Scroll to the end for the poll deet!
Ooph, I got real vulnerable in my stories last night, I feel extra self conscious about it in the cool light of day haha but I'm leaving it up as a reminder to us that being down after something going a bit sideways is okay Esp if you've been looking forward to it/have had a lot of other things go sideways recently too. You can be valuable to people without having to be the poster bb for toxic positivity :) Just as long as you do your best not to spiral, sometimes that's all you can manage 💕
Even tho I crashed pretty hard I rallied and got some content done so I'm super proud of myself for that, it's gonna take me a bit to sort but I'm excited to share it w you all, here's some peeks hehe
I'm still really glad we managed to have a fun lil show even if we didn't get to do everything I'd planned - I'm so grateful to everyone who made it out, made me giggle, and got me half naked... BUT IT'S STILL MY BDAY WEEK SO I MAKE THE RULES! I want to do a pt2 on the weekend and hopefully have it be the naked birthday cupcake show I've been dreaming of hahah (Clara caticorn in her bday suit w a bday cupcake is that too much to ask universe?!)
📍 POLL INFO
What times do you prefer/can you make it to? If multiple slots work pls select all that do!
All times are in EST, aiming for the show to be an hour long (if my body cooperates) however the timeslots are two hours to allow leeway for day of scheduling! If only a certain part of the slot works for you pls still vote it but also comment and lemme kno so I can do my best to accommodate 💕
PS scroll to the end for some sneaky caticorn nip hehe
PPS shout out to crying horizontally bcs my makeup still looks great here after if I do say so myself haha
SETTING UP, LIVE IN 5, HERE'S THE MENU!
My anxiety is trying to take the reins bcs I had some stuff happen that made me run late but I refuse to let it bcs IT'S MY BIRTHDAY A D IMMA HAVE A DAMN PARTY IF I WANT TOOOO
Did a lil makeup test for the new pastel pink caticorn look, no lashes so they look a bit weird ignore that haha, I can't decide which style or colours I like more tho!
Help me decide pls! Which shape you like better and do you like the subtle colours or more pink better?
The eye on the door side (w the shower cap) is "more liner" and "more pink" and the other eye (flower side) is "less liner" and "less pink" but you can vote for two combos that I didn't have examples of so you need to use your imagination a lil (eg more liner but less pink)
Here's a look at the cosplay if you didn't see my last post! https://onlyfans.com/133464301/claracosmia
NEW CATICORN REVEAL!
Pastel pink Caticorn OC... what should I name her?! WHAT DO YOU GUYS THINK?!
(be sure to scroll to the end of the post to check the live bday party time, can you make it out?! I really hope so it's been a lonely few weeks and I really miss you all 💕)
So I managed to do a mini try on of most of the outfit for the first time and I'm beyond happy with how it's turning out! (I hadn't showered in a week and these are just no makeup/unedited so don't mind me being a greasy potato). I still have to make the headpiece and work on the socks a bit but beyond that she's pretty much ready! I'M SO EXCITED!
I'm a little nervous my body may not hold up for the show on my actual birthday bcs I have to travel to another town overnight Monday for my IV treatment and I normally crash hard on Tuesdays, so that's why I'm scheduling a few back up times (and who knows maybe I'll feel okay and be able to do an extra show during one of those bahah a gal can dream right?)
I'm sticking to a one hour show only tho but it's not guaranteed I'll even last that long so showing up as early as you can to get the party started (and tiddies out faster hehe) is best if you can!
BTW scroll to the end to see the thong I got to go with this set.... its so low cut my bush refuses to be contained 😅
OH and if my migraine let's me imma pm out a cute bra off one to everyone w resub on tonight and a nips out ppv one if anyone missed them, hold tight there's lots coming hehe :p
SHOW TIME:
📍 5-6PM EST Tuesday April 13th - with a raincheck time (if later that day works better for my body) of 8-9pm EST
📍 If can't do show Tuesday, resched to following day (Wed, 5-6 again)
📍 And if all else fails, party time Sunday afternoon, I'll put a poll up for the best time :)
We gonna make this happen come hell or high water, with the power of meowgicalness ✨
NEW CATICORN SNEAK PEEK!
As some of you know I've been making a caticorn OC for my bday for awhile now and this is actually my 5th yr! I didn't get to make the one I had planned last yr bcs of my health and I'm still not well enough to make it (it's hopefully slotted for next yrs) but I still wanted to have a new one to wear for my bday show next week. Which I hope you all can make it to! It's Tuesday at 5ish pm EST as health allows with the raincheck dates being the 14th and the 18th (early evening still) if my body protests too hard on my actual bday.
ofc in true Clara's body fucked her over and everything is a hot garbage fire style I'm here planning my bday for you guys whilst also trying to catch up on posting Xmas & Valentine's sets sooooo yes everything is going great my broken brain is famously talented at juggling a bajillion things successfully /s lololol we tryin
ANYWAY Some very OG Cosmians may remember my first OC light caticorn (first pic) but over the yrs she's been cannabalized for other versions and so I decided a new pastel revamp is just what the doc ordered! Don't have to fully start from scratch but still get to make a new look. You guys, I can't even explain how tough it's been not being able to do anything creative for almost a year and how much joy planning this cosplay has given me. I'm so excited to share with you the full look hehe
FULL REVEAL TMRW!
Pastel is so outside of my normal style, I mean there ain't nothing subtle about me, but I really wanted to lean into it so I themed this yrs bb pink, white, and silver (if someone had to say what colour you see me in most you know it's red or black with gold haha so I apparently just took the counters)
What do you think of the theme so far? Excited to see me try and look all pure and innocent? Muahaha
TW: mental health lows, anxiety & depression, loss
Tldr, had a rough time, trying to catch up safely whilst taking care of my health, I miss everyone loads and appreciate you so muchhhh, BDAY LIVE SHOW TUESDAY (13th) AROUND 5PM EST, new tradition of posting a free nood to the feed to celebrate coming back after having to take a lil time off for a health flare (creating those positive associations so I feel less down on myself like a boss yo)
Hey loves,
My flare from the Valentine's live show was not the best and then my mental health freaked out really badly so its been a struggbus few weeks. My back spazzed a bit worse than I had initially thought but I struggled how to let you know without anyone feeling badly about the show bcs I had a great time and I don't regret it. And I don't want to discourage yous from suggesting fun things during shows! And also considering I spent half this yr bed bound and haven't even streamed in a yr I still handled it way better than I thought I would 👌
My limitations are always changing and the only way I can learn how to not go past them is by making mistakes, and learning more about myself. So with this I learned for where I'm at now I can't do 90 minutes of streaming even if I split it up... But that doesn't mean I give up! It means maybe next time maybe we try two 30 mins or one 45 min... Try some different It's all trial and error but I'm determined to get there and figure out how to do live shows in a safe way for my health. I hope you'll keep experimenting w me, high five for sexy scienceeee!
I've been working rly hard in my health and experimenting with different set-ups and such to make my bday show as safe as possible so mark your calendars bb bcs my bday is coming up, IN FIVE DAYS (Tuesday, but originally when I wrote this it was 5 weeks away, siiiiiiigh, we tryin) and you can hecking bet your butt I wanna do a live to celebrate (a couple weeks ago my RMT said my back is still too messed up so I'm only allowed to stream again if I don't stick my butt out so I have been super careful and working rly hard on physio to try and get her all clear for booty fun hehe 😈)
Anyway, physical side covered but just as I was starting to get up on my feet recovering from the show flare I had some rough family issues hit me as well as worsening mental health it was just bad timing all round. It also coincided with the 2 yr anniversary losing a good friend which I didn't realise till after was just making everything way worse. It created a crisis I didn't even know I was in till I noticed the only way I was able to partially quell panic attacks or being frozen by anxiety was w that big S ideation (have to be careful about how I say stuff, but we all know what I mean...) and I'd been doing it for over a week just trying to push thru before I realised how much I was struggling. It's the one mental health thing I couldn't shake an ounce of stigma from for myself yet so it's probably the most uncomfortable thing for me to talk about or share (I would literally rather perform a 30 minute spoken word and interpretive dance about my worse bathroom experiences while getting stung by bees) but I'm making myself bcs I know for a damn fact the shame and stigma around mental illness Esp related to the big S is fucking dangerous. And I also know that most chronically ill people have S ideation at some point, yet its rarely discussed. So I don't want to concern anyone, I have looped a couple friends in and I will reach out if it gets worse. But I'm sharing bcs there's good chances someone reading this can relate and I want to make it clear there's nothing shameful about feeling at the end of your rope, and I'm not special, if I can share or reach out so can you, even if it feels impossible, it's not 💕
I've been writing this post for almost 5 weeks now (I keep having to reedit this like a millions served McDonald's sign bcs of how long it's taking to write lol), I haven't had very much functional brain time and even when I did I struggled trying to figure out how and what to share. I want to be open with you guys so you understand more and we can build a closer community here but at the same time I don't want you to feel sorry for me. I need a lot of things but pity is never one of them heh. Snuggles, snacs, and orgasms yes definitely need, but pity no thank you! 💀
Question for you tho, I've been posting lil updates to my story (as well as some bare nippies hehe), have yous felt in the loop enough with that or would it be helpful to do lil update post summaries on the feed too in case you missed story?
Right now my anxiety makes it incredibly hard to keep updating once my flare or crisis has run longer than a couple days bcs I have all this pressure jumping on me about not letting people down or losing important people bcs I failed to deliver, but I am always trying to get better at it. It just feels silly to even talk about being a grown ass woman having a panic attack trying to tap on her message button 🙃 and even tho I know that's internalized ablism and mental health bullshit stigma... It doesn't make it any easier lol but just to be clear no one has gone off on me, quite the opposite you have all been so lovely to me, almost all of this is just my mental illness spinning reality wonky, but even if I know that it's not always enough to fight with, but I'm trying my best and I just hope you can continue to be patient with me (and yourself/people in general were all going thru a freaking lot rn)
Anyway I keep getting feedback you love the smutty but you want more life updates and silly bits too bcs you miss it (and the Cosmia kitties hehe) and that just fills my heart 😭 so I'm going to try and remind myself of that when I feel like I'm just being a downer... my brain constantly tells me not doing an update is better than another depressing one (bcs then maybe people can imagine I'm doing okay) whilst also telling me people would just think I'm being lazy and they're gonna be disappointed in me. I try to speak back but sometimes that voice is just too loud, but I know I'm gonna get to a place eventually I'll barely even hear it most of the time, and for now hearing kind words from you all really kicks its butt, thank you 💕
I'm still working on PM's, as I've said in the past I fucking love getting to know you better, and getting a lil extra naughty in there but my brain thinks it's hilarious to turn it into a mental health Mount Everest so it's a fucking challenge and a half currently but pls don't think it means I don't care 💕 I mean kinda the opposite rly it feels like I care too much and keep feeling not well or stable enough to handle conversations and content the way I feel everyone deserves!
Hoping I'll be caught up soon, but just FYI I do reply to tip ones first so I may still have some I haven't gotten too in a bit so hold tight
Also I had wanted to be all caught up before my bday but obvs life didn't quite go according to plan so now the order is bday content, Valentine's show naughty extras, elf w Rose vids, and then some Valentine's sets (like Jessica Rabbit and Deadpool) and I actually sneaked a peek at the clips I took after the feb show and they're mega hot, better late than never for dirty content right??
PS if you missed my story a bit ago I'm implementing a new tradition to help me feel more positive about flare recovery just being a part of my life (& not shameful) and that's to release a noodz to the feed after recoup breaks! So now you guys get a silver lining to my flares too! Like "oh did Clara work too much and have to take a few days rest? Well I'll miss her but I'm not mad about the extra nood from it 😈" hahahah
Heya my loves, as I've mentioned in my stories here I've been MIA bcs the flare from that Valentine's live ran into some real bad mental health struggles (I've literally been writing an update post for over two weeks, strugglebus extreme mate).
But on top of that it's also bcs my darn lemon phone really started kicking the bucket and it's been a struggle to use. I finally got it upgraded, but who knows how long my adventure will be getting the new one functional so I may be incommunicado a lil but GET HYPED FOR HIGHER QUALITY SMUT and Clara not wanting to smash her face in after half an hour of work 👌
And as per our rules, here's some nipnops straight to the feed to celebrate a post after non consensual time off hehe (in case you missed them in the story)
Hope you're doing well and I can't wait to catch up w everyone 💕
And as always I appreciate your patience and kindness... It means so much to me that you understand I'm working as hard as I can with the fucked up hand Ive had dealt recently
Right now my rough plan if my health let's me is I'm gonna get caught up on PM's, release the Xmas and Valentine's sets as well as some other smut I've made and hopefully do a lil chill poison ivy stream for st Patrick's next week.... But I have to be super careful bcs the thing I am most excited about is getting to spend my bday w you all again live! Even if it's not a big show like I used to put on I wanna make it special for us and it's only a month away 🎉)
Ahhhh thank you sosos much to everyone that made it out to the lives you helped make the show awesome and you made my Valentine's fabulous 😊
I may have overdone it a bit but it's been so long since I've gotten to be tawdry and silly with my crew and I got a bit caught up, oopsie but srsly not too bad considering it's been about a year since my last live 😱
Hoping the flare isn't too bad and recovery is swift, keeping my fingers crossed and I appreciate any healing vibes you can send my way 💕
I'm trying to get caught up on PM's but it's a slow process for me (bcs I don't often have the needed mental capacity for proper replies lining up with the no migraines and low finger pain required) so I appreciate your patience :)
I just really appreciate how understanding and supportive everyone has been whilst I struggle and heal and grow and figure out how to make things work with my ever fluctuating limitations. It's scary to live in a world where most people think you don't matter bcs of something you have no control over (my disabilities), and you guys make me feel like I do matter, like I can still help people and that is really my driving force. Well I mean that and fun boners 😈
Speaking of which (smooth segue Clara hehe) I also got a couple of pretty lewd clips and pics with the half spoon I had after the show before I collapsed lol so if you missed the show or just wanted some momentos I got chu covered, I'll send em out as soon as Im well enough!
ONLINE AGAIN IN 15 MINS 7pm EST
Thank you for the super duper awesome stream eaelier even tho it was short I had such a blast. I wish I could have stayed longer but my body couldn't take it. I'm resting on heating pads rn giving it some TLC so I can do another wee show shortly, hope to see you there! We've got a BJ show and topless tease in the queue you don't wanna miss it 💕
Hello my loves!
(going LIVE TODAY, deets below)
Happy Valentine's daaaaaay - for the record I don't support the capitalist pressure nightmare this holiday has turned into but I do support all excuses to be scantility clad, spoil my peeps & /or get spoiled, and eat sweets!
I've still been having some really bad health days so I wasnt able to get everything done before vday that'd I'd hoped but I still wanna make it a lil special for us if I can :)
Praying to all the things my body (and technology lol) cooperate for me I'M GONNA DO A SHORT VALENTINE'S DAY LIVE STREAM HERE!!! not the most notice but I had quite a few bad days in a row & wasn't sure I'd manage it but fingers crossed! Aiming for 4:30pm EST. It's only gonna be 30 mins so try not to be late or you may miss the good bits hehe. Set a raincheck time of 8pm EST if my body is strugglebusin' and worst case if I can't get on live I'll run a lil tip game so one way or the other you're stuck w me for Valentine's sorryyyyyy ^_^
And I'm also working on sorting a couple of hawt patreon sets to drop in the PM's in the evening if lives not your jam (a chill comfy cute pink lingerie self shot look, and a profesh shot naughty red lingerie & topless housewife look)
Oh and 2nd pic is the menu for tonight's show, it's free to hang obvs but if you tip the amounts during the live stream you control parts of the show (like flashes or spanks!). Also I wanna be comfy so prolly not gonna wear knickers just FYI.... SQUEEEEE can't wait, it's been way too long since we've hung out live I miss everyone!
I swear I posted this but I couldn't find it on my page so either my brain glitched or OF did... Equally likely at this point ahah
Anyway pls appreciate my precarious pastie skills 🙈
Comparing spank handprints hehe which ones redder, alpha or omega?
PS I posted a lil set from this look a couple of days ago if you missed it check my page
Of course I had to at least take a couple pics with the tatas out...
PS those garters are for socks or stockings but who says I can attach them to my braces?! 👌😂
I know you guys liked this look so I wanted to spoil you with the full set! Aye hope you like eet 👉👈
Make sure you scroll to the end for kitty bombs including very lewd double ginger butthole shots haha (not as lewd as the pm I sent couple days ago tho hehe thank you for the great feed back on that one 😈 very encouraging)
If you missed the freebies and special deals i sent out on some nsfw stuff from this look on new years but want some lewder pics in this look fear not they're still available!
tip me $14 and say "lewd dragon" and I'll send you a bundle with 4 topless pics and a lil topless tease clip 💋
Psssst check you PM's fam you should have a tiddie tease clip and a couple ppvs. I've had some enquiries re how wild things are getting downstairs so I figured I should let you know hehe 🙈
Also OF has been really buggy for me so if you didn't get the mass messages from me tonight pls lemme kno. Im also caught up on all PM's before the 18th according to my inbox so if you messaged before then and haven't heard back pls comment here so I can try and sort it 💕
Been having a rough migraine every day type week and a covid concern so it's been a strugglebus week but pleased to report tests were clear so nothing serious to worry about right now at least! I really appreciate all your kind words, positive feedback, and encouragement!
It means so much to me and helps me feel sexy, safe, and desired which then fuels me wanting to show off more hehe IT'S A GOOD CYCLE! 🥰
I'm comfortable with the reins but I really love hearing what you all think of my content :)
Good morning from lady and the thot hehe how do you feel about sheer tights?
I mean I'm prolly gonna post some more in them regardless but I'm curious 😂
Swiss cheese brain thought I posted this but I can't find it on my page so idfk, I'm just proud and grateful, thank you lovelies for helping me grow and heal 💕
PS OF is really bugging and erorring out a lot so of you see this post could you please like it, for science? Thx 💋
As some of you may know I've been having an extra rough couple of weeks. I've been in survival mode for so long and my mental health/self esteem has been spiraling so I wanted to do something to help with that. I wanted to do this silly tiktok challenge as a crip to show people you can still do stuff you may initially think you're not able to (was trying to plan how to do it safely for me over the last few days). The original challenge is one of those classic potato to hot transitions except you drop into the hot one and twerk in a squat... Obviously not something I can do with my disability and thought I couldn't do it at all till I saw mizteefranklin on twitter do a version w her mobility aid and made me want to do a version with mine (Dora my walker).
But bcs I've been so sick I knew I had to be really careful w my boundaries to stay safe Esp bcs my perfectionist brain takes the reigns and I won't realise I've done too much till its too late bcs I'm so used to just pushing thru no matter what to get work done. I still had a really bad night (awful pain surges and puking my guts out) but there's confounding variables so I'm not sure how much my work contributed but either way I know it would have been SO MUCH WORSE if I woke dlike before. I stayed super aware, and forrced myself to stop or not do extra that I really wanted to. May not sound like much but that's a huge achievement for my brain. And I couldn't have done it without all your support telling me to focus on my health as much as I can 🥰
I haven't gotten done up in months and I'm so glad I was able to enjoy feeling myself again. I didn't even take super lewd content... Can't remember the last time I felt this sexy with my tits covered ahahah. Did take some cute lil tease clips in the tights/thong up skirt vibes tho if you're into that I'll share more this week ^_^
Even just looking at some of the pics I took yesterday make me smile bcs I can still feel my energy coming off them. Very much a rest and recover day today but I wanted to share a bit with you as soon as I could
Also I did catch up on my messages over the weekend but I've had so much fog this week I've fallen a lil behind again. I basically trust my brain to shit post on twitter when it gets like that and that's about it, I definitely can't actually make remotely intelligent replies and I don't trust myself not to lose messages and make errors w content, so if you're waiting to hear from me don't worry I should get back to you soon, you all's deserve my best 💕
Finally some recent noodz! So proud I'm looky squishy again 🥰 plus Lookit how long my hair is holy moly, longest it's ever been, do you like it? I mean maybe not so much bcs of the censoring haha but try not to let that sway you.
If you want lewder check your PM's I sent out a 6 pic bundle w nips and bush 💋 or if you're seeing this afterwards tip me $20 and say "new yr 6 pic Lewds bundle" so I know what to send you!
(however it's a better deal in your PM's so if you're subbed when I posted this let me know bcs you should have gotten the PM 👌)
As always, I appreciate your patience w DMs and content, there's only one of me and not very much of me at that bcs of health issues and I'm doing my best 🥰 still working on that slutty elf show content w rose don't worry I haven't forgotten! it's just a lot more work than I expected so hopefully these bathroom nudies can tide you over hehe but the footage is so cute and silly and sexy I can't wait to get it all done for you 💕
My health taking a nose dive right as the world exploded again oh boy its been a rough week. If you didn't see my story stuff or twitter I've barely been able to sleep or eat from painsomnia, anxiety attacks, and migraines for a few days in a row and it's hitting me hard.
But amongst all the painful chaos, it's just made me even more grateful I have you guys. Everyone has the perfect balance of hype for my content and understanding why delays happen, like you give me support but without pressure to make my anxiety worse. I'm so grateful for you pervy beautiful souls helping me create a lil bubble of good vibes here ILY pls enjoy this Poison Ivy set as a thank you 💕
Scroll past the set of 10 for lots of unedited derps ft Dewen (and her fur haha) :)
PS imma pm out a topless one w a precarious ivy pastie when I'm a bit more caught up on PM's so keep an eye out 💋
Considering how many setbacks I had and what an overall dumpster fire year it was I am incredibly proud that I hit my weight goal. I worked so hard after serotonin syndrome just ravaged my body. It was several months of intensive rehab before I could even keep food in me. It took so much but I damn diddly did it!
Back in Feb I was 95lbs and I almost died bcs of some medical errors. Serotonin syndrome and then akathisia was one of the most awful things I've ever been thru. And I've seen some shite so that's saying a lot.
I couldn't walk, everything ached excruciatingly, my period stopped for four months, I was constantly freezing, my bones jutted out, all rest positions were incredibly painful after just a couple minutes bcs I had no padding, a nerve got pinched in my hips from low muscle mass and caused 5 months of numbness then pain and burning over my hip bone, even tight clothes just fell off me. I just couldn't keep any food in me I was puking and shitting my brains out most of the day for almost 8 weeks.
It took me ten months and a few setbacks but I freaking finally did it and put 15lbs back on. When even the slightest wrong move in physio or 1 minute too long of walking can injur/flare/KO me for several days, bcs of hypermobility and joint instability, putting muscle mass back on is incredibly difficult. I literally had to relearn how to walk this year and it took me about four months but I can actually move around my apt without Dora my walker most days now and I'm too grateful for words when I look back to how awful I was earlier this year. Shits still fucked up don't get me wrong but Jesus that was a huge accomplishment for me and I couldn't have done it without a handful of wonderful souls helping me irl and the amazing support of my Cosmians thru all of this, thank you 🥰
PS my brain got used to me being so underweight that now it tries to tell me I'm fat (thanks teenage ED that never really goes away) so I extra need to remind myself how much of a win this is and part of the reason I want to share it w you all 💕 it's extra ironic bcs when I first lost the weight I hated how I looked. I could barely stand to take photos of myself. I'd spent years coming to terms and loving my curves and knowing thiccness is in vogue now didn't help things when I'd look in the mirror and my literal tailbone stuck out further than my pancake butt 😭 it def did a number on my self esteem but (hehe butt) I'm pleased to announce she's made a small but triumphant return. Alpha and omega rise again!
PPS I'll PM out the uncensored shortly, ya kno da drill 💋
My evening sucked so I decided to ward off the bad juju and start the year right by sending everyone a free topless pic so check yo DMs bcs it only works if you look at my nipple... hey I don't make the rules!
Heya, in case you didn't know I made a free OF account (onlyfans.com/claracosmiafree) and I'm still working on balancing content but it got me thinking I def miss the feeling of community my live shows had but I'm trying to find new ways to grow ours till I'm well enough to do lives again. One way I think I can do that is just by continuing to share my stories/struggles w mental health and disabilities and provide a place for people to share or at least not feel alone in similar struggles. But I also don't want to get too mushy in a lovely land of smut hehe.
Wondering how you guys feel about my longer posts like around health or life updates, disability related, more personal stuff etc. I used to share that kinda thing on patreon or insta but I can't handle that many different platforms right now so just figured I'd check in and see how you feel about it/what you're mainly here for!
Boxing day elf booty 💋
Fun fact, this elf look is from last year and I was actually accidentally dancing on a torn hip ligament right here (after I dislocated my hip falling on the ice couple weeks prior but I got bad advice and didn't know the full extent of my injury yet (downside to chronic pain is its hard to know what's serious bcs it all really hurts) but that's why I had all the pain patches and had to do hop jiggles instead of my normal side to side wiggles hehe but I think I adapted decently 👌 )
