This past Sunday I went to see the new community garden I would like to start building with others.
So far it only exists in sketch form - but I believe that if all goes well, it will become a beautiful space just a short walk from my flat that will be a joy to visit. So please keep your fingers crossed for me.
In the last 2 weeks or so, I've been doing only a few things - working, practicing yoga, going to therapy and/or sleeping (the last mentioned probably in the largest numbers). As I write this, I'm sick (nothing serious, just some kind of virus).
So much has happened in my life in the last 2 months that I'm honestly glad I'm avoiding an increase in antidepressants thanks to the support of my wonderful therapist. Most of these things are so intimate that I honestly don't want to go into them here.
But they happened. And actually, it's good that they did. I believe that if something new is to come into your life, the old must inevitably go first.
I'm trying to enjoy autumn as much as I can - from the safety of my home, as you can see in the second photo ๐ I'm also withdrawing from weed, I want to last at least 3 months.
And I'll be candid with you - I think about feedism very minimally right now. I guess it's no wonder.
Today is the beginning of fall. Melancholy. Cobwebs in the air, leaves on the ground, and pumpkin time. A dark half of the year begins.
I'm sitting in the garden, wanting to read King (whom I love) but can't concentrate much. I'm thinking about the therapy I'm going to have tonight.
I want to throw some old skeletons out of the closet. Let them go forever with the end of summer. It hurts, but it's probably a necessary part of maturing.
I listen to the wind in the treetops and the sound of the woodpecker pulling the worms out of their trunks. I'm hoping my therapist will do the same for me today - pull out and destroy a few of the crickets that are eating me up inside.
Have a great start to fall. It's a magical time for me ๐
I have to admit, this isn't exactly easy for me to write. But since you probably already know that I pride myself on being transparent and open with my fans, I think it's necessary.
The truth is, I've just been... burnt out lately. I thought a week of vacation and a break from the OF would fix that, but it will take a little more time. A month, two...? I can't say at the moment.
A lot is going on in my life right now, many painful things. I don't want to go into too much detail, but one of them is that my beloved farm is gone.
I'm going through a lot of changes that I need to process. Ideally away from social media.
Thank you to everyone who understands this. Of course, OF distorts a lot and objectifies the creators - but believe me, we are ordinary human beings too. Sometimes it's just too much for us. Take care of yourself ๐
P.S.: I originally wanted to post a nice, edited photo here - but I ended up posting a photo of me with Dyki, no makeup, and acne. That's just me now ๐
(piggy on all fours, cake munching, oinks, buttplug, and (spread legs) masturbation from different positions ๐คซ 13+ min. video)
Buttplug in my ass, total switch to piggy mode including oinks and nibbling and licking the cake like a hungry sow... I planned it maybe a bit longer, but my horniness just couldn't be controlled anymore ๐ฅต Honestly... if I were narcissistic, I'd jerk off to this video myself ๐
Just a little teaser for the upcoming video (which I hope to shoot this week ๐ค๐ป). The piggy costume alone is extremely hot for meโฆ no thinking, no worries except for my tummy getting bigger and heavierโฆ OK, Iโm back to being horny ๐
Not gonna lie - the last few days Iโve been totally insatiable ๐ฎโ๐จ
After a month-long weed tolerance break I started smoking again and massively binging every night. I think Iโll reach at least 90 kilos (200 pounds) this way by the end of the summer. Just writing this makes me incredibly horny ๐คญ
But Iโd like to ask for your help. As much as I love these daily stuffing parties, itโs not exactly a low-cost thing to do. So if you want, you can sponsor me now.
๐ As a reward, I'll send you a new 5-minute video of stuffing that I made today. That gut is starting to come down hard. ๐ฅต๐ (shhh... if you donate $20 or more, I'll add another 3-minute video - body tour and weighing ๐คซ)
TLDR, Iโm just a hefty little sow and if this keeps up, Iโll be spending my entire paycheck just for the stuffing soon ๐ So thank you in advance for helping to make me even bigger and rounder ๐๐ป๐ท
Guess which little sow is starting to get stretch marks on her insatiable gut ๐ท btw I had a burger, fries, some pancakes and I'll have some chocolate ๐
If you want, you can send me a stuffing tip today and I'll make the tummy even bigger. And I'm not kidding - I'll send you a 3 pics of it to DM ๐
Earlier this year, I wanted to scrap this dress. It emphasized my tummy too much and was just... "inappropriate" to wear out.
Well, somehow I've concluded that everyone can just get pissed off. I love my fat body, and my round belly and I'm not afraid to show it ๐คทโโ๏ธ๐ #fatacceptance
Thank you so much for your time and support ๐ค We chatted about feedism, how I'm doing with my (non-existing ๐ ) boyfriend and what the next video will be about, among other things. I look forward to the next time! ๐
If you weren't on the live stream, put your questions in the comments, I'll answer them ๐โโ๏ธ
So I think itโs clear - the stream will take place this Saturday (10.8.) at 4PM NY time. It will be an AMA format for about an hourโฆ just gonna have a cool summer afternoon where Iโll be more dressed up than in these pictures ๐ I look forward to seeing you ๐ค P.S.: The stream will be free with the option to send a tip during the broadcast if you feel up to it.
btw there are already 2k of you here. I really appreciate it and thank you for your support ๐๐ป๐โโ๏ธ
OK, here we go. My first stream ever ๐ Now all that's left is the last one - let me know what date is most convenient for you (times are listed in NY time).
I bought a nebula projector - I have high-functioning autism and the different dim lights help me calm down in the evening. But apparently it can be used in different ways... ๐
What did I enjoy most in my time off? Everyday life. Actually, no big things, just the simple pleasure of:
๐ the community garden and my harvest ๐ my new hyrax t-shirt (I LOVE hyraxes <3) ๐ the sunshine and swimming ๐ braiding my hair ๐ sleeping under a tent and a campfire
I guess I just don't need anything big (other than my gut :P) or famous. It's just the little things that make me happy ๐
btw if you want to meet me in the summer, head to the swimming pool at Pลaลพaฤka. We'll have a drink at the bar... and something to eat ๐
(weight gain shake funneling & water inflation ๐คซ 8 min. video)
I think it deserves a blast before the summer break ๐ This is the first video of me doing a weight gain funnel and water inflation simultaneously. Like a true queen of inflation itself ๐
I'm still at the beginning of my "workouts" with that, so I started the video with an empty stomach (literally empty, I hadn't eaten ANYTHING since the morning before filming)... well, and I ended up like an overinflated balloon ๐
I'm putting this video at a lower price than the last one - it's not that long and I can see in it that I need to practice more (yes, I'm a perfectionist, sadly). But I'm sure you enjoy it as much as possible ๐
โฆ just a quick showing of ๐โโ๏ธ๐ท #nomakeup #nofilter
(I was wondering if I could make it nowโฆ but yes ๐ The popular promo is here again - you buy any video and Iโll send you 2 more shorts videos for free, this time with the theme of hanging tummy in the sink ๐ Valid until Wednesday midnight ๐)
I'm not sure if I haven't shared this already, but I currently have a full time job, plus freelance projects, and I'm still trying to be active here. I feel like I need to take a little time off ๐งโโ๏ธ
July 5-21 I want to be completely off social media and will be here more sporadically until the end of August. I want to release one more video before then ๐ฅฐ
I'll also admit that I don't plan on gaining much weight over the summer. The amount I've gained over the past year is still totally CRAZY for me and I'm learning to live in a new, piggy body ๐ท We'll see what the fall brings. And if I don't change my mind by then ๐
I share this with you because I like to be completely honest and transparent with my fans. I've always prided myself on the fact that this is the real My feedee world - it's just a piece of my life, not an acted illusion. I can't and won't lie.
Enjoy your summer, I'll see you later โ๏ธ
P.S.: This holiday I would like to finally organize the stream I've been promising you for almost a year now... I know ๐ถ ๐๐ป
