I'm slowly becoming a person again. Thank you all for your patience. I'm terrified of checking my DMs (again) but I'll try to get to them tomorrow. β¨π
Sorry y'all, got home late this evening and immediately realized I didn't have my purse (including laptop, meds, and IDs), which meant I left it in the hotel parking lot. Spent several hours having a meltdown but thankfully the hotel has it. π³ππ
This is just a bit of what we did in the shower last night. π¦ What do you think? Should @rain101 and I make more content together? π
This hotel room has a niiiice shower so we put it to good use. If you've ever wanted to see me suck dick, you'll really enjoy the content with @rain101 going up tomorrow... π
(Sorry for lack of makeup- my face looks gross but the rest of me doesn't π π)
Random photo dump, will be back from California tomorrow night, so regular content will resume this weekend! Thank you for your patience!
Also, if I owe you custom content in a specific outfit/outfits, I'll be in touch soon. We had to leave our washer and dryer at the old place so all of my clothes have been in garbage bags for the last month. π
Hey guys- we're in the new place and it's PERFECT. I'm on two new meds and feeling leagues better. I've got some custom work to catch up on and DMs to respond to, but I'm looking forward to posting more regularly! Today I told myself I could have a dab and a bath if I got my to-do list done. ππ Can't wait to show y'all my new office!
This new house has tons of little corners for me to explore π. Hope you enjoy a few shots of me without makeup, basking in the buttery afternoon light.
Finally in our (beautiful, miraculous) new place. Give me a few days to a week to get unpacked and settled and I should be back to posting regularly soon. π
TW: Trauma, death
You guys, I am TERRIFIED of checking my inbox. If you've subbed lately and feel like it isn't worth it, I understand and I'm sorry. I know I owe one person a rating, and a couple others custom content. Please bear with me. As a thank you for sticking around, here is one of my favorite videos from back when I had long hair.
If you're just now joining and wondering why I haven't been consistently active, my mom died in February. The process of getting home to say goodbye, the 14 hours I spent watching death creep in and take her (it's a process), and the aftermath (including walking into her apartment to find the bed and bathroom covered in her bl00d) were really traumatic in ways I wasn't prepared for. Every day is a challenge. I can't sleep in my own bed anymore. My startle response is so exaggerated that I literally always feel on edge, always on the verge of tears. Intrusive thoughts are constant. I feel like I don't know myself. I've been in therapy for a couple of months now and am starting EMDR tomorrow so I have hope for more noticeable improvement soon, but until then I feel like I'm scrambling in the dark.
I know y'all are here for sexy shit, not for the dumping of emotional baggage, but I've always been transparent to a fault, and I don't feel good about accepting money from people when I'm not producing content. I've thought about changing my page to a free one, but that wouldn't be fair to all the people who have paid for the content that's already there.
Hi guys. I'm so sorry I haven't been active- I'm still working through a lot. I deal with incredible guilt and anxiety when I go a few days without posting, which makes me afraid to open up the page and post things. A vicious cycle, but one that's so hard to break because I'm terrified of having an inbox full of angry DMs from people who are disappointed in me. Even now I cannot bring myself to click my inbox. Please be patient and i will try to respond to all of my DMs by tomorrow. I know your $5-6.66 a month could be spent buying coffee or paying for netflix, so I don't want to seem ungrateful for the support you've all shown me, but there's a reason I freelance online instead of getting a "regular" job and it's primarily because of the volatility of my mental health. I'm seeing a therapist and making progress, but the fallout from my mom's death still really gets to me on a regular basis. Even the content I have posted over the past month or so has been "filler" content- things that require less editing and energy. Anyway, here's some more filler titties. It is the best I can do right now. More soon.
Meep. Sorry for the gaps in posting- I started this as a fun side project, but I'd really like to be more diligent and consistent. Not my strong suit, but I'm doing my best. I love love love teasing and I hope you've enjoyed the last few videos. It makes me feel really beautiful that you guys find me worth watching. π
good morning y'all, hope you're having a great week βοΈβ‘π
PS the number of times I have spent a long ass time organizing the order of photos in a gallery and then forgetting to hit the little check mark to save the order before saving the post is SO FUCKING HIGH.