*edit omg I can't believe I'm posting this*
Hi! You’re probably wondering why I’m deleting my IG and where all the content on this page went, well I deleted it all and here is kinda why. This year has been really hard on us all. I wish that I could give everyone a huge hug and just make this year disappear sadly I can’t. If you follow me on twitter you most likely know a great deal more than someone from instagram, but I don’t wanna recap all my bad moments of this year so I’m gonna skip over that part and just start a new. For my own mental health and well being as a human, I’m deleting instagram and doing something that makes me nervous and really excited at the same time. I don’t really have a plan at all. I just have wants, I wanna be happy, I want my followers to feel like they really know me, I wanna blog/vlog about my travels and things I find exciting, and I just wanna space where my followers can always have updates and never have to fear losing me cuz of a sites stupid terms of service.
I wanna stop feeling like I’m not good enough and being scared to do my own thing and go off the beaten path. I don’t know what I’m searching for/craving but I know what’s leaving a bad taste in my stomach and I’m tired of being nauseous. Instagram and following fellow creators has never gone well for me, it always causes me to spiral into an unhealthy mindset cuz they are so much better at always appearing okay, IG in general is like that. Creators never share their struggles or bad days they just share their highlights, and for someone like me its so bad cuz I start saying why can’t I do that? Why can’t I just put my best face on and conquer? I just really need another mental reset. I took a very very long break from instagram and felt the best I have ever been then I returned and it took me a couple of months to get back to where I was but here I am, feeling worthless, like my content is trash, like ill never measure up and be where I want, I’m at the point where I can’t even take a selfie cuz I feel so fucking ugggglyyy (not the creators fault get your bags beauties) this is purely an issue I’m having (an other creators like me), its a me problem not a them problem. Most IG users truly enjoy the aesthetics and the polished feeling of instagram, some people can handle that and remind themselves that it’s just a highlight reel but some of us can’t. I just really need to work on myself, stay in my lane, and learn to truly love myself. I truly want to continue to grow like I have been doing so much this year.
I wanna rediscover myself cuz honestly I have been so depressed I don’t even know what I like or who I am. I was listening to everyone else’s voice but my own and living my life by handing the steering wheel over to someone else and got left in the desert to wither away into nothing. A shell of who I once was. I truly don’t think I have reconnected with myself in years. I desperately want to change that. For the last year I have had this idea cuz I felt like a bandwagoner just making a free OF to post the same stuff I post on my sub OF it just felt wrong and is a big reason why I stopped posting on here. I have been wanting to vlog for like the last 2 years waaaay back when my public snapchat was poppin (I miss snapchat so much T.T) I’m not saying that I’m gonna start vlogging tomorrow (my life is currently too boring lol all I do is run errands for the family and pack) but I am saying that when I get on the road with my parents I want too and I want a place to post anything and everything and I truly believe that this can be the place. Its so scary to put myself out here like this especially after the stalking I have experienced this year, but I feel the need so I’m gonna do it. You can’t heal the trauma if you give the trauma power. I have to live my life to the best of my ability.
I know that some people are gonna be really upset that I deleted all the content on this page (I will be reposting some of it) but I hope that you can see past the frustration and join me on this journey, I know that I’m gonna lose some followers cuz “this isn’t what they signed up for” but I think this is gonna be just as great as super cheap nudes (which you can still get on my sub account) *cheers to new beginnings, just winging it, and telling my anxiety to shut the fuck up* I hope that this helped you see into a door that I didn’t realize was slammed shut.If you have any questions or topics you’d like me to talk about, please comment down below!
“The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over expecting different results” - Albert Einstein
Hi again! I hope you had a good night even tho it was stressful. I know I personally had a super hard time sleeping, my teeth hurt from holding so much tension in my mouth lol and last night I had back spasms from stress never had that before. Please be kind to yourself anyway you can and work through the stress.
I just wanted to come on here and say I changed the name of this account from mcspicy to mckatenzirl, I feel like its more fitting, I hope you like it! I also wanted to say wow just wow on the feedback, I really do feel like Im on the right path and reading over last nights post I wish I had worded things differently but I wanted it to be just from the heart, the anxious heart apparently but the heart no less. I feel good about my choice, at the beginning of this year I took a long break from social media like I said and it was great for me, my mental health and my fans because I was only uploading to onlyfans during that time period and on my A game, which is where I wanna be, with you guys in our little bubble. I have really been struggling with the aggression of twitter as well (not deleting it) I feel like there is just so much negativity we are all drowning in, so it will be nice to have this little area with you guys where we can escape from that chaos for a bit.
I feel really good about making this my main social media, I feel safer making this decision. I think sometimes we done realize how much we internalize as human beings. I feel like this will help us grow more together, me open up more, and just not have to live in fear of terms of service. A lot people asked if I was quitting sexwork, the short answer no not yet. I’ll most likely be doing it for a few more years or as long as I can. I do though wanna secure more income avenues and create a bigger online presence. I have more ideas like how I’m using this account now floating around in my head. I really wanna see if I can get an outdoor account off the ground and explore my passions of camping and photography. I just dont wanna over commit to doing so much and im so stressed out with the move tbh. Nothing is going according to plan and im getting the shortest end of the stick honestly so im gonna be focusing on sex work and getting back to where I was and pleasing my babies before I start new adventures but I feel like this account falls under that as well, so that’s why I started this, because I just can’t really handle “normal” social media right now. I can’t really handle much of anything these days honestly lmfao but I'm done being like everyone else and I'm ready to embrace myself and my own ideas.
Have a good day and remember to be kind to yourself and those around you because everyone is very very very stressed out and lashing out. Stay safe friends.
Let me ride you, 20 minutes of me stripping out of a black body suit wearing heels, with cock sucking and riding. I hope you like my ass bouncing on your cock.
Hi 👋 my name is piggie 🐷 my mom said it’s time to introduce myself to my new friends who are going to grow to hate my moms endless hamster spam 🥺😂 I am a older hamster who was being kept in horrible conditions. Those bitches let my nails almost grow into my skin 🙃 kept it 80 degrees in my cage, only fed me these nasty brick things, I had this dumb wheel I couldn’t even really operate ‘‘twas sad my dudes. All of a sudden as I’m on the verge of a heat stroke at the beginning of something called a “heat wave” my mom said walks in @destinationkat and my mom and oh how did my life change for the better. I got a bigger cage even tho it’s still too small for me I keep telling mom and she says she’s building one but I’m not seeing anything happening. Anyway as I was saying, I got a new wheel, they gave me this rock thing to walk to my food on that’s somehow making my nails shorter it’s wild man. I get all kinds of different foods and this magical hand comes in with broccoli and carrots when I wake up before everyone disappears and I don’t see them forever. It’s AWESOME! Anyway that’s my story, I don’t know why mom wanted me to do this but have a great day and maybe a mystical hand will bring you veggies when you wake up!
This is piggies new home 🏡 🐷 he is very very happy. Thank you guys for supporting my content and making it possible to give my animals the very best lives I can. 🐶 🐹 🤍
Super excited for @xdaddyandkittenx flying out! I can’t wait to see what we get up too and what content we create together! 🥰 The fundraiser is to help cover some of the costs mostly the plane ticket to fly her out, any little counts and I don’t expect to hit goal lmfao but if you like me collaborating with people this is a great way to support that.
