Why does my mood get so screwed up when I have a good sleep schedule? Why is it that when I'm happy with a bad sleep schedule I berate myself for it and I don't let myself be happy and I also get sad?
I don't know. I want to live right and more healthy for my body and mind. but my mind seems to want otherwise.
Okay, I'm not gonna hide it. I'm sad. Again. For some reason, my activity period falls at night.
If anyone remembers, I took almost all of my photos in the past almost always at night. I do 3d at night, I study at night. I don't want to do anything during the day. At night, my brain is overflowing with ideas. Today I fell asleep again at 6am and the whole time I was lying in bed thinking about what I wanted to do and berating myself for not sleeping.....
But it's not good for the body to sleep like that. Necessary hormones are not produced if you sleep during the day and stay awake at night.... But damn it, I love life at night.
#skinny #young #teen #tiny #fyp #egirl #bikini #geek #nerdy
I got up the strength and made a little new photo set :3
Finished as soon as I felt the pain, movement is evil for me now :C
I did it very slowly and carefully, but the photos turned out even more than I planned, which makes me very happy
It's getting very cold and I'm walking around the house mostly in t-shirt pants and hoodie now, hopefully soon there will be heating.
I also ordered some new dishes for me to try, I hope they will be delicious
#Skinny #teen #fyp #egirl #alt #legs #feet #foot #nylon #geek
A little advice for those who are starting to learn 3d
There are a huge variety of tutorials and they can be more useful for you. How? Don't follow the author's every action exactly. I make this mistake myself from time to time, but it is much more effective to do something of your own. Other colors, other shapes, try changing the settings and see how they change, etc.
This way your brain will be more stressed and it is less pleasant for you, but it allows you to memorize better. Make your learning more difficult. The results may not be as pretty in the end as in the lesson, but you will learn faster in the long run
#skinny #teen #egirl #goth #legs #petite #tiny #fyp
When I had a bad sleep pattern and sometimes I couldn't sleep for a long time and when I had no energy left at all, I felt unusually happy. I wanted to declare my love for everything in the world. It's so weird, but it feels good.
And now. I got my sleep regimen back on track. but with the bad regimen I was in a great mood and today I'm a real mean nasty person, but I think I'll be fine after I make fried wieners and pasta!
I also had a bad stretching with yawning and then my tumor started hurting :C which also affected my mood
Have a good day my friends
#fyp #egirl #gamergirl #feet #toes #foot #legs #pajama #petite
I have an ingenious and stupid tactic to regain my sleep pattern . I fell asleep at 10am and now I've been sleeping all day, now I'm awake and I'm going to go back to sleep but realized that because of the loss in time I didn't make a post!
Catch up and I'm going to go on to sleep before I lose sleep. Hopefully tomorrow my sleep pattern will be completely back to normal by now
#skinny #teen #tiny #geek #gamergirl #nerdy #petite #ass #butt #booty #fyp
Hi there, it's nighttime for me, but I wish you a good day because I hope you sleep at night:3
Sorry, I've lost track of time, I've been waking up at 6:00 at night and going to sleep at 6:00 in the morning.
If I had to describe my life, I would choose one word: chaos.
I hate schedules, task lists, I've tried to do it many times and I always hate it. I never know when I'm going to have a burst of energy and when I'm going to lie in bed all day. So I only plan for the next few minutes because in 10 minutes it could be the exact opposite.
You know, I don't believe in horoscopes or anything like that, but I'm a Gemini, and that describes my duality and fickleness perfectly. It's a funny coincidence. Although I think if I read the characteristics of other zodiac signs, I see similarities to myself too, but I haven't.
As I write this post I realize I wanted to say something, but I can't remember what it is.... Maybe I will later, I hope.
#fyp #skinny #teen #tummy #belly #tiny #teen #petite #small
You may not have noticed but my comments on posts used to be open, but now only subscribers can comment?
Those who can reply under this post probably didn't even notice it, but it's a big regret for me that my followers can't comment on my posts anymore.
Why is that?
Because there are models who try to promote themselves on other people's profiles, my profile is no exception. I will make comments open when this problem is solved. Otherwise I have to sit and delete spam all the time, which I don't really want to do.
so far, it's the only solution I can see
I don't doubt that you all won't run away to all the models who spam comments, but I still don't like this kind of thing
#skinny #teen #tiny #alt #emo #goth #butt #petite #fyp
The treatment is now finally prescribed, but it's more to reduce inflammation and support immunity. in general, these are things that will allow my body to fight, but they do not remove the disease itself
#skinny #alt #goth #emo #cyberpunk #nerdy #geek #teen #tiny #fyp
oh! It turns out that I did not upload all the photos, perhaps someone will like these photos.
I sometimes have unused photos that don't seem good to me, but I'm very critical of myself, I'm sure that you are kinder to me than I am
We are accustomed to ourselves and easily see all the flaws, and we perceive the good as the norm. But other people see the whole picture, not just the flaws
#teen #skinny #tiny #egirl #gamergirl #geek #nerdy #fyp #petite
Well... I'm still in a good mood.
Talked to the doctor, I'm not going anywhere for the next 3 months or more likely half a year. No surgery, no treatment. I can't or don't need anything unless it's an emergency.
All I will do in the near future is to take care of myself very much and not to strain my organism and to pass health examinations.
I have so much content so I will do things that minimally stress my body. here are for example normal pictures of me in normal surroundings.
Difficult poses will also have to be eliminated and I will have to control the amount and frequency. I won't be able to spend 5 hours in a row taking photos like before. I won't be able to put up the mirror in different place that I used to carry around the room (it weighs about 20 kg).
Lots of things I can't do, but that's okay. I wouldn't say I feel bad. I am very tired, I have pains sometimes but they are not severe pains and I sleep even more. but in general I feel normal and have already accepted the fact that I will have to live the next half a year as the most hardcore lazy person.
and my parents are helping me with some chores that are hard for me right now.
take care of your health
#skinny #fyp #gamergirl #egirl #goth #emo #teen #tiny #petite
I hadn't eaten anything spicy in a while and missed spicy food. However, apparently only I can make spicy food here. In Thailand, almost all the food was spicy as hell and at first I had a hard time eating it, but then I fell in love with it.
A recent situation: I ordered a spicy kimchi soup, the description of which several times mentioned an incredible and unforgettable experience, fire in the mouth and crazy spiciness, but in fact it seemed to me that there was no spiciness at all. xD
do you like spicy food?
and I didn't get to sleep until close to 7 a.m. I literally spent a quarter of the day trying to sleep X_X
#skinny #fyp #tiny #teen #egirl #gamergirl #alt #emo #goth
Today was a beautiful day, I spent it with my family, they helped me do things I can't do right now and also we had a nice cozy conversation and it even felt like Christmas. It was summery warm and sunny outside at the same time, of course it didn't feel like Christmas weather, but the feeling of Christmas came closer to the evening.
I did a little modeling in blender this morning, started a new tutorial but will finish it tomorrow. Would really like to do some modeling for the 3d printer and print that either at some studio or have my dad print it, he has a 3d printer.
I also really want to get back to making photos..... I might decide to do harmless simple photos a little next week. or maybe things will change for the good and I can do something full blown and cool!
#skinny #teen #tiny #geek #petite #tummy #small #cute #fyp
This post is just about my thoughts without any conclusions.
The sense of time is the strangest and most inaccurate sense according to my personal feelings.
For humans, time feels real. But according to quantum physics, it doesn't even exist.
I don't feel a strong difference between the events of yesterday or ten years ago. The only thing that changes is that I remember events that happened a long time ago less well. I have a very fuzzy sense of time.
Thinking about time is very philosophical for me. We give so much meaning to something so abstract and it's really important to us.
Whatever time is, we experience it in only one way, as a vector.
I would love to observe a world beyond human limitations.... Since childhood I have dreamed of removing the limitations and interpretations of reality from our bodies.
#skinny #tiny #petite #cute #fyp #tummy #catears #catgirl
Good news! My cancer markers are negative. The rest of the results are not bad either, there are some problems, but I have known about these problems for a long time and not all of these problems are treatable.
I'm a little confused as to when the size recheck will be for comparison..... I'll find out tomorrow and check with the other doctor. and I still don't know anything about the final treatment yet.
it's ok, just keep taking care of myself since it's a big thing, move less and don't carry heavy things.
I'm starting to miss taking pictures
#skinny #tiny #cosplay #feet #foot #toes #legs #footfetish
The return of old photos omg I hope I don't get confused. I'll upload the rest Miku's pictures tomorrow. but something very very very very old today.
I'll probably know the results of the test within 24 hours. apparently by early next week I'll know what to do next
I'm gonna get some more rest. My sleepiness is endless
#skinny #teen #tiny #butt #egirl #small #petite #fyp
Hi everyone, I'm feeling better mentally and less scared. Tomorrow I take the last tests and then closer to next week I will get information and treatment. There's no point in worrying, I'll just follow all precautions and doctor's recommendations. Worrying hasn't helped anyone yet
In the meantime, I've almost completely learned blender, I just have to finish mastering nodes and then it's time to start getting to grips with Unreal Engine :3
I'll try to keep my mood up, it's very important for my health
#skinny #cosplay #miku #anime #kawaii #egirl #gamergirl #geek #nerdy #tiny #fyp
Would you be offended if there was only 1 photo today? I suddenly disliked all my photos and my thoughts are confused with anxiety so I don't know what to tell you now
but thank you all for being with me
Hi. for those who were worried about me and my health.
I will soon be dealing with my biggest and most sudden health problem, I was at the doctor yesterday and unfortunately the news is not good. Tomorrow morning I'm going to have a check up for hormones etc, I already had an ultrasound where they found a tumor and today I had additional problems, but I don't think it's allowed to write here.
I'm not allowed to: lift any heavy weights bigger than a large coke bottle, move vigorously, exercise, make sudden movements, etc. And in case of sudden severe pain I need to call an ambulance (I really hope this doesn't happen)
I also shouldn't take hot baths or get cold or overheated.
I feel stable. when the doctor said that about what is happening I was amused, but now I am not amused, I am sad and uncomfortable. I am too cautious and afraid to make even small movements so as not to cause complications.
Everything will end well, don't worry too much, I will take care of myself and also my family has promised to help too.
I won't be making new content or custom requests for a while until I start to feel more confident and safe, but I will look for previously unpublished or long forgotten content. I don't plan on leaving my profile during treatment, I will be here.
Hi. no pics today, I'm back from the doctor and I'm having problems, I'm sad and scared so I can't work right now, I'll sleep and i'll try to make a post when I wake up
I've sorted out all the paperwork and I'm finally going to the doctor tomorrow.
I hope the treatment and tests won’t take much time. I'm very worried
#skinny #cosplay #teen #tiny #geek #nerdy #egirl #anime #fyp
Yesterday I had a good rest and ate a delicious meal, and decided to take a full day off:3
So my mood is much better now.
I also improved the scene in blender and learned new things.
It was a good day
So! Drum roll... Hatsune Miku racing version!
I had never thought about cosplaying this character before, but when I saw this costume I really wanted to try it :3
#Skinny #teen #tiny #cosplay #anime #egirl #petite #fyp #tummy
ouch! Before you forget about Jinx, here are some extra pics without the costume :3
(I almost forgot about it myself)
tomorrow I'm gonna buy myself fries and burgers and have a junk food feast! I declare happy iShyNya day. I will do whatever makes me happy (but within the confines of my apartment, it's cold outside and I don't want to go out)
Homework for all of you. If you have a free day in the week, make yourself happy, make time for yourself and the things you love. and let yourself do something that you normally don't let yourself do unless it hurts you too much :3
#skinny #teen #cosplay #jinx #tiny #fyp #geek #nerdy #egirl #gamergirl
so even though I was feeling sad today, my friend and I did a Blender tutorial together today. I enjoyed helping her, it was nice and fun, I'm very bad at explaining things and I'm not a very good teacher x)
The tutorial lasted 45 minutes. But we did it all day! I'm not good at noticing the passage of time when doing something interesting..... So it turns out today is already over lol
#skinny #teen #egirl #gamergirl #petite #tiny #geek #nerdy #butt #fyp
On youtube saw a couple of clips with Sims 4 and decided to play this part, usually all my gameplay ended on the creation of a character, building a house and messing with the pool.
This time I decided not to bother and just play. And oh boy, how hard it is to just live! They're always dissatisfied with everything, they're hungry, they want to sleep, they're dirty and their house is full of garbage.
I feel like I'm not good at sims, but I'm interested.
Also, now I have a feeling that whoever is controlling me, like in a Sims game, isn't very good at the game either
#teen #gamergirl #egirl #tiny #geek #nerdy #petite #tummy #stockings #fyp
I saw the movie Barbie.
Everything I say below is my opinion, but very cautious. You may not agree with it, that's perfectly fine, everyone has their own opinion.
I didn't like this movie.
I feel like this movie could have been a hundred times better. There are attempts to touch on important topics, but not very successfully as it seems to me.
Overall, I had the feeling that the movie was very much influenced by modern realities with their limitations and the nuances of all the new movies coming out.
Who knows what I mean, you know what I mean. I'm afraid to openly express my opinion on this topic, as I don't want aggression in my direction.
I wanted to write VERY much, but I won't do it.
The only thing I will say to you... I believe that people should not look for enemies based on some criteria and allies based on the same criteria. The more criteria you gather for yourself to decide who is a friend and who is an enemy, the greater the chance that every person you meet when you get to know each other will turn out to be an enemy, even if you both had positive motives and common problems from the beginning.
Global ideas can not only make the world a better place, but can sometimes throw people off their path in life.
Regarding the scenery and the actors - I like it.
I also didn't appreciate the musical snippets. I don't like those things.
#Skinny #teen #tiny #fyp #gamergirl #stockings #egirl #petite #small #geek #nerdy
It's been a very long time since I've gone for a walk, so today when I went to get a cosplay (I'll talk about the cosplay below) I decided to take a longer walk and explore the neighborhood. And so. first of all I want to say that the sparrows are safely back, I saw some cats, crows and a lot of starlings, which is already very good. I found new stores, new parks, overall it's very cozy and lots of trees, I like it.
So back to the cosplay. Today I picked up a cosplay I didn't tell you about, it's a Hatsune Miku racing version cosplay. The quality is good and it's that rare moment where I don't have to re-stitch anything. I wanted to take pictures today, but I need to figure out how to straighten this fabric (it's part rubber part plastic etc)
There are at least 3 cosplays planned for this fall!!!
#skinny #teen #egirl #tiny #gamergirl #geek #nerdy #skirt #petite #fyp
Spent the day with my parents, plus we finally hung the curtains :3
Very tired and it's deep in the night, did a little photo set and I don't know what to write, my thoughts are already confused and I'm falling asleep
Oh and yes also today I assembled a shelving unit with almost nothing in it yet.
I'm starting to like to assemble things.
Hugs to everyone. those who I didn't get a chance to reply to, please don't take offense!
#skinny #teen #petite #egirl #gamergirl #geek #nerdy #tiny #fyp #skirt
do you remember that I love birds, don't you? If you don't, I'm going to remind you again.
I had a sparrow feeder and sparrows came to me all the time, and they also lived in the tree in front of my window. You know what happened? You don't know what happened. Somebody cut down that tree!!!!!!!!!! Now I don't see a single sparrow in the neighborhood.
After that, my mood was destroyed and I went to lie in a hot bath and calm down. A hot bath is not a bad way to calm emotions. I had already complained about what had happened to everyone I could, just to share my emotions.....
For some it's just a tree, but for me it was a daily joy.
#cosplay #teen #tiny #geek #fyp #nerdy #gamergirl #skinny
So, has anyone tried Starfield yet?
Is it worth buying now or is it better to wait?
I've read that the game is too raw and empty right now, but people are still really enjoying it
I'm not sure... I love bethesda games, but I'm afraid to be disappointed because not so long ago I finished Baldurs Gate 3 which was a perfect rpg game and it's possible that it will affect my perception and my requirements will be too high
What do you think about this game?
#skinny #fyp #cosplay #egirl #gamergirl #nerdy #geek #teen #tiny #petite
