2000s THROWBACK LOOK REVEAL & BTS!
It has been a week from hell on the universe dumping dumpster fire front but I am so excited for this look hehe I had such fun giving into the cheesery. I forgot to pack any of my y2k makeup so I had to kinda wing it but I think it looks cute even tho it felt so weird and wrong to do since it's so different from how I do my eye makeup now haha I couldn't commit all the way to the skinny brows tho bahah
I was so low on spoons by the actual shoot that I completely forgot to use any props like the 8ball or Bee's awesome chair (managed to grab a cute selfie before I left at least) 🙃😅 but I'm trying not to beat myself up about it bcs the set is still super smexy and gorg (esp bcs Bee helped with lighting and shooting! Woohoo spoonie teamwork 🥳)
Is this bringing back memories for ya? If it isn't pls don't tell me Lolol I know technically it's legal for someone born in 2002 to buy my porn but I don't need to be reminded of that okay? 😅
PS if you're confused about why I mention spoons, tldr it's used by chronically ill ppl to explain their limited energy, o learn more here: https://butyoudontlooksick.com/articles/written-by-christine/the-spoon-theory/
I just got home finally but this migraine treatment flare is still pretty brutal. However it was really lovely to be able to stay with @overlairbee for a bit and get some lovin support and help w stuff 😭💕
We didn't manage to make content together this time around, and we're actually terrible at just taking fun selfies together haha but luckily we've shot a lot together already so I can still share these cute teasers of an upcoming set!
Ive been having a rly tough time not hanging out with my thotty friends in person so it nourished my soul so much to just have someone that gets it and not feel crazy or like you have to explain everything 😭🥰💕
Can't wait to share the retro shoot they helped me do yesterday
Three cheers for Bee hehe HIPHIP!
I'm really enjoying some retro 90 and y2k styles coming back. I was too poor and chubby to dress following those trends when it was last in style (and also too lil for the sluttier looks), I posted a throwback in some low rise jeans to my twitter and it blew up Baha so clearly I'm not the only one feeling nostalgic so so I am so hyped to tell you I'm working on some retro looks for yous!
(bcs my brains automatic reaction to people liking something is wanting to make a slutty version for my lovely Cosmianauts obviously hahah).
Realised jeans were crucial to the look and I got rly excited that after a yr of physio and ring splints my hands can finally pull on and do up jeans again! I hadn't been able to wear them for about 4 years because they were excruciatingly painful to put on so this is a heckin big win ♿🥳
So immediately I was on the hunt for some low rise flares hehhe. I gambled a got a couple pairs for cheap online and golly jokes on me. Those black ones are supposed to be low rise... ON WHO?? I'm 5'5 like I'm smol but I'm not so smol Id drown in low rise jeans haha
originally I had wanted them for my y2k look but obviously being that high on me they're def way more 90s so I just went with the styling hahah, you can see how chuffed I was I still had that style of belt, I had to really dig in my sewing boxes haha but I got it 😅
Luckily Bee let me borrow a pair that go SUPER LOW like, Tara Reid in Josie and the pussy cats low, like there would be fuzzy if I didn't trim my bush low 😅
For my personal preference I prefer jeans that sit a lil higher, bcs of my hip dips I just feel it's more flattering... I had to get them out of storage but I actually found some old pairs that still fit so pretty hyped to make a look with them too hehe
Which jeans are your fav? In order theres: High black, high blue, very low, low dark blue, low light blue
Y2K wip coming shortly! It's very pastel and ridiculous, be prepared, I went in hard props and all hehehe
PS the text on the 90s tank top, which is the only reason I got it, says "little by little one travels far" and it felt like the universe was telling me not to lose hope, and keep up my frustratingly tiny baby steps of rehab and therapy trying to get my illnesses less severe
PPS I'm still in this health flare it's finally easing up a bit so I'm trying to work as much as I can safely but I have to be careful so I don't make everything way worse again.
As always I super appreciate your patience and understanding with content/convos 💕
I am only one smol hooman trying to do 10 jobs at once when I only have a few minutes of even just minor functionality a day bcs of my severe health issues, so it's a lot. But I'm doing my best and we still have a heckin good time here in Cosmianaut land baha
Lil pink ruffle outfit, felt super cute def have to take a full set in this, what do you think about this vibe? I haven't decided how to style it yet but how much you wanna bet its just gonna be a lil elf haha Oooh maybe a vintage elf??
Kitty intermission!
I'm gonna get myself cancelled if I'm not careful lollll ok so I tweeted during a migraine and mixed up the kitties (it was Dewen not Arthur), but dug around and found the clip from a few months ago and had to share it with yous all hehe. I also included a lil clip of Arthur just being his special lil self hahaha
If you're having a rough time I hope this brought you a lil smile at least 💕
Do you have any pets/floofy roomates?
Satin miniset!
More coming shortly with Bee as well as some very naughty ppv shots as I got a lil playful with the dress cause as you can tell that satin night dress is the only thing I'm wearing 😈
And ofc some derps haha, I was getting a lil worn out by this point in case you couldn't tell :p
Update post here if you missed it: https://onlyfans.com/259873555/claracosmia
I've kept my story up to date but for anyone that hasn't seen them here's a little catch up over the last couple weeks 💕
Happy new yr my lovelies, lil late but better than never!
Haven't been able to post for a bit but I really did my best to post updates to my story a lot even if they were a bit depressing so hopefully if you missed me, seeing my face in my stories helped at least a bit 💕 been working in this update post for awhile so read on if you're curious, that's the long answer lol, the short one however is just if I go radio silent assume I'm in a bad health flare and I've had to spend all my daily energy (spoons) towards symptom management and taking care of myself so the flare passes as fast as possible as I can return to my fabulous job of making quality smut!
So anywhoodles yea, If you saw my story or twitter you know I've been having a rough time. I wasn't recovered fully from 3 of my illnesses flaring badly when I got my 3rd shot booster vaccine and when those side effects layered on top it threw me into a horrible hellscape. My pain levels were so high I couldn't move without sobbing, and I was so fatigued I don't really remember much of the week after, I could barely manage to eat a whole meal before I'd have to lay down for hours to recover. It reminded me I used to be that sick everyday and even tho logically right now I knew the cause was the vaccine I also know that my current level of pain relief relies on a web of so many tenuous delicate threads that just the fear of my health getting that bad again long term, knowing I couldn't make it through again, it really fucks with you.
Speaking of which my mental health has not been great to start with so that on top was just too much. I've been in shutdown survival mode, it took everything in me just to open twitter and shit post so the algorithm doesn't bury my account for ages again lol all the whilst having my brain tell me I'm a waste of space for not being able to do more bcs ofc
But as tradition dictates since I was non consensually laid out, here's a fun lil noodz at the end!
We started this traditon a year or so ago (does anyone remember the original post?) to help encourage healthy recovery without guilt bcs bam psych shit! Check the noodz tag for more info if you're curious as to why/how it helps but basically it's neural reprogramming (w noodz) by taking something I would have felt guilty and down on myself for, lkke having to take time off for rehab(even tho it wasn't my fault), my brain tells me everyone is going to hate me for letting them down... but if I come back w a nood everyone's happy and I side track the anxiety a lil 🥳
As many of yous know on top of a few debilitating physical ailments (roughly so far is migraines (vestibular, stomach, and hemiplagic), IBS, POTS, EDS/Hypermobility, MCAS possibly and a couple other things) I also have anxiety and depression (who doesn't these days tho amirite? Woof)
My anxiety is an awful beast when playing with its new bestie depression, especially around health and my work. It spirals extra hard after I've had to hide under a rock for a few days focused on survival. Bcs then I'm even more behind than normal and even though logically I know I had to recover I still feel like a failure for "doing nothing" (even tho that's just Internalized ableism bcs keeping my body alive is doing A TONNE of work, it just doesn't contribute to society in a way capatalism deems useful therefore we're told it's not productive)
And I see all the awful things going on to ppl like me everywhere and it's so overwhelming and terrifying. Everytime I see someone in close quarters without a mask they're basically saying "I'm tired of this pandeemics restrictions and I don't care if it hurts you or ppl like you" it's so fucking exhausting. I know I matter, but some days I'm the only voice telling myself that so it'd easily drowned out 😞
On top of that just knowing I have so very limited methods of supporting myself in this fucked up ableist pandemmy society and that I am so so lucky to have my community supporting me here actually causes more panic. My warped brain takes that and twists it so far that I have a panic attack opening the page bcs I'm so afraid to lose it or fuck something up and let ppl down bcs I wasn't well enough to work yet. If I push through a flare I shouldn't be pushing through then I end up making loads of mistakes and that's terrifying.
Gah it's so fucked up that feeling so grateful yet terrified of letting my Cosmianauts down actually is a fucked up self fulfilling prophecy bcs I inevitably lose subscribers everytime I have to take a few days off for health and more the more radio silent I am bcs of the anxiety (around messing something up if I dont wait for a good brain day) the more ppl leave but bcs mental health is a nasty fucking beasty being aware of that doesn't help me stop it happening at all it just makes me feel worse of course 🙄. The ableism again going 'well if it's in your brain pan just will it better!' tho logically I know full well that's the equivalent to putting a person in a gym once and expecting them to come out shredded. Truama/mental illnesses are just injuries in your mental side rather than your physical side, and just like physical needing changes over long periods of time for results (eg months of diet and training), so does mental. And it's so so easy to forget bcs we're constantly blasted with the message that our mental health issues are our fault (bcs we didn't eat enough kale and tan our taints or something) when that is the opposite of the truth. I'm not saying we don't have control overall... But we can't control our initial thoughts, only our thinking patterns and our actions. But if those last two are different long enough then the brain starts to rewire to give different initial thoughts finally. It wasn't really till the last few years it's become accepted that brains stay capable of change through our entire lives, not just when developing like previously thought.... Okay enough about neuroplasticity I've gone off in five tangent rambles now lol , but I hope maybe this was edifying in some places hahs or helped you feel a little better about your own struggles, but if you have any questions or want to know more about anything just comment 💕
It helps me immensely with feeling valued to know I've helped my community even in just a small way
Anyway these flares are still kicking my butt, but working on stuff for you all and thinking about our next live is helping carry me thru the extra rough days. Thank you as always for supporting my whacky antics and being patient with my mercurial bodily functions 🥰
PS if you're not sure how to respond when I'm venting about a bad day just validating it is all I need, like wow that sucks, or that sounds like it was rly hard, hope it passes or eases up etc stuff along those lines keep it encouraging without making me feel like it's my fault I'm not better sooner. It's also nice to hear any similar experiences you've had if you're okay sharing (I make sure my platforms are safe spaces to the best of my abilities, and I'm proud to say my community is super kind and supportive of each other as well I've never had anyone respond negatively to anyone else being open on the contrary I've even seen a couple irl friendships form which makes me so soft 🥰)
PPS obviously this this unexpected health stuff really mucked up my Xmas content drops so I hope you're still in the holiday vibes for when I can get them out asap haha but if you're over xmas they're still super fucking hot so I don't think it'll dampen your enjoyment much I must say hehe
PPPS https://onlyfans.com/235017256/claracosmia if you wanna see more of me in the blonde hehe
Omgggg I didn't realise the comparison till I saw the old clip sorting thru content but this is two clips of my Mistress Clara Claus, but a
a year apart, 2020 and this year.
365 days of grueling rehab and recovery to put on 5lb and not constantly painfully sublux my hip... It's been a rough road with many backward slides so sometimes it's difficult so see overall progress...and I mean I know I still a long way to go (it'd be nice to be able to stand for more than half an hour a day)... but now I can actually manage to lift the leg on its own with more stability and that is a huge heckin win 💪🏻
I can also now do one squat 2x a week without my thigh bone popping painfully out of joint and jamming in place, pinching a few nerves for funsies in the process which classes a Russian roulette of agony thru my back and down my leg (what'll be today folks, toes in fire?, stabbed in the spine?) , like that is amother a huge win... And I need to hecking pat myself on the back for it bcs it's been fucking hell and I didn't think I was gonna make it more days than not.
It's literally taken me 3 yrs from not being in excruciating pain after standing for only 10 seconds and running out of my vestiges of muscle stre gth at 30 seconds. I went from bed bound and screaming in pain to even managing to move about my apartment carefully without my walker. Yes I still have sets backs that are heartbreakg... but the fact that I fought so hard for this. Thur crumbling self identity, relationships, and mental health I still kept fighting. I know I'll have more setbacks and I know I'm gonna want to give up, but I also know I fucking won't bcs I deserve better. Better care. Better support. Better pain management, better meds. And I won't stop fighting till I get them for myself and others in my community.
And as much as I have really been making myself to be kind and give credit to myself for where I've put work in, you guys are such a huge part of my healing journey bcs I would probably still be bedbound without the support here so thank you so so much for being apart of our community and helping me on this road 💕
Going to try to watch this video in my bad days to remind myself the tiny things really do add up to big changes over time (for good and for bad)
Also on a less depressy note I made a quick video to show one of my fav Xmas traditions, flamin pudding and custard! peep it in my twitter here: 💕
https://twitter.com/ClaraCosmia/status/1475603007907713026?t=eSIulwJb4--9vgyfzkXCqg&s=19
PICK MY NEXT CONTENT DROP!
Okay I have so much content I wasn't able to get out as planned before xmas due to my health being rly bad the last couple weeks but I'm still gonna drop them, bcs we worked so so hard on them, which means it's def gonna be xmassy vibe for the next couple weeks for sure haha so I hope the spirit hasn't left you quite yet (if it has I'm sure I can muster it again hehe). However, I've got several projects on the go, partly finished, & I they all feel like my my lil bbs so I just want to do them all which makes it a lil difficult when that is definitely not doable in this reality haha so I would love it if you could help me pick what to tackle next to finish and drop!
📍 Mistress Claus Solo sets (3 sets: lingerie & corset & riding crop, sheer set with crop, noodz)
📍 Live show with @rosemoontv as Xmas elves, edited into several clip compilations (by level of undress and spice factor, there'll be quite a variety, around 6 different videos so hopefully something for everyone
📍 Xmas stuff interlude 1 - a live unedited hour shower show) the last live I did half a yr ago, sexy faerie lights starting in a bikini and stripping! Plenty of thot shower stuff lkke sensual petting, little dances, sexy soaping of booty and such as well as some of my real shower things like exfoliation and just chillin in my shower chair washing my hair (shampoo hawk def made a brief appearance hehe)
📍 Xmas shite interlude 2
Lunara dark elf OC sets (full cosplay and noodz with gorgeous body jewelry)
XMAS COLLAB LEWD & NOODZ XMAS BUNDLE W @OVERLAIRBEE JUST DROPPED check your inbox 💕 (if you're seeing this after the fact unfortunately you missed out on the special pricing but you can still get this content bundle by sending a tip of 💵 $54 and include "bee Xmas noodz bundle" as the tipnote! (⚠️Check the end of this post for the detailed content descriptions⚠️)
Woof if you saw my story updates you know my relaxing day off did not happen haha, but don't worry I'm taking things slow and still gonna have my relaxing soak today or tmrw and do my pedicure I've been trying to get to for weeks 😅
Even tho I'm flared it was no where near my past ones so I am super proud I figured out accessible streaming, I think not forgetting my shoulder braces next time will help even more haha but I'm really excited to be able to do them more often, maybe on a monthly basis like first weekend of the month we have a comfy lewd stream or something like that? I also wanted to say how overjoyed I was at the positive response to some of the changes I've been working on for this platform to help support our community here (like mental health stuff and such).
It's always scary to be vulnerable about something important to you you haven't shared with anyone yet so I really appreciate the encouraging response and it's made me even more excited to start some of these things when the holiday hecticness calms a bit and my health is a little more stable
🚨 SUGAR AND SPICE NOOD COLLAB 🚨
💵 🔥💵 Best bundle deal $54 (save $14) for both pic set and the clip collab Xmas bundle Tip $54 and say "bee Xmas noodz bundle " to grab it!
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📍 PIC Set $40 - 39 PICS MAXED OUT, FIRST EVER DUO NOOD SET, (I have all my accessories still, with the massive shoes, and a lil waist lace corset too but nips and bush fully out). Lots of sexy pose variety as well as 10 silly/cute/derpy outtakes included at the end (the set floor was very hard to balance on in those shoes so I almost fell a lot which makes for some ridiculous captures haha!) The set has lots of tiddies, my bush (they're bushless), and low booty... (I'm even sat side saddle riding Bee like a hot Santa pony for a few heheh), and of course silly derps. It's super hot (quite a few how dare you talk to us vibes hehe) but also you can tell we had a silly fun time too 🥰
💵 Tip $40 and say "bee Xmas collab pic set" to grab it!
📍 CLIP - 2:26 - $28 - MINS FIRST EVER FULLY NUDE MAKEOUTS CLIP
Standing up with our legs entwined, nip and bush views as we start out with gentle kisses, light caresses, and some giggles but then we get a little more carried away fondling each others lovely soft curves... I've never filmed anything like this before 🙈 it's super sensual and hawwwt 💦
💵 Tip $28 and say "bee nood makeouts clip" to grab it!
Just sent the live stream out if you missed it or just wanted to relive some of the highlights check your inbox!
💕 if you're seeing this after the fact unfortunately you missed out on the special pricing but you can still grab by tipping $39 & including "chill Xmas live" in the tip note 🥰 💕
Thank you so so much to everyone that chose to spend their Christmas night with me, I had such a great fucking time & it was truely the bext Christmas I've had in a long time. I connot remember the last time I laughed that much for two whole hours hahah.
With how bad a migraine I had before hand I almost thought I wasn't going to make it but I pulled out every trick in the book and got it calmed down enough I didn't want to puke my face off as it explodes haha and i managed to last even longer than I had expected! Heck yea cripple win!
Speaking of cripple win that is the most safe/least stress body position I've done a show from and it's definitely the least painful afterwards I've had so I am so excited and hopeful I'll be able to do more shows like that if my body handles it okay, fingers crossed it doesn't create too bad a flare 🤞🏻
also shoutout to my awesome community. It's rare that you get the wonderful comfort vibe from OG ppl and inside jokes but also a super warm and welcoming entertaining place for new ppl too, like the comradarie between you all just melts my heart I love it so much!
ANYWAY yea if you're curious about the vibe of my famous live shows this one definitely gives you a good taste! Even though it was a more chill gf vibes hangout we still had all the classic Clara live moments, some nips & bush out teases, comically breaking things, tip bomb freakouts, getting mushy about our community, dying laughing at terrible puns, even a booty spank hehe it just... I don't know how to describe my shows other than you just have to see one for yourself. Or like they're never boring haha Ive commenly gotten feedback from new Cosmianauts like "I dunno wtf I just watched but this is the most fun I've ever had in a stream" which is truely a compliment of the highest calibre hehehe
And yes, as promised I am going to take today off to look after my body and do some self care, if you see me online feel free to yell at me haha. I did go a bit too hard to get drops done by Xmas and I still have a lot planned before new yrs but I know I gotta take it a bit slower or I'm gonna burn out and I jur myself badly and then we'll all be grumpy!
HAPPY MEOWGMAS! das how we Caticorn do it heheh also I was trying to say Christmas squish but uhhhh clearly had some trouble shh its fine just look at my tiddies 🙈😅 (speaking of tiddies there's Mistress Claus noodz at a super special Xmas price in your inbox right now, and a super hot noodz makeouts vid in a couple hours!)
I hope you're having as good a day as you can, thank you so much for being apart of my community and supporting me. I have so many ideas to try and make this a space that helps/supports ppl as well as providing a fun escape and it truely feels like I can actually implement them w all yous support 💕
Also don't forget the LIVE STREAM is tonight! Aiming for 9pm EST but I'll update in stories as it gets closer depending on how my body is doing!
Anywhoooodles tl felt super cute in this look so I hope you enjoy these teases, I do have some sets (noodz too) from this look for January so if you wanna see more just hold tight it's right after the Rose elf's drops!
Happy Xmas!
Here's a nood Mistress Clara Claus and one with the sugar to my spice (who am I kidding were both the spice hehe) @overlairbee to celebrate hehe. The collab sets I did in this look are in your inboxes right now (lingerie and noodz) as well I'm gonna send out an even hotter (much 🍑) free noodz from the collab set as well as an EXCLUSIVE FIRST Look as the very saucy sheer Mistress set to everyone with rebill on tonight at 11pm, so check your settings so you don't miss it!
Don't forget our live stream hang outs is tonight at 9pm EST (but check my story for updates as I may need to adjust the time a lil depending on my health)
Also got a really hot noodz makeouts clip dropping this afternoon it's the spiciest collab clip I've ever released 🙀
I don't know whate to wear for our stream tonight! I flirted with the idea of glam but since I was up all night working that's deffo too many spoons so it's off the table. That leaves thesee cute and comfy outfits but now I cant pick!
They're all kinda easy to flash bush and tiddies in but the left Skelton bra outfit is probably the easiest... Plus you know I love spoomas vibes... But then the plaid bra has some cleavage as a trade for it being a lil more difficult to flash in... And then I just rly love the doctor who tee, it's full size not cropped but I folded it up to be slutty haha omg I can't decide!
Which ones your fav?
Hope you can make it but either regardless I hope your day is filled with some joy 💕
Still aiming for 9pm EST start so far but I've been up all night working to get the Xmas drops done to be "under the tree" of sorts hehe so I'm hoping I can conk out soon but I'll update in stories when I'm up if anything changed!
I CAN'T THINK ABOUT IT THI OR I'LL BE TOO EXCITED TO SLEEP (like a small human on Christmas perhaps? Hahah)
Super important holiday message from Bee and me.... T MINUS 6 HOURS TILL MISTRESS CLAUS SUGAR AND SPICE COLLAB SETS DROP! This lingerie look as well as full noodz (FIRST EVER NOODZ COLLAB!)
I couldn't get me solo sets in these looks edited in time for Xmas bcs I had some awful migraines the last few days but luckily @overlairbee is a total rockstar and edited our collab sets so they will be dropping in a few hours so you can wake up to something special under your tree hehehe they're also super duper special prices for Christmas so don't miss out!
We worked so hard on this (this shoot has been a yr in the making) and I'm really proud of what we made, ended up being above and beyond my expectations (6 sets around these looks dropping this week!) and I really love how excited yous all have been to see the full sets it makes me so happy so thank youuuu 🥰
HAPPY XMAS EVE MY LOVELY COSMIANAUTS 💕
Don't forget the livestream is tmrw (yes Xmas) night aiming to start around 9pm EST but I will update more day of depending how my body is doing and how set up goes!
I've got a little candy cabin to build with you all and maybe even some pudding to eat! And of course tiddies to play with 😈 I'm still in my flare so this isn't going to be a super active dance show, little more chill night in w a gf vibes, but she's also a huge slut and likes being half naked and is a massive dork ya kno? I mean just show up you'll get the vibe :p
PS keep an eye on your inboxes for goodies!
ONE DAY TO THOTMASSSS (either I lost count or it starts Xmas eve I dunno shh I'm posting lewds every day just go with it)
LIVESTREAM XMAS DAY (25th) starting between 9 and 10 PM EST according to the poll that's the winning slot. I am so excited I get to spend Xmas with yous and hopefully provide a fun little escape for a bit!
Oh also Just sent out some super cute and sexy content with @rosemoontv and me and Xmas elves! A pro set and then also a lil pasties bts selfie mini set, if you wanna see more check your inboxes!
Mistress Clara Claus sets should drop Xmas and then the live show from this look with Rose before the new year so lots of hot collab content coming!
ALSO IMMA SEND A FREE NOOD TO YOUR INBOX XMAS DAY 🎉 (and maybe some extra for Cosmianauts who've got resub on hehe)
PS according to my chiro I was not doing well, I subluxed my neck badly from working all night (in three places, 1 is usual, 3 is Uhh yea not good) I thought I was pacing and resting but not enough apparently so if I'm a lil late w stuff just hold tight I'm doing my best and I'd rather prioritize hanging out w you live in xmas than killin myself trying to get a set out and being too sick to stream ya kno? I mean of course I'm gonna try and do both but I gotta take care of my body
TWO DAYS TO THOTMAS!
And looks like Xmas night (9pm-10pm EST start time most likely) is leading in the poll for our live hangs just FYI! Im really excited about getting to spend some time together on Xmas 🥰
Here's another peek from my Mistress Claus sugar and spice set with @overlairbee hehe
Full sets and noodz dropping shortly (for Xmas, spoons willing (as in pray my health holds out)!)
PS on top of everything yesterday my POTS flared badly so I couldn't even stand up without the whole room spinning rapidly before my vision going completely greyed out and my chest hurting from my heart thudding about! I'm a little better today but still super out of it, I was curled up in a ball on my heating pad wondering why my meds hadn't kicked in so I could function a little and turns out I forgot to take them like lol Jesus ffs. My instinct is to be mad at myself bcs of how much I wanted to do today but I know I forgot them bcs I'm struggling extra right now and that means I need compassion even more but bluddy hell it's difficult!
Live hangs vote and comment what works for you pls!
I'm still recovering from the massive work shoot flare from last week. It's going a bit rougher than I'd expected bcs somehow the weather has been erratic and awful (which is a huge trigger for worse flares ofc lol) so it's added migraines and extra pain on top of everything. I've been having a lot of trouble sleeping from physical things and then my brain going a mile a minute somehow trying to confusingly juggle too much to get stuff done and also telling me I'm a failure for not getting done what'd I'd planned. But I know that's evil ableism and perfectionism brain and I won't let it win
Long story short I rly appreciate everyone being so supportive and patient with me your care & love truely make my heart so soft omg 😭🥰
ANYWAY I'm lonely lol and I would love to hang with my Cosmianauts here with a live but I am definitely still too sick to do a full hustle show so I was thinking of trying a low key comfy stream, I got a silly lil Xmas house to build w you and hopefully I can last an hour, and maybe we could just have boob flashes so it's not too rough on my body but still a lil naughty?!
So pls let me know what day would work best for you, I want to have it in a slot that works for as many ppl as possible!
And yes I put actual Xmas on bcs honestly I don't know how many ppl are gonna be alone this Xmas and I wanted to have our hang out as an option if it's needed. I didn't rly grow up celebrating Xmas (mostly we were too poor, I remember getting an art kit present one Xmas bcs we managed to get onto the food bank lists and if you had a kid you got a present for them and I fucking ran those supplies into the ground haha I love them and I was so grateful) but I do still get caught up in the sentimentality and I think even if you don't like Xmas, society can make you feel shitty about being alone on it still!
Plus for my spoonies fam I know it's extra hard. Personally I haven't gotten to see my family for Xmas since the pandemic and I kno it's really getting to me more this yr somehow, so I want to at least have something we can look forward to 💕
ALL TIMES ARE IN EST and the slot is not the full stream but available slot and I'll pick/announce the time day before bcs my health makes stuff really unpredictable!
Five days to Thotmas 😈
Here's some cheeky clips from my Mistress Claus shoot, can't wait to finish these sets omg I'm so excited for you to see everything we put into these shoots, I've been working on this look for over a yr and it means so so much to me I finally got it shot and it even exceeded my hopes!
In case you missed it on my last post here's the lil mini health and content updates:
I'm still recovering m the shooting flares after my Work trip but hopefully dropping Xmas thottery every day till the Mistress Claus d sets on Xmas and then the rose elf sets before new yrs so there's lots of smut in the next couple weeks I hope you're as excited as I am!! Save up and spoil us both pls 🥰
I would also love to do a low key live, around Xmas bcs I'm feeling extra lonely, I'd love to hang even if I'm not well enough for a full show, anf I know it's an extra tough time for some of us!
Gonna get a poll going for the best time shortly so pls vote when you see it!
:: ginger intensifies :: hehe
New hurrrrr, watcha fink?
I loved the colour my last bleached chunk went after I put some semi perm peach in it but it was a couple yrs ago so it's almost all grown out... Clearly time for it to be attacked with bleach again hehe, got more fade this time I am super in love with it!
I haven't had the energy or time to do anything self care-y for awhile stuffs been so rough so it was a hard decision to invest time in my hair a couple weeks ago but I know it's important and its something that ties into how I feel Bout myself too so that helps!
I'm still recovering m the shooting flares after my Work trip but hopefully dropping Xmas thottery every day till the Mistress Claus d sets on Xmas and then the rose elf sets before new yrs so there's lots of smut
I would also love to do a low key live, around Xmas bcs I'm feeling extra lonely, I'd love to hang even if I'm not well enough for a full show, anf I know it's an extra tough time for some of us!
Gonna get a poll going for the best time shortly so pls vote when you see it! g!
Six days to cripple Thotmas and Mistress Claus drops!
So I sent this pic to a mate after I took it and I gotta say I think his hype game needs a lil work bcs he said the outfit was great apart from looking like "a poorly deer in the headlights"
I was trying to look cute! Cute things have big eyes?! 🥺😅
That's mistletoe sooooo I think you know what to do 😈
Yes my Cosmianauts I truely outdid myself this week and not only shot my goth Mrs claus 2.0 (which due to a twitter comment is now being renamed Mistress Claus I'm sure no one will have issue hehehe) but also this other super cute Xmas look as well because I am a gosh darn cripple rockstar 🎉
Also OMG WAT OFFICIALLY ONE WEEK till Xmas! How did that happen already I swesr time doesn't work the same anymore... ( I suppose time is just an illusion after all according to Douglas Adams...) hehe anyway I'm working my lil arse off to try and get sets out in time but I'm still really flared from shooting so it's slow goin' I appreciate your hype but it still balanced with patience that's a really rare combo and it helps w my anxiety levels a lot so thank you💕
I'm also gonna be releasing a FREE NOOD ON XMAS to everyone w resub on as a lil thank you so be sure to. CHeck your settings pronto & your PM's next week 🔥
Heck yea, nailed that tip goal! 🥰
It makes me feel so special when you get hyped and impatient for my content hehe thank you so much!
The full look has so many details and took forever to get into (and months to make) hehe and I'm really proud of the set we made (I say we but rly Bee did most of it bcs my arms no worky and standing no worky well so I just rambled a lot at Bee and they magically translated it into reality haha) what do you think??
Also included a lil bonus bcs you hit the goal so fast here's a peek of @overlairbee s lil sugar to my spice look hehehe we took so much great stuff together as well and omgosh I had forgotten how nice it is working with a friend I think the vibe rly carries over in the set you can tell we had a great time shooting and I'm so excited to share it with you! !
I am. Super exhausted and I'm sure I'll need to just rest up a few days but I'm so proud of what we got done i even pushed my boundaries a lil to see how 🔥 I could be comfy with 😈 you're gonna like these trust meeee they hot af! I was getting a bit flustered just going thru the shots!! 🙈😅
Lil cripple Goth Mrs Claus... Coming to your hard drives this Christmas ❄
Shot by the lovely @overlairbee (who was also nice enough to join me for some naughty sets too 😈)
I'll drop the full look in a couple days but if you're too excited and can't wait tho if I get $50 in tips on this I'll drop the full look today (ahead of schedule omg who am I 🙀) !
Been working my lil tush off on these sets for so long, really excited to show you the full look 🥰
Clara: blonde edition, Who dis bish?
Haha omg what do you think? Def different for me eh! Make sure you scroll to the end for the hawt topless one!
I mean I don't know what kind of magic blonde this is bcs I normally look terrible as a blonde but whuuuuut come on, Bee let me borrow their wig to take some selfies and how does it look that good on me I'm so confused I feel like a different person! Also I feel like a full fringe always makes me look 20 haha I have mixed feelings
& yes I took some nuddies too and I don't know how but my bush still kinda works imho but you'll have to let me know what you think hehe I'll send out the ppv asap but if you're reading this after I sent it, you missed the special price ***but no worries you can still grab it!***
💵 tip me $30 and include "nsfw blonde bundle* in the tip note so I know what it's for and I'll send a bundle of 8 noods/topless piccies (tiddies, bush, & booty) and a nood 16 sec clip!)
Edited or unedited, your choice 😈
PS on the life side I'm still waiting to get new glasses with the vertical heterophoria fix bcs mydays freaking suck without them! I've got awful vertigo and migraines every day it's like ten times bad too much booze spins with none of the fun time before and they just don't go away 😭 it super sucks and I know the glasses don't fix it entirely but I know they're gonna help so I'm just keeping that thought to get my thru!
Hopefully I can get them soon enough to allow me more than a couple minutes of work time a day cause I got some awesome content to crank out man and I'm planning one last shoot this year with lots of fun surprises!
Also as always appreciate your patience with my content whilst I'm having extra health issues. If I missed your PM pls send me a lil reminder I would super appreciate it! I keep thinking I'm caught up but OF randomly bugs & buries some and then I feel like a dingdong for missing them, I have it set to send tips right to the top of my inbox like come on it has one job to do!!
(these selfies are lightly edited, and I've got a natural makeup look on)
Full Wednesday Addams shoot day BTS coming soon but just wanted to give you a peek of the full backdrop area (I'm still so proud I managed to build it in a day and took enough breaks I wasn't destroyed from it and still managed to shoot some fab spoopy smut hehe)
I also have about 5 super 🔥 tease clips including noodz so hope you're hyped for those as well as the photo sets woohooooo
The sets btw will be seperated based on nudity so I can offer a range of prices hopefully that'll make them more accessible! (lingerie, implied, sheer thong & topless (like the one I have my back braces in), and ofc full noodz w the thong off) but ofc I'll still do bundle deals for the Cosmianauts with a voracious content appetite hehe I appreciate you 💕
The last pic shows a lil of the setup I had so I could make sure I was in frame and roughly tell my poses (my vision was p bad without my glasses hahah so there was still a lot of going back and forth), as you can tell by my pose and expression I was getting pretty close to out of spoons by that point hahah
Ok, having a bit of a rougher time that usual so frak you universe I refuse to wait more till your t0rture abates in order to finish the Lunara wip blogs, so suck it! Lil Lunara BTS & finished look tease 🥰 ahhhhhh just wait till you see the look reveal in the 2nd blog post, I'm so excitedddd she's def a dif look than I've done before but I think you'll like her!
Also pls appreciate the ears bcs, as you'll find when the blog drops, they were only $3 and so it took me 2 weeks to make 'em decent lookin!
PS if you can spare some good vibes for my lil kitty we'd appreciate it 💕 she's had health problems her whole life, she was the runt (born in my old apt closet) and I spent every day with her cupping my hands gently around her when she was trying to nurse so she'd have a safe place bcs her siblings would bully her off and she almost died. Not the last time either! That lil ginger ball of stubborn almost died about 3 more times (her brother twice, they inherited my lack of survival skills unfortunately) in the ten yrs I've had her, she's got chronic issues now, they both do, but I'm no stranger to that, and she's a fighter. I know she's not gonna be around forever but this ain't her heckin time so yea the universe better be listening. I'm still "learning lessons" (aka working thru trauma) from my last big losses I don't need anymore thx
