peep...is your rebill turned on? sending out a video tomorro..
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2020-08-30 21:41:00 +0000 UTC View Post
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I also use sundayās to reflect on my week. feel free to resp..
I also use sundayās to reflect on my week. feel free to respond with how your week went too :) . . . . . . . .. . . . . . I feel like this past week was a really good week! It was hard, emotionally, but i got through it. Getting back from the west coast was rough, but Iām so glad I went. It was worth the red eye, the fever blister, and the travel inflammation. My heart feels so full to have met Emma and connected in the way that we did. She came into my life just as my friend who Iāve been talking about on snap seems to have left in some way. Iāve come to terms with the shift, it took me about 5 days to really settle into the change, but I did without a fight so thatās saying something. Iāve attached some screenshots I took from the advice I got on snap and a couple of tweets that helped me get through this transition. Maybe they can help you too. My snapchat is zescarn for anyone who wants to follow along :) This was also the week of my one year anniversary since attempting to end my life, which, I donāt mind talking about it because I know im not the only person who has ever felt this way. I also know that by telling my different stories and sharing my experiences, I can reach someone and help them through my healing story. But to look at where I am now compared to the 25th of august feltā¦overwhelming. But without last august, I wouldnāt be able to feel happiness. To know what low feels like means I know what true happiness feels like. And I know that the hardships I went through one year ago were put there to help me grow into the person I needed to become. I was in that space because I was broken. My heart needed to break in many different ways in order for it to be able to receive more love, if that makes any sense. Like, the spaces where my heart broke is where I now have space for more love...I can feel more love because of the broken pieces. Idk, im probably saying this wrong but I hope you get the point. This month has been all about focusing on self-acceptance and self love. I feel that I can give love out to you guys just fine. True love, like true connection and care for the people who choose to get close to me on the internet. But giving it back to myself has been tricky but DAMN am I learning each day. And thatās so exciting. Itās also so exciting that I get to learn from you guys!! You donāt know it, but the ones who choose to respond to my snap stories, get my phone number, partake in discord chats, and those who connect with me in ways I didnāt think were possible before starting in this industryā¦.you teach me so much and im so grateful to be apart of your lives too. So yeah, the theme of this next month/year or whatever is to love me and by following my dreams, working really hard, and taking time for myselfā¦Iām taking care of me. Hopefully next year or the year after that I can really work on receiving love externally but for now, im going to be pretty selfish when it comes to self love. And that feels good. As for work, I feel like this week was really great work-wise! I connected with a lot of new people from the different shout outs Iāve been hosting (thanks again for being so cool with it, btw) and August is coming to a close which makes me feel a whollleeeeee buncha things. Something Iām currently struggling with is the (rejection?) or the realization that I hurt someone without intending to. And I guess me putting more energy into this isnāt the right thing to do because I shouldnāt dwell on otherās experiences too much but if I was in the wrong, I want to learn from that and grow further to understand myself and those around me. Iām hurt that I hurt someone and Iām not really sure how to go about it. Basically, ever since starting out on cam, Iāve looked up different models for inspiration. A couple being Scout, Brielle, and Izzy. But the biggest, most influential person I looked up to was Olivia (Livibot on twitter, her work is wonderful) Through her doing her thing so eloquently, I not only was able to spark my own creativity but heal in ways I canāt even get into right now because my fingers would hurt from all the typing. But basically, I loved some of her ideas. Like meditations and audio recordings (which is where meditation Monday came from before I took Mondays off) I especially loved the ones she had about bringing her friends together. Slowdown Sunday came from her idea where she asked her snap friends to list out what theyāre grateful for. I LOVED that idea. So I implemented it into my community so we could connect more and I could learn more about you guys, but I didnāt ask for her consent or shout her out for the idea and she communicated to me last night that hurt her. So much so that she unfollowed me on twitter and blocked me on onlyfans to protect her work from me. Which like OUCHY! That HURT! One of the most influential models for me blocked me to protect herself from me? But the rejection isnāt what hurts, the more I look into it. Itās that I hurt someone enough for them to do that. Maybe how I go about this is acknowledge it and be more conscious moving forward. But itās weird because I have this mentality that if any woman is winning, we are all winning. Iāve had girls steal my ideas, and some made more money on my ideas than I didā¦but because of me, someone was able to find success. Thatāsā¦..beautiful. Thatās so beautiful to me. But another lesson I learned through this conflict is that not everyoneās experiences/values are the same as mine. Just because I think itās empowering to inspire other models to use my ideas, it doesnāt mean everyone thinks that way. And thatās where healing comes into play. Itās quite selfish of me, actually, to think this way. That because I think like this, every other model also thinks this way and therefore, I can use this personās idea and make it my own for my page. I'm torn between 'this is how inspiration and empowerment works' and 'I'm a terrible person.' No balance, no in between. My head is spinning, I hate conflict. I apologized and explained that I didnāt have ill intentions, but im sure the damage is done already. I just feel things so deeply, especially conflict. Iām sad I hurt someone else. Anyways, Iāll get over it, probably after more thinking and contemplating. but this is where the self-love comes into play, right? this is bringing my practice into the real world. It's about shifting my thoughts from "you're a terrible person" to "you're human." But yeah! Thatās my week. How was yours? :)
2020-08-30 19:04:18 +0000 UTC View Posti like to open the room up each sunday and hear from you guy..
i like to open the room up each sunday and hear from you guys. what are you loving about my page? what arenāt you loving? help me learn from you āļø
2020-08-30 16:03:22 +0000 UTC View Postgood morning and happy sunday š . . . . . . . . everything y..
good morning and happy sunday š . . . . . . . . everything you see today is part of my exhibitionist set, you can grab it here: https://onlyfans.com/44254201/zeta_bb
2020-08-30 12:43:40 +0000 UTC View Postah! the video droppped! it's in your dms! iām so nervous!! ..
ah! the video droppped! it's in your dms! iām so nervous!! & stay tuned until the very end, there's a special note.
2020-08-30 01:20:05 +0000 UTC View Postone more hour left until my new video drops! :DD
one more hour left until my new video drops! :DD
2020-08-30 00:01:33 +0000 UTC View Postdon't forget to grab this set here while it's half off: http..
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2020-08-29 21:02:55 +0000 UTC View Post
oh and ummm my new video "exhibitionist" drops tonight in yo..
oh and ummm my new video "exhibitionist" drops tonight in your dms at 9 pm eastern :)
2020-08-29 17:03:10 +0000 UTC View Posteverything you see today is part of my new set, "exhibitioni..
everything you see today is part of my new set, "exhibitionist." tip 25 below and all 54 shots are yours.
2020-08-29 14:04:00 +0000 UTC View Postgood morning and happy spicy saturday ā”
good morning and happy spicy saturday ā”
2020-08-29 11:03:45 +0000 UTC View Postanother fun fact for fun fact friday: I read this tweet so..
another fun fact for fun fact friday: I read this tweet sometime ago that stated something along the lines of āwhen a womenās voice is shrill and high pitched during sex, it means her energy isnāt genuine.ā And I thought about it for a long time. I rejected it. āHow dare you call me inauthentic?!ā whadddup ego, take it down a notch, would you? but the more I thought about it, the more I could relate. when im trying to IMPRESS the other person, my moans are loud and shrill. but am I really enjoying it if my brain is so focused on impressing the other person? when im enjoying pleasure for myself and for the other person, my moans are lower-pitched and more even. I think being present in sex is really, really hard. and the better you can get at mindfulness, the better your sex life will be! iām lucky because through my custom orders, Iāve been able to practice being present while pleasuring myself. and a couple of you have commented on the work Iāve returned to you and how itās so much more electric now compared to my earlier stuff. so thank you to the ones who have bought customs from me. thank you for giving me practice at being present while receiving pleasure. sidenote: this audio recording is available for $100. itās 15 minutes of really intense, really passionate sex with my partner from 2018. shoot me a $100 and ill send it to your dms <3
2020-08-28 22:10:48 +0000 UTC View Postheaded to the JIM! do you like my outfit? if you wanted a ..
headed to the JIM! do you like my outfit? if you wanted a sneaky locker room striptease video, i offer it every time I head over to the jim :) ater my workout, I will go into the locker room and record myself striping off my clothes for you and showing off how sweaty i am. $20 for a sneaky striptease. $10 for a sneaky still. I love these just as much as you guys do :)
2020-08-28 14:45:20 +0000 UTC View Postoh and these throwback pics are apart of a photoset called "..
oh and these throwback pics are apart of a photoset called "CK." shoot me $25 and it's yours :)
2020-08-27 19:03:48 +0000 UTC View Posttoday's solo video is "pillow talk" one of my most popular v..
today's solo video is "pillow talk" one of my most popular videos :,) itās discounted half off in your DMs!
2020-08-27 16:03:31 +0000 UTC View Postgood morning and happy throwback thursday! remember to check..
good morning and happy throwback thursday! remember to check your dms at noon eastern timezone for throwback videos! each week i send out one retired boy/girl video and one throwback solo video!
2020-08-27 11:08:39 +0000 UTC View Postbefore i go to sleep, i want to share with you a review i go..
before i go to sleep, i want to share with you a review i got on one of my spicier videos. i love reading everything you have to say about my work, especially as it relates to how i go about sharing my world and running my page. i put a lot into this, including most of myselfā¦if not all. hearing that this makes the experience even better for you makes me irrationally happy and fulfilled. thank you for sharing, fire. iām really glad you reached out. I donāt always make spicy content. when I do, i want to feel connected to myself, sensual, and genuine. i want you to feel how real my pleasure is when youāre watching the video. none of that fake shit. Iām not here to fake it, Iām here as an open book, sharing the entirety of my life. that includes intimate moments like these found in this video. sexuality has always been shameful to me. itās been traumatic, unfulfilling, and painful. as i heal, i see more and more the importance of understanding oneās sexuality and pleasures. being explicit doesnāt have to be anything negative. what you see from explicit me is genuine, and if i canāt make it genuine, i wonāt make it at all. and itās cool when you guys can pick up on that. if youād like to be sent the preview for the video, let me know and iāll send it over.
2020-08-27 04:01:24 +0000 UTC View Postok i know i say this every week this IM SERIOUS...this week'..
ok i know i say this every week this IM SERIOUS...this week's playlist is fucking FIRE! never before has a playlist made me dance with weights IN MY HANDS. trust me, you'll love it. put the playlist on with some nice headphones and close your eyes. when you open them i guarantee you'll be in a better mood. it's such a feel-good list this week to match my feel good mood :,) tonightās goal: 8 people grab this week's playlist at $10 (+ you get access to my personal spotify and a folllowback on the app <3 )
2020-08-27 03:01:36 +0000 UTC View Postkickbacks, hip abductors and some good ole back lifts :D nex..
kickbacks, hip abductors and some good ole back lifts :D next time let's hit the naked goal, these would've been spicy naked :D
2020-08-26 23:02:48 +0000 UTC View PostI feel like going commando for todayās workout, dat cool wit..
I feel like going commando for todayās workout, dat cool with you? . . . . . . . damn im in such a teasey moodā¦itās good to be back :,)
2020-08-26 21:50:07 +0000 UTC View Postyou decide what i record my workout in today (: whichever op..
you decide what i record my workout in today (: whichever option has the most votes by the time i'm back from running errands is what I'll record workout wednesday in :D
2020-08-26 18:02:55 +0000 UTC View Post
should I do my workout in see through leggings.....orrrrrrrr..
should I do my workout in see through leggings.....orrrrrrrr..... (scroll for video)
2020-08-26 16:21:07 +0000 UTC View Postone of my favorite shots from my visit this past week. if ..
one of my favorite shots from my visit this past week. if youāre apart of Supreme Team, you have access to all my photography and videography. itās a way to get to know me (and my work) on a deeper level :) If you wanted to join Supreme Team hereās whatcha get: ā team perks for one year ā³ friend add on MFC ā³ snapchat for life ā³ c2c whenever you want ā³ team discord w/ weekly prompts ā³ followbacks on twitter ā³ exclusive tip menu ā³ cutest loaf badge in MFC chat ā 6 months free on onlyfans ā ability to take me private ā ā access to my personal, intimate, and photography photo albums - this is exclusive to this club only. keep checking back throughout the year because more albums will be added as I experience more of the world. ā ā add 2 tip menu item to team's tip menu each time you join Itās $456 to join on onlyfans. 4567 tokens on MFC (https://MFCsha.re/m/t10lc629)
2020-08-26 01:32:29 +0000 UTC View Postok guys, a question for the room: the polaroid post was conf..
ok guys, a question for the room: the polaroid post was confusing as heck! i thought it was clear that highest tip on that post got the polaroid but apparently, you couldnt tip more than $10. a friend brought it to my attention that it's not fair to pick someone based on the highest tip randomly since no one knew what was going on. he wants a rematch. how do we feel about this? i'll leave this up for 24 hours and see where we're at with the polaroid bid :) . . . fucking sidenote: the fact that you guys want in on this polaroid this bad makes me SO STINKIN HAPPY HOLY SHIT! Thank you!!!
2020-08-25 21:32:03 +0000 UTC View Postwho is ready to get SWEATY?! naked goal - 189 instant win - ..
who is ready to get SWEATY?! naked goal - 189 instant win - 250 please type your votes below after tipping! donāt dm them to me, they will get lost :)
2020-08-25 17:03:41 +0000 UTC View Posthello and happy monday! it's no screen day for me - coming b..
hello and happy monday! it's no screen day for me - coming back into the real world today. lot's of resting (i took a redeye last night.....phew those wipe me out) then it's back to the grind! i can't wait to show you everything i've been working on! missing you guys extra, see you tomorrow ā”
2020-08-24 15:18:29 +0000 UTC View Postpolaroids are not your thing, i hear you loud and clear haha..
polaroids are not your thing, i hear you loud and clear haha - beat $10 and this baby is yours! š https://onlyfans.com/42221325/zeta_bb
2020-08-23 23:52:37 +0000 UTC View Postgood morning, i hope you have a fantastic sunday. don't forg..
good morning, i hope you have a fantastic sunday. don't forget about the polaroid bid that ends tonight at midnight (sunday, technically) https://onlyfans.com/42221325/zeta_bb
2020-08-23 13:07:16 +0000 UTC View Postbidding is open! the highest tip on this post from now unti..
bidding is open! the highest tip on this post from now until midnight on the 23rd is the person who gets this really special polaroid. iāll write a handwritten note about the day this photo was taken....in....detail...and sign it with a kiss. i'll tell you all about what it was like to film my first ever G/G video! i won't leave anything out, i promise. good luck!
2020-08-22 07:01:33 +0000 UTC View Post