My apologies for being MIA.. I’ve been too embarrassed to even come on here and try to explain what once again is going on but it’s last week I broke my ankle. This is been my only form of income now for the last couple of months since everything else has been going on and now with my ankle breaking it’s definitely going to continue to be my only source of income and it’s doing really awful. so you might be able to imagine Im a wee bit depressed🥵 I’ve been spending most of my time trying to figure out how I’m going to survive. So Christmas was canceled this year for me😜😆 And I think most of you know already that I’m single, and I live alone and I don’t have anybody to help me so I’m really really struggling. at this point, I don’t give a fuck if I sound weak or pathetic because I know that my vulnerability makes me courageous and you just don’t know what life is going to hand you. So I ask that, although I’m not making a bunch of super sexy posts.. you stick with me to help me through this in a small way. I need a husband😫😜 As my favorite quote says we are all just walking each other home. Its the things that we do for one another in times of need on this planet, that really matter.
Calgon take me away!!!! Laying here, soaking my aching body with no submissives, rushing to my aid and workflow continuing to diminish I realize massive changes have to occur. I’ve been running this page based on what I think will make money and appease muscle lovers but now that this page isn’t making any money I’m going to start doing it my way. I’m a really fascinating, intelligent and highly conscious woman.. hopefully my little fan base will stick around and play. I still need boyfriends aka slaves😉
Good morning darling’s- as you can see my little nugget is feeling much better🥰🥰🥰 and then I’m babysitting my nephew, the walking four-legged Q-tip🤪🤣 He loves dancing with aunt Heather😎
Ok which finger did I break yesterday morning?🤯🤬😝🤦♀️🥵 I cannot believe this! I lhave broken two bones now in two months!!! I just thought that I was going to be able to start doing normal life again because my wrist is getting so much better and then this happens and let me tell you a pinky will hold you back a lot more than you would ever think and it’s also a lot more painful than you would ever think.This makes me so sad! I just want to feel good again- from head to toe. Worst year ever! But thanks to one of my boyfriends… At least I have cool nails😜 and let’s make this next year the best- you guys will be my weekly date CD I gotta go smoke a bowl😢
I could not be more grateful this morning! I have a healthy 11-year-old puppy🤪 She has been full of p and vinegar since last night, which is an amazing sign that she’s back to her self🥰🥳 I cannot tell you how relieved I am!!!! So it’s back to work!😝 Happy Thanksgiving, everyone! Make a list of the 10 things that you were most grateful for and pick two or three to focus on. Be grateful💞
And the hits just keep on coming🤬 like I haven’t been through enough lately this little dog behind me had a stroke on Monday. For those of you, that are my hard-core fans, you know that this is my soul dog, my everything dog, my life! She has been with me thru the thick of it🥵 She’s who snuggles me every night and wakes me every morning🥰 My heart is completely broken because I was not prepared, not that you ever are, but I seriously just did not need this now!!!😫😭💔 I have been through rounds with the vets trying to figure out what is wrong with her and she just had a surgery in aug for bladder stones😫 but I HAVE to get her through just one more hump because I selfishly NEED her! My dogs r my kiddos and my family😌 This time it’s more neurological, and something is in the IG track possibly.. all I can do is wait😫🥵😭 I’m not doing the go fuck me.. I mean go fund me way but I do need to be served since I’m still in a wrist brace myself and biscuits or chickie feet😜 r adding up🤑 so please love on Me and my Zen💫💸 And if you think my target is crazy, you should see my actual vet bills😉 We r alllllllll in this together and you can’t take your toys (or 💰) with you!
How happy do I look? I don’t! Dr office.. infection of my gut and colon! I’m lucky I caught it or I could be in the hospital right now😬 I’m just praying and meditating thru this.. a girl could sure use some gifts.. or tips.. or tits😉 https://www.amazon.com/hz/wis…
I was supposed to be singing ‘she’s a maniac maniac on the floor’.. but I have no idea what that was I was talking about🤦♀️🤪🤣 and my God I look rough😬 like I just rolled out of bed or something😜 then you get to see my spinal stenosis in action- because I haven’t been training my range of motion is super limited. I can’t tell you how horrible that is at my age but I try to make the most of it and work through it best I can. I’m sure it’s hard for you all to imagine that there’s times I can’t even walk. I would’ve had a better chance playing air guitar than air fucking 😝😭😂 You guys don’t really get to see my real personality on here.. I try to keep it muted because it can confuse a lot of people and it’s probably not very sexy. I look like a bodybuilder porn star, but I act like the class clown because I actually was🤪🥸 It’s about time to get my booty back!!!😎💪🍑🦵🦵
Well, I think it’s healing, but my God has this been slow and pretty depressing. I am so ready to get my normal life back. I feel skinny fat and out of shape. I have several forms of work income and they’re all almost nonexistent because they rely on my physique. I seriously can’t believe that I’m on here naked and I still can’t pay my bills. I don’t mean to bitch but it’s fucking infuriating because I am far to fucking sexy for that. Especially compared to all the other stuff I’ve seen on OF… I’m a fucking Goddess🤩
This 80 pound hunk of burning love on my chest just trying to take care of mama😝🤦♀️🫶 This is how we wake up every morning and usually go to bed as well🥰🐾😫💕
New gym outfit😜😬 now I’m finally on the mend I think!😫 I’m not very good at wearing my brace as u can see🤦♀️ but at least I didn’t need surgery and the break wasn’t as bad as thought. However, I did have a very serious case of cellulitis that made me pretty sick and it’s still not gone. Hopefully I will be able to get back in the gym next week. This is probably the longest time I’ve taken off in years🤯 Health is true wealth! It’s been scary af! Vegas isn’t real great for my health. I hope you all are feeling fantastic and healthy as can be😘
This is a clip from a march work out when I had put on a few LBs to the midsection😝😫 and was trying to work them back off. Dancing is my absolute favorite way of working out nowadays.. Unfortunately, it’s the hardest for me as well. It’s not something that I can do whenever I want to- my body has to allow for it and even then I can’t do everything that I would like to.
You may have noticed that I haven’t been posting and I wish that it was because of something wonderful happening like I won the lotto, or finally all the “submissives” put their money where there mouth is to care for this Goddess, but that’s not it☹️ My flare up with the gout ended up, moving into other body parts, like my left foot and hand🤯😭🤬 This only ever being my second experience with gout, I am learning, PAINFULLY! This flare up blindsided me as it came on within an hour and 3 hours later it was in full force😳 Kickin my ass😭 For those of you that have been around for a while, or know me better, are aware that there is also fibromyalgia and spinal stenosis in my DAILY life which is just a constant management job to keep myself in the least amount of pain possible🥹 When I say I’m a badass, I mean it in many, many ways! I don’t want to just share the sexy results of my dedicated determination because that’s not realistic and to be anything other than authentic is not being myself. I wish this post ended with just letting you all know that I am still struggling with a flareup but unfortunately, a few mornings ago as I was munching on my watermelon standing at the kitchen counter early in the morning, I dozed off standing up only to wake up falling backwards and break my fall with my wrist😫 I cannot tell you how devastating this has been!!!! The challenges in not only taking care of myself through something like this, but also providing for myself and my pups is absolutely mind-boggling, stressful, which, ironically it’s that stress that has kind of gotten me into the situation🥵 I’ve been so down and the pain has been driving me insane so I’ve been struggling to make post but I definitely don’t want to be losing my fans! So with that said, I am going to take some time today in between sleeping, make some posts and send out some discounted pay-per-view blast from the past😁🥰🤩🥳 I deeply appreciate you, my boyfriends😉 Especially in times like right now! Cannot stress enough how much I appreciate the support!🙏🥰😘
Sitting here going through dance videos from over the summer desperately ready to have my “dancing shoes”on again😫 I haven’t even danced in almost 2 months😳😫😤🤬 Dancing and music is my air, my joy, my serenity, my centering, and my stress relief- you can only imagine the toll takes on me when I don’t have it😬🤔🥹😢😰😭 Being a chronic pain suffer robs you of life every day- not a single one is predictable anymore. It’s a massive reason for me to stay single and just keep you guys as my boyfriends😜 It has made me feel twice my age, angry and resentful. It is a prison like no other that truly serves a punishment💔💔💔
Since I’ve been laid up I’ve had to get creative😜 I do really enjoy playing with photos because I get to let my artistic side come out. Thank God I’m finally greatly improving! I’m I’m kind of losing my mind not getting to do anything I have had a nightmare of a week having to take care of myself, I do not do well being sick and alone!!!😩😭🥵
