Anal play cumming Tuesday… 👀😇
Anal play cumming Tuesday… 👀😇
2023-12-02 21:33:23 +0000 UTC View PostHey yall!! We are taking a break for the last day of the month. It’s been a crazy few weeks, I’m currently in class to be a relationship specialist, we are prepping to move states in 4 months. I can’t wait to bring yall along the journey, and I can’t wait to show off a new bedroom to yall soon 👀 that will be fun. I appreciate yall always understanding when we need to give our bodies a break. 🖤 have a wonderful weekend and we will see you next Tuesday 😉
2023-11-30 15:35:42 +0000 UTC View Post• narcissus • When I’m having sex with myself, I HAVE sex with myself. In the way I think of touching another person, I close my eyes, caress my skin, feel the heat radiating under my fingers, taste my own sweetness… I can never be certain whether or not my community will relate to the posts I write. Normally, being vulnerable about the darkest parts of my brain opens up a safe space for people to share their experiences. However, I’m nervous to post this video. I don’t talk about it often, but even at my lowest self esteem, I’ve always been able to masturbate to myself. O F was never hard to start because I’ve always enjoyed capturing ~home~ videos. From watching myself in the mirror as I played, to even watching my own videos back as porn. Some far corner of my brain finds myself to be sexually attractive. This feels extremely taboo to say. It’s uncomfortable to acknowledge that I love my own breasts and the way they fall, or to admire the small of my own back when I bend over in videos. I know this isn’t relatable. But it maybe is a secret weapon I feel I should share with people. When I say I love myself, I LOVE myself to the fullest of my capabilities, as if I were another person. From reminding myself to eat, to hyping up my risky fashion choices, to running baths to calm my muscles after a long week. I touch myself sexually and non sexually with only the intent to take care of me. This has helped me give myself grace in days when I feel worthless, my inner voice is kinder to me than it used to be. On days I feel unattractive I give myself extra care to reassure myself that I’m sexy because I say so. I encourage others to take time to celebrate their bodies, whether that’s masturbating to a slow track, in a dark room with candles by yourself. Or even starting small by taking yourself on a date to a new restaurant alone just because you wanted to try it. You are worth being appreciated by Yourself. I used to be afraid of being labeled as conceited, or shallow as the very pool that Narcissus found his own demise. But now I know it isn’t a sin to find beauty in the body that is mine.
2023-11-29 03:13:54 +0000 UTC View Post• thankful • Currently typing this from our friends home in LA , and I can’t think of anything more to say other than I’m thankful. I’m thankful to have this community, this job. I am thankful that this job has lead time to starting school again. I have become so passionate about kink and relationships and portraying them in a healthy way that it’s completely changed what I wanted to do in life and how I want to help others moving forward. I’m excited to finally announce in that I only have 6 weeks left of classes and I will be a certified relationship coach. This means I will be able to work with people individually or partnered to explore attachment issues, practice opening up and being vulnerable, and enhance their emotional awareness. I also will specifically be catering my practice around building comfort with physical intimacy, both their own self-touch and physical intimacy with others. I didn’t think I could take something so taboo that I am passionate about, take CLASSES for it, and come out on the other end helping others in a way I never thought possible. I appreciate each and everyone who has ever come to me for advice, who has DM’d on any of my sites to say that what I do has made a difference in their life because right now, in a very real way, you all have made a difference in mine.
2023-11-24 17:05:46 +0000 UTC View PostVideo to be posted later tonight 🖤🤍
2023-11-23 09:39:11 +0000 UTC View Post• better late than never • Happy wakes up with a stretch and a grin, while Grumpy rolls over upset life has to begin. Happy knows just the day before, Grumpy grinned making coffee to pour in their cup so today Happy says, “lay back down, I’ll get up.” While the corner of Grumpy’s frown twitches to turn, Happy pretends not to notice but they smile too. Happy loves doing things Grumpy doesn’t have to earn, because love isn’t love waiting for something in return. Sometimes Happy says its easy to feel helpless because no matter what you do Grumpy just stays Grumpy, but maybe that’s just what they need. A day to be grumpy, with out having to be what everyone wants them to be. Grumpy feels like a burden because all through out the day, they see Happy giving love away to them like it’s falling from the sky, But Happy never said they’re a burden, and Grumpy never asks why. But the truth is, Grumpy was Happy yesterday and Happy has been Grumpy before. I think the truth is we can be either of these characters , just a little out of sync with how our partner is feeling. Whether it lasts until evening or just through till they’ve had their morning coffee, we won’t always be marching to the beat of eachothers drum and that’s okay. No one will be Happy or even Grumpy every day of their life. This video was posted late because we’ve had a few days of that in a row, where our moods haven’t aligned, our days have been too busy, and by the time we climb into bed we just melt into eachother and fall asleep. This was the first time we had come together where we both had the energy and emotional space to finally reconnect and make it back to being in sync. That meant filming late, posting late, but the end result is the same. After a few days of fluctuations with our partners, It’s easy for doubt to creep in and say “I feel like we aren’t on the same page” but in reality, no one reads the at the same speed. It’s important to stop and say, we might feel like we aren’t on the same page today sure, but I know we are in the same book. You read at your pace and I’ll read at mine, & as long as we make it to the end of the same chapter, better late than never.
2023-11-22 11:32:17 +0000 UTC View PostVery busy day today, so todays blog post will be up a bit later in the day, so stay tuned 👀🖤
2023-11-21 16:04:16 +0000 UTC View Post• empty • Sometimes we just want to feel loved. It isn’t about the orgasm. It isn’t about the need for kink or a fantasy. We didn’t watch or read something that made us hot and heavy. We just want to be held, to be caressed, to be seen, and understood without needing words. It’s terrifying to ask for. “Please love me because I need to remind myself I am not unlovable” isn’t exactly the sexiest request. But sometimes it’s how I feel. I’ve been sexualized my entire life, by grown men whistling at me in the street more before I was 18 than they do now, to the men Ive shared beds with who admitted they never saw anything special about me past what’s between my legs. I feel like I’ve spent so much of my sex life as a performance, long before I ever even heard of OnlyFans. I compared myself to pornstars, took notes and altered my personality to be the perfect girl next store but in platform heels and lingerie, leaving every one pining for more. But only more of my flesh and never whats underneath. Over time that wears you down. My body wasn’t mine, but it was a tool I could finally use to my advantage. To feel loved even for an hour. or at least until the sun comes up. Those vicious voices are still lingering in my subconscious. I won’t be worth loving if I cant put out. They’ll find someone better, if I can’t fulfill their desires. So, I have to ask for that reassurance. And for the first time, I’ve found someone who hears me without judgement. Who gives without getting in return and who wouldn’t hold my short Cummings against me. Someone who touches me without asking me for more. Kisses me without stealing my breath, holds me without breaking my bones. Loves me, without leaving me empty.
2023-11-16 20:43:34 +0000 UTC View Post• watch me • I have a memory from long ago, of a person complimenting my parent on how adorable I was at around my year 5. I looked up, innocently and sort of matter of factly to say “I know” which lead to a wack on the back of my head, reminding me to say thank you. That was one of the first times I realized I either wasn’t allowed to know or at least acknowledge that I know, my own worth. You may think that’s small and just being polite though for the rest of my life whether it’s family or strangers- where I was proud, it was taken from me. Making cheerleading in 6th grade and being told by adults around me that my head got too big. Raising my hand in class often lead to me being bullied even though my answers were always right, I stopped participating in class because that was safer than “showing off.” My first boyfriend took me to an instrument museum, but told me I wasn’t allowed to play the piano (that was placed out for all the guests to use) just because HE didn’t like the attention I got after preforming in things like the talent show or showing off publicly. If I preform at karaoke being too good is seen as taking the fun from other people who might not sing as well. My own foster parent wouldn’t let me sign up for classes that could’ve given me college credits because to her, I thought I was “smarter than I was” and would’ve quit. Even now talking about this I feel extremely uncomfortable listing the things I know I’m good at. Because their programming almost worked. I listened, Must be humble, must need compliments, must plan realistically because I can’t do what other people can, must always be grateful someone else noticed me but I must not put myself in the spotlight. Recently, I’ve been talking a lot recently on my other pages about confidence. How do I wear and post and share the things I do seems to be the big question. I’ve been trying to hard to wrap my brain around it because I don’t know how I do it either. I was born with the largest amount of conceit I think I’ve ever seen, and people over my whole life have tried to take it from me. In reflecting upon my experiences and thought processes it comes down to one thing. Spite. Despite what they tried to forcefeed my brain, I’m proud of being alive still when I thought I wouldn’t be here after I turned 18. I live out of spite. I don’t care if it sounds cliche, but I am Outliving my demons. I will out live them, confidently. Freely. I will post what they told me I couldn’t. I will travel where their feet couldn’t go anymore. I am succeeding in a career I was made fun of for day dreaming about because others are too scared to take the leap. I’ve stopped waiting around for the outside validation I was taught to crave in SPITE of them. These energy vampires that crave the insecurities inside us will always try to knock you down the moment you find solid ground to pick yourself up on. But the moment I am told I can’t be or do something - something inside me says “watch me.” Watch me love my body unconditionally the way society never will. Watch me grow and change and accept my flaws in the ways you’re too afraid to. Watch me confidently be secure in a relationship with someone I think is way out of my league and hey, even watch me sit on her face and pay me to do so. Watch me live my life unashamed, unabashed, unfazed, untamed… Watch me & hopefully I help show even one other person, that they can can reclaim their self too.
2023-11-14 14:49:27 +0000 UTC View PostGuess who bought a dancing pole…. 👀
2023-11-12 03:42:21 +0000 UTC View Post• tasteful debauchery • ‘The Cursed Woman’ (1859) Francois Octave Tassaert. The title of a painting depicting a woman being taken and pleased by three other beings. I’ve never understood its name. If she is a cursed woman, what curse is it and how do I get it? A funny thought, though I haven’t always relished in the energy of that painting. I grew up in religious group homes and adhered to pick-me ideology , trying to be a Virgin Mary in the 21st century. However, that’s not who I am. I’ve always fantasized about the taboo. I love every fleshly sensation. As I age , gain experiences and learn more about my own personal fantasies, I’ve become more comfortable expressing myself to my partner asking to turn those fantasies into reality. That leads us to now. A huge part of our relationship is food. Not just that we eat together three times a day because we have to, but those meals are an emotional & full body experience. When something tastes good, we have to share it with each other. In the same way she makes me lick myself off her fingers, Sometimes an amazing bite of food leaves me thinking about sex. About tasting my partner. Having her warmth on my tongue, the sweetest nectar to ever cross my lips. Admitting that food can turn me on is so vulnerable but I know I’m not alone. All through history artist depicted Images of goddesses caressing each other while tasting ripe fruits out in nature. Why can’t I have that? Intentionally setting aside a morning to worship each other with fruits covered in chocolate for breakfast. To be teased with a strawberry, having every sensation from my clit to my nipples to my taste buds, firing off neurons in my brain, my whole body lit up. I never thought I’d do anything like this, let alone film it. I never thought I’d be with a partner who lets me express myself sexually this way. I also never thought I’d be confident enough to exist slowly in the morning light, just enjoying being human with someone else. It’s an experience that transcends a physical form while using the flesh as a conduit. In a sort of tasteful debauchery, we found heaven indulging in every sin all at once.
2023-11-07 16:51:37 +0000 UTC View Post• Sextras • I was just getting a video of myself because I thought I looked hot, and my love decided to tease me 🫠🖤 she looks so damn good with my breasts in her mouth. I’ve watched this back too many times I’m so happy
2023-11-03 12:44:21 +0000 UTC View Post• gender euphoria • Gender is a vulnerable subject for me. It’s hard to express or explain in layman’s terms. I am nonbinary. I don’t agree with or adhere to gender norms. I don’t believe gender exists in the way it shows up in society today. But even the umbrella of 🌈NONBINARY🌈 doesn’t explain how everyone under said persona is going to look or act or who they are sexually attracted to. If I have to use gendered terms to describe how I feel inside, I personally feel like a man living happily in a woman’s body. Not trapped. Not wanting to get out. Happily at home in the comfort of my soft curves and body parts. Prancing effeminately around, my pretty long hair bouncing with each movement. I get to wear my pretty little outfits and heels and in todays society be accepted for it because my body says I can do those things. Now, I’m sure the reason I feel this way is because I like to be in more masculine roles and in today’s society that is “man” and the second half of my description is “woman” but why resort back to caveman vocabulary when we are just cosmic creatures in a human experience? If I am but the dust of stars decaying, what does it matter is my wife calls me her husband even though I wear a dress? I am handsome. Strong. I provide for my woman. I’m a businessman. A family man. I am a romantic at heart. I’m the man from the books you read doing extravagant elaborate set ups just because it’s Tuesday and he wants to see you smile. A huge part of my journey in my sexuality has been realizing that I was never attracted to men like that, but I’ve wanted to be that man for a woman my whole life. I like my body. I love my breasts most days, I love being a pretty Fae boy with my shiny jewelry and locks of curls. So, that leaves us here. Some odd sort of middle ground where no one seems to get me except the person that calls me her beautiful husband, her handsome wife, her pretty boy, that uses he/him pronouns for me when I’m in full makeup and a dress. The only person whose lips wrap around my dick that isn’t a dick, teaching my soul that true unconditional love is gender euphoric.
2023-11-02 15:04:57 +0000 UTC View Post• leave the bloopers • Yesterday on tiktok I decided to share some of the behind the scenes for this video, which you can go watch now on my page @ ucouldcallmegod. Someone commented to please leave them in this video, and I thought why not leave in the relatable parts? Getting so lost in eachother we forget the door is open, kissing so passionately we bump heads and then bump the wall. The words of affirmation for aftercare. A month long of fantasy and fun ending with the reality behind the camera. This is the part I wish I saw more in this industry. Not just porn but the entire “sex sells” business. Because the only thing their sex is selling is a lie. I want the awkward positions that don’t work, sex that doesn’t end in orgasms because our bodies are NORMAL and can’t always climax. I want laughter and tears just as much as I need the moaning and dirty talk. So whenever I can bring that to this page, I will. Thank you SO much for making it through our Whoreific Halloween season. We enjoyed every costume, every room of the house we got to play in, and we can’t wait to take you to new sets, new personas, and finish out this holiday season with some jolly good surprises 👀 so stay turned and stay safe tonight 🎃🖤
2023-10-31 16:23:22 +0000 UTC View Post• A taste of worship • Something simple. I can’t help but show off my adoring , doting pup
2023-10-28 19:58:42 +0000 UTC View PostNo new post today!! We will be dropping the last October Costume next week on the big day itself: H A L L O W E E N 🎃 Thank you for all your love and support this month. October has been so busy and fun and full of excitement for us. We look forward to all the next ideas and can’t wait to spend our Halloween between the sheets 👻
2023-10-26 13:58:36 +0000 UTC View Post• sins of the flesh • "You painted a naked woman because you enjoyed looking at her, put a mirror in her hand and you called the painting "Vanity," thus morally condemning the woman whose nakedness you had depicted for you own pleasure." - John Berger, Ways of Seeing My body has never been my own. A common theme among my afab peers. Our beauty to be observed only by others, if we acknowledge it ourselves were are conceited. Our bodies only meant for being romanced by unwanted hands or reproducing their repulsive offspring to be born unto the same government regulated rules of “seduction.” What a simple way to keep us submissive. To not know our own bodies. To not know what feels good , what we like and don’t like. We can’t call them out on their inadequacy when we haven’t mastered our own pleasure. Sex became something someone took from us instead of an exchange of energy between two people. Just a cog in a machine that is the human race. Self pleasure used to bring me shame. I felt guilty for touching what is mine. But why should I? My body has been carved and sculpted, drawn out, mapped on canvas and painted for all of history to see. Rounded curves, plump breasts, nipples of all shapes and sizes, even cellulite delicately decorating marble in museums. I have what artists marveled over. To tell me I can’t worship myself blasphemy. I close my own eyes as to not judge myself with what society has filled my head with; and I just feel. My skin is soft. My fingertips are light as a feather even when they get a handful of my breasts. The stretch marks on my thighs feel like silk against my matte skin. They highlight the path down and around my body to tell the story of my life and what my body has been through. I’m proud of that life and that growth. I know I’m powerful. My reality is my perception. I know loving myself is radical and a rebellion of itself. A rebellion that I was told is sinful. To love myself as my own god.To give into the lust for my own flesh. The orgasm is a magical and powerful thing when used intentionally. Channeling my love for myself into my desires for the future, I use my orgasms as tools in my manifestations. From neurons firing like supernova, to the atoms that make up our corporeal being, we are born from the same beginning that birthed millions of galaxies. It is a blessing to partake in the sins of the flesh.
2023-10-24 17:12:37 +0000 UTC View PostSneak Peak on your Sunday 👀🖤 A tease of Tuesday
2023-10-22 16:53:12 +0000 UTC View Post• J and Q • Playing pretend, playing dress up- What if we didn’t have to give that up just because we are adults? I recently had a conversation with someone about how to bring up role playing to their partner. It’s nerve wracking asking to try something new in the bedroom (or any part of the house 😉). We can become insecure for a laundry list of reasons. We don’t want our partner to feel like we want to be with another person or possibly we are scared of being laughed at and judged for things that turn us on. Being vulnerable about intimate and hidden fantasies can be intimidating. However, life is too short for bad sex. There I said it. Don’t come for me. Hot take; Life is too short. There aren’t an infinite number of “climbing the exercise machine” or “getting eaten out while upside down on a couch” days left for me. So, what do we do? For me this has many factors: communication, vulnerability, and having a partner you feel safe with (and safe to be rejected by). The best way to start a hard conversation like this, is to make sure the time and place is correct. No tv or distractions. I usually ask my partner how they are feeling mentally that day and if they have room for me to open up to them. From there it’s all about me being honest and open with myself and with them. For me, kink is self expressive, it’s healing, and it lets me reach limits of my own body and my mind with the person I’m most in love with. Exploring new costumes doesn’t mean I want to be with another person or I’m fantasizing about not being in this relationship- but I am getting to play dress up and feel sexy in my own skin. I get to be characters that make me feel strong or sultry. Exploring a universe in my imagination. The fact that my partner , my best friend and lover, gets to join that fantasy world with me is the best part. She looks so powerful in her element, if you can’t tell she enjoys the costumes too. Having a compatible partner is a very important part of having the kind of sex that you both are into. “But god*,” you ask. “What if they say no.” Great question. Let’s talk about Hard-Nos versus Not-right-nows. To me people have levels of “no” when it comes to things they will do in bed. A Hard No in the kink community is something a person will never do, for one reason or another, trauma or just no into the idea. a Hard No must always be respected and never pushed unless that person decides they want to push that limit. However, most of sexual positions aren’t a definite no. Many people just haven’t been asked to try them. When being vulnerable and asking to try something new, you can’t give ultimatums or beg and plead for someone to do it just because you want it. How I approach these conversations is asking “Are you open or willing to try this now, in the near future, or is this something that will take time and care?” In my own relationship, we have had plenty of things in the bedroom that M or I wanted when we met that we haven’t started doing until now because we Now feel safe enough to try them with eachother. I cannot stress enough how important it is to respect however your partner feels, as much as it is to honor yourself. If you have a kink that you cannot live without and you have a partner where that is a hard no, then you two may not be compatible in that area. And/or you two could explore other relationship dynamics where you can both be fulfilled. This all goes back to having someone you love and feel safe with, who you feel safe being rejected by. YES MEANS NOTHING IF NO WAS NEVER AN OPTION. You and your partner will have a more enjoyable sex life when you can empathetically communicate, know there is still love if the answer is no, and hey, you might just find yourself a villain living in a DC universe with your partner in crime.
2023-10-20 02:58:22 +0000 UTC View PostLong video coming later tonight 👀
2023-10-19 15:45:24 +0000 UTC View Post• what’s your favorite scary movie • Today I’m taking a pause from blogging to say thank you to everyone who appreciates and reads the entries that normally go along with my videos. The messages and comments I get for my writing have inspired me to get started on a project that has been a life long dream of mine, that of which I cannot wait to share later in the future. I cannot thank you enough for reading, watching, supporting- either here or on my other platforms. Everything y’all do to contribute to this community truly does matter and I can’t wait to create bigger and better for you and for myself. I’m so proud of what this is growing into, I’m hopeful for the vision I have to carry this into next year, and I’m eager to share in all my creations once they’ve come to fruition. I’d love to hear from y’all about your October plans, sexy or not, favorite movies or autumn activities. Thank you all for your continued support, have a terrifyingly terrific Tuesday 🖤
2023-10-17 15:04:37 +0000 UTC View PostFilming Ghostface v Ghostface & Harley Quinn/Joker tomorrow 😘🖤
2023-10-14 03:28:44 +0000 UTC View Post• strength training • If you’ve been following me for a while on any other platform, you’ll have seen that I started working out a few months ago. We bought weights from 3-30 pounds, resistance bands for all sorts of stretches, and a pull up/core station. For me personally, I’ve never had “body goals.” I am very body neutral; it’s the one I got and there isn’t much use for me hating it all the time. That said.. I also just didn’t think I’d live in this body for this long. I’m closing in on my 27th birthday, I’ve carried and had a human taken out of my body then fed it with only my body for a year, I’m now traveling more & wanting to see places I can only travel by foot. I didn’t think I would ever make it to being this person. I’m learning quickly that I want to live a long and full life, not fighting my own joints and back pain every step of the way. This has changed my definition of a “body goal.” My “body goals” now, are for my legs to make it a full hike in to a water fall, swim all day, and hike out safely. I want my body to be able to climb up any tree or take on any roller coaster to see the world from a different perspective. I want my body to be able to keep up with my life and the humans in it. I want to age gracefully. I want grace in my aged wrists, hopeful I still paint when I’m grown. I want grace in my ankles while I’m dancing with my wife in the kitchen, seeing her beautiful wrinkles one day, deep as my own from all the life we lived together. That type of aging gracefully starts now. With how we move, eat, sleep, etc.; everything we do for our body is to make it to the end in the least amount of discomfort. It’s hard to form new habits, it’s hard to put effort into a body you didn’t ask for or didn’t think you’d have past 18, but I am certain that future me will appreciate my efforts, as even now I am grateful for me a few months ago that started this journey. Because on days like today, strength training can come in very handy.
2023-10-12 20:33:04 +0000 UTC View Post• keep the light on • Full blog on my Instagram(youcouldcallmegod) since this post keeps getting taken down, to watch the intro of this video please check my tiktok(ucouldcallmegod). Please avoid all comments including the letters see.en.see(please take a hint). Let’s just call it.. playtime. so this video doesn’t get removed again. 🖤 feel free to DM me for questions about it.
2023-10-11 10:44:05 +0000 UTC View PostOkay my video has been removed again because of all the comments around the topic of the video. Unfortunately there is nothing I can do about that. I’m going to try and upload it one more time. But if it doesn’t work out , then I can’t repost it again. I’m sorry everyone. I put in a lot of effort into this video, it’s very disappointing to have it removed over and over, fornyou as much as me.
2023-10-11 10:20:21 +0000 UTC View PostOF removed todays video due to a few words that were used and the set up of the camera. I’m re-editing and having to clip a few things down. I apologize for the inconvenience and I will have the video up in a few hours
2023-10-10 19:26:51 +0000 UTC View Post“Don’t tempt me,” She said right before taking me. Just wanted to give a little extra this week. This video came just after getting dressed for work but Mykayla just couldn’t wait for the scene 😅👅😘 I just taste too damn good.
2023-10-06 12:46:59 +0000 UTC View Post