time, and your words, I know humanity really needs it right now. Or help an animal out if you’re done with humans ;)
2021-06-22 16:38:12 +0000 UTC View PostThis is how I had the other vid set up before my phone overh..
This is how I had the other vid set up before my phone overheated :( but I have all summer to go back and try again
2021-06-17 19:07:26 +0000 UTC View Post